23102008----------------->screw me~!

another sleepless night?lolx..i went to bed at 6.30 this morning..wat a nice time to sleep huh~
slept and woke up..got shocked by the msg that i received from dad..
"gud morning darling,call me when u wake up~"goodness..
i called..and..omg omg~~he told me..that...grandma had alzheimer's..ok..
2days ago was told by aunt that she had a mild stroke..
yesterday aunt informed me that grandma wasn't in a very good condition..
today daddy said she had alzheimer's..wat a good news!
and..so~he wants me to go visit her at the hospital..
aite~she's suppose to discharge from the hospital this week..because of dental..she stayed..
and i duno wat the fuck is wrong~she had a mild stroke in the morning..
bloody hospital don't even give a damn about it~simply said because her blood pressure was low~
fine..then the day before yesterday only went for scanning..the report was collected yesterday evening..
ok~multiple infarcts..instead of getting a specialist..they get her a physician..
and my aunt duno anything..until i told her u better go get a specialist..transfer granny to another hospital..
this afternoon~i went!ok..i'm a coward..i don't dare to go on my own..i had phobia visiting hospitals...thanks to tawakal!
everyone's busy~busy~go bank,dye hair..fine!i went v uncle menglek..
grandma CAN'T recognise me anymore..the pain..is so much worst than losing a boyfriend..
18 years..i stayed with her..and outta no where she CUDN'T remember~WAT THE FUCK!
she was staring blankly at me..goodness!!!!!then i called DR.Ricky..chang's uncle..
now..that half her body's paralyzed..memory lost..make her movement priority..
aging stroke..
the stupid and arrogant bastard...the idiot physician~I KNOW I'M NOT A PHYSICIAN!
AND I KNOW I LOOK LIKE A KID~FUCK YOU!HOW DARE YOU STARE AT ME LIKE I'M SOME SORT OF IDIOT?
ur such an asshole..don't make me curse you right in front of ur face..and don't u think that i dare not do that..i've did smth even worst in the hospital..
granny's behaving like a kid now..that's still not the worst part..
she kept wanting to get up~sigh..half paralyzed..as in half her right part of body paralyzed..
how the hell is she suppose to get up?
in order to prevent myself from crying i got out from the ward..
sat there..kept myself busy...simply texting everyone..
didn't eat anything since i woke up..lost of appetite..
i'm worried..i'm scared..i'm afraid that she might jux passed away in the hospital..
i HATE hospitals..because of they're carelessness..i lost a grandpa..
i don't know if i'm gonna lose another one..i'll definitely screw the hospital if this happen so..
went of v uncle..not until chang told me to makan..so~
uncle bought me and roc dinner..hoho~very kind of him to buy us japanese food..
aite..actually my plan was to like play dota till i got tired and sleepy i wud go to bed..
i'm avoiding the fact so?i'm afraid..sad things come together..
cud the sad stuffs jux fuck off?urgh~then?nth much...
online...played a game only...tom and spect din join...
played v 2 strangers..remaked once...got screwed by one of them once..
ok i'm sad..so i quit at the almost end of the game..sorry~
i really cudn't take it anymore..i thought i cud..
how much more sad stuffs are coming up?no body knows..


i'm vain, so?