29042009---------------->i'm just happy

well well well...let's see..i had great day today!haha..
didn't make it to dear dear's place..he said..dunid le.. *sad*
soooo...i slept till almost noon..yippie!ya..i'm having great time relaxing here..
do envy me...and haha..you shall see me cry for the second time^^
so..the reason i stayed home today..because the piano tuner wanted to come over to fix my piano...

and...me as a very great host..i was still in my pyjamas when he came..
hehe^^i seek no effort to change...weeeee
watched one piece again for the rest of my day till around 4pm...
daddy called back and said:" ouh your car's ready...later i send you to pick your car back"..
YIPPIE!!SENSE THE HAPPINESS IN ME!!SENSE ME..FEEL IT..
was sooooo soosososososososo happy...
i took a quick bath...and waited..yahoooooooooooo!!!

ouh my beloved car...my goodness lar..those mechanics dirtied it..omfg..is like a trash car..
ima send it for cleanup tomorrow...then only i go visit my tit dah master...
yippie yaya yippie yippie ya..
say bye bye to the sardine train^^
*fireworks*

i'm still relaxing...first paper is only 2 weeks later..
please someone slap me PLEASE!!!
i need to study de...omfg...i duno wat to do... ToT
urgh...

*i'm still happy*...

weeeeee....funny video!hahahaha.. tuts my barreh

25042009--------------->effing screwed..

fucken hell..jux leave me alone
i seek no help...as no one would give me a hand..
i sat aside in agony..and suffered in my own pain..
when i give a thought about it..i realized i ran outta brain juice..
i have no slutions to the tonnes of problems i am facing..
all i want..is SILENCE!
all i want..is PEACE..
all i want..is THE FREEDOM I HAD BEFORE..
all i want..is NOTHING TO WORRY..
all i want...is JUST MY NORMAL LIFE..
so..for the sake of fulfilling wat i want..
people out there..PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE..
i know i will find my way..
i know i will have my thought
i know wat i could do for myself..
thanks for the care..
thanks for the love..
thanks for the patience..
thanks for the advice..
i learnt from my mistakes..
i learnt from my pass..
i never would do the same again..
i swore to myself..

23042009-------------->emo!!emo!!emo!!

saw christy's blog..well..here's something i learnt in my life..never trust someone 100%..NEVER!i will never do that again..i SWEAR!!fucken irritating...things tend to turn out badly..lately!i have no idea why..it just couldn't go according to my plans!ima be EMOFO soon...lets see..when u trust someone..there's nothing as ouh i trust 50%and leave the other 50% aside..there's no such thing in my life..when i don't trust i don't trust..i give you 100% and you returned 70%...and that's the end of the story..that's it..

wasn't in a really good mood lately..things stressed me up~especially that dumb upcoming exam!i have no idea..wat i'm doing..FUCKEN CAR still not here yet..motherfucker you tend to take ages to repair my brake paddle eh?have you got any idea how much i suffered throughout the week?if you couldn't get it done..then don't fucking tell me that the car will be ready by when when and when..i hate the stupid train!and now i have no where to go...i don't know where to camp..

no car..i can't camp at college till late night..dad's gonna renovate my room..WHERE THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO SLEEP?you can't expect me to study in jack's room..that's a total junk store to me..so..give me an answer where to study?WHERE?i want my car back...I WANT IT BACK!i rather that car hasn't broke down before..i'm at my peak right now..i'm going crazy..everything's driving me crazy!

i only know i'm having a very very messy thinking..having messy thoughts aint good...having insomnia...fucken hell!and the worst!the weather is SUCKY...how many times am i supposed to bath in a day?omfg omfg i hate it..and i'm always the one being nice and got scolded at the end..well..i don't wanna be the nice person anymore..lolo got it right..darling said the same thing..everyone told me the same thing..fuck man!seriously..fuck off please..just leave me alone..thanks~

urgh..URGH!!!!why would things turn out to be at its suckiest point when my DUMBASS FINALS is around the corner?why can't they be nice to be for once?WHY?ima curse the day light outta it..exams exams exams...grandma..family..friends...darling..what the hell is wrong?where the hell went wrong?grrrrrrr...grrrrrrrrrr....

p/s: seriously in emo mood..gimme a knife and i might slice you up~

21042009------------->the rain made me thinks about you

saw the tiredness in me?sigh*
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another sleepless night..i guess i'm having a world-best boyfriend now..there's no such thing that you could actually pop into ur bf's room early in the morning and stays at his house for the rest of the day just because you wanna sleep..well..i could do that at my bf's house!=) and i'm always glad about it..thanks darling...*muackx*

well..it has been really really hot these 2 days...hasn't seen a droplet of rain coming down from that very high sky...sad...i'm always feeling sweaty and sticky.. =(

err...is 3.30am and~haha^^it rained finally..so heavy..it's a heavy downpour..never really hates raining..i enjoy walking under the rain..playing under the rain..weeeeeeeee =) the wind blowed like as if a lion was roaring right outside at your gate..i was sitting by the sliding door..feeling the coldness of it..and i thought of you..

you were really really happy yesterday eventhough you were sick..well..i guess i know why..haha^^but i'm so not gonna tell you..since you said no!weeeeeeeee lets just keep it to myself..lalala..ya..my big baby here is sick..please don't get sick..i know you have no say but just please don't.. =( take care and drink lotsa water please...PLEASE!!

p/s: i really need you right now..and please don't ditch me...=D you promised...hehe^^ you never break any of your promises before..so please don't do it..weeeeeeeeeee =p love you! muackxx..

18042009--------------->outing with pua pua =)

weeeeeeee..mah outing with mah pua pua!haha..no worries..pua pua aint my boyfriend..he's mah 'sista'..hehe^^ well..go further to study lar..no time to ying chao me jor..finally squeezed that tiny bit of time for me...omfg!ish..so..the destination changed from one to another and then back to the same point..pavillion...i simply love the cinema seats~THEY'RE SIMPLY OSUM.. ^_*

well..i have no car lately..my only transport be..DUMB KTM..fucking hell..dumb weather made me sweat like a crazy girl..urgh..i hate the sticky feeling..especially right after i bathed..wtf man!i thought the train should be cooling....i bet it be the shittiest train ever...i was like in a sauna..holy!out of the blue..i sensed hunger in me..sad..forgotten to grab a bite when i left...and i forgotten bout darling's present...hehe^^his book...

well..instead of taking monorail and walk under the hot sun...i took a cab^^weeeee...the taxi driver is jux nice...haha..i'm always lucky to get some nice taxi drivers..they be kind to me..=)hohohoho..met up with pua pua..ouh~we went for...the movie..-------->MALL COP..

hilarious lar!hahahaha..i laughed non-stop in the cinema..is funny yet meaningful..the cinema was like soooooo empty...maybe because it's only 12.15pm...i have no idea..but definitely not more than 40 people inside the cinema 2..like i said..i had great time watching my movie in the big big cinema with my food..i miss my boyfriend sitting beside me tho =(

well...after the movie..headed down to starhill...jogoya...got my vouchers and met a few friends and off i left for darling's house...well..the later part of my day be boring and useless..nothing much to write bout..hehe^^ no worries i had my great day tho!yippie~

17042009--------------> sun's birthday...

今天心情还不错的。。就来篇华语的！哇~真的很久很久没有用华语了。。感觉就是很陌生。。其实，我并没有很讨厌华语，我只是不太喜欢。。讨厌和不喜欢是很大分别的。。今天阿，是我小学的一个好朋友的生日。。很可惜的就是都失去联络了。。可悲吧？

我身边的朋友总是看起来很多但其实却很少。。有时候翻查自己手机里的联络簿里找寻着朋友的时候，总是想不起谁是自己的好友。。那些朋友都是在他们遇到困难的时候，他们需要你的时候才会出现的。。我还真的很失败。。那天，我告诉升说：“ 喂，我刚发觉原来我没有什么朋友，我觉得很好笑。。你有那样认为吗？” 没想到的是，这个就是他的答案：“ 是哦？我告诉你，其实我和你都差不多。” 哎哟~这个到底是什么社会嘛？

其实，我很想避免这些人。是想得不得了！但是，我却办不到。我不忍心当没有人肯帮忙的时候，自己也是其中一分子。我没有办法当冷血的自己，总是觉得很残酷！就好像和亲爱的吵架，我都会硬着头皮去道歉，因为我觉得说句对不起并没有伤害到我。。说了对不起，他开心了，见面的时候就自然不回尴尬拉！但很多事情，是说了对不起都无法挽回的。。。

我一直没有用华语写部落是有原因的。。因为我那亲爱的看不懂华语。为什么要为难他呢？所以总是用英文。。今天心血来潮了。。撇下那白痴的信念，来篇华语的，感觉还挺好的！其实我还有个冲动，就写篇华语的信，要他的朋友念给他听，看看他会不会很感动！呵呵~我想是自己想太多了。。因为，天塌下来都不可能发生的事，竟然是我的梦想！哇咔咔。。。天真啊。。 ^^

16042009------------->it's the fourth month

been waiting for this day for sooooooooo long..we've been through quite a lot..aint it...is not easy you know..when 2 people gets together..we'll need patience and a very good temper...i'm not a girl with very very good temper..and i don't really have patience...you don't clap with a hand..we need two hands to clap to make a noise!

i endured...i followed your pace..i tried my very best to be a good girlfriend..because i knew i wasn't one in the past..i thought i was one right now..but i somehow failed to be one aint it?i never thought of betraying this relationship if i gave you the impression..simon is simply one guy that could be a good friend..to me he's better than some hypocrite friend...

yesterday was a hectic day for me...i couldn't take it anymore..i hate hospitals and that's why i feel so sick bout it..going to the hospital be worst than visiting a graveyard..and i hope you understand my feeling...my anger and frustration will take over my patience and happiness easily..you can put it as dementors in real life..which until today i have no petronuses to take them away...i'm sorry

i didn't want to be a cry baby..i hold my grudges and my tears..like i said..i don't wanna pressurized the already burdenized and pressurized shoulders of yours...you have your own life at work..i only hope that you could spare a lil time when i need you...seriously a little time only..you tried very hard to be a bf as well...we have loads to learn in life...it ain't easy...is not a nursery rhyme nor something you could learn by just watching video..they're something you will only get to learn when you experience it...

is tough..is painful..and it always give you the feeling of giving up!a fight is a fight..a fight with love and patience is different from a normal fight..a fight that will lead us to get to know each other better is different too...i love you my boyfriend and i hope you understand...muackx

13042009------------------>slacking at kent's

went to pc fair yesterday with jack and dear...hmm..to be honest i preferred last year's fair..not much pretty models this year.. =( and after i drove out from the parking..fucking car broke down..sigh~ well i'm no mechanic..so obvious i had no choice but to call my dad..got scolded..so?it won't help..and it was raining heavily that time..stayed there...waited..jack had to take cab back to his school.. sorry babe..

so left me and kent in the car waiting for the mechanic to come..awesome time aint it..haha~ playing with the windows..snapping photos..great ^^ thanks jon for fetching me home..never hope for my parents to come pick me up..as i know THEY WON'T!and they will never..i wonder how only i could be selfish..i wanted to be like them as well..lemme be one selfish girl..selfish girlfriend..maybe i'll live a happier life?

stoned and slacked around..hit the sack quite early yesterday.. =) woke up damn early this morning..well..had no choice cox darling's DSLR be with me...had to send it to him before he went off to work..so..took the dumb train..I SWEAR!!I'LL NEVER TAKE KTM ANYMORE IN THE MORNING UNLESS I HAVE NO OTHER ALTERNATIVES..god damn it!people pushing around..squeezing in and ignoring you when you said stop pushing and "ouch"..i was so worried bout the DSLR in my bag...i wonder if i crashed it or wat..sigh*

well..he went to work..and i stayed at his house...slept for 2 hours..hmm..the dreamcatcher thingy didn't work well on me..i had 2 hours of different kinda dreams..woke up study..then can't stand the messiness of his room..had to clean up for him...well it looks tidier than before..got so fed up with my tort law that i gave up studying and start slacking here..haix...YIPPIE! can collect my car dy later by 4pm or so..sad case..i'll have to go mum's shop after that..hectic lar..god damn it!

10042009------------>the feelings jux came out of the blue

hmm..been having this weird routine lately..a driver for both the guys..my bro and my big baby..well..fetching roc be lessen dad's burden..fetching the big baby because i wanna see him moar!couldn't really sleep lately..would wake up in fright during midnight..URGH!and is always 3am..wtf!as i have to wake up 515 in the morning..i get extremely tired after that..*sigh*why am i always having this dumb insomnia during exam eves?serious shit~

bah..back to the day..fucking got caught in the jam..due to my lateness!i left the hse around 625..sigh..sigh..shuda got up earlier and avoid the jam..but my SLEEP!?!?neway after sending roc..jln kuching was still kinda smooth that time..was listening to jj&ean in the car..ok i have this habit of playing loud music whenever i feel sad or down or watsoever you called..it wasn't that loud this morning..after the prank called they made to someone..i duno why..i felt like crying..

kinda weird aint it..i felt like crying out of the blue..early in the morning and its not even 7am yet!doink..maybe i'm over stressing myself..=( i duno..but i somehow forgotten the feeling of tears rolling down the cheek..i forgotten how to cry..i know i shudn't cry..i have to stay tough..i can't let myself fall before the war starts..darling is already stressful..i can't add anymore stress onto his burdenized shoulders..that's why i stopped my tears from falling =)

i'm sorry my friends at the college..been really stress lately that i don't really remember how to smile~let the war ends and i'll get myself back to normal mode..i need to get fucking good grades or my parents will slice me up!well..can't deny the fact that i won't let myself fail so many times in my study life..life be too short for me to waste..cherish the time cherish everyone around you..

this morning had "ba zang" with kent..wow!i really miss my home-made "ba zang"...how i wish grandpa is still here..grandma be as healthy as before..BUT sigh..we can't look back to our past aint it?haha..neway..i need to find a way to deal with my sleepiness at 10am every morning..urgh..chicken essence doesn't really help =( had KFC snack plate for lunchie...and also CHEESY WEDGES..yummy yummy...

the piano tuner came..and..he told me that instead of buying one new piano..i shud actually send my piano mechanism for overhauling..due to the good condition of my piano..well my piano has been there for 10 years!my bday present from papa..then..ok lu...600 bucks..sigh..been spending a lot lately..i need one fast job..well i need 300 bucks for now..let mama pay half..or maybe i shud jux go withdraw from my bank?hmm...it depends tho..

another evening i spent watching one piece...i'm so in love with the anime..=) am gonna buy the comic as collection~YIPPIE!!!!i miss my boyfriend..ouh we be going to kr's school carnival 2mrw..hmm..jalan a bit then go home?ya i think it shud be done it that way=) piano lesson for me 2mrw..urgh..gonna be tiresome..

06042009------------>a month to go..

A month to go..and there comes my finals!hoho~lets see what i've been doing lately..slacking, watching anime..day dreaming...stoning in the room...staying up all night doing nuts...hypnotising myself...urgh!i know it didn't work at all..BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHICH PART IS GOING WRONG!god damn it..seriously..whenever i look at the book...i felt like sleeping..i rather spent my time doing the stuffs above and not study...eww..

felt kinda disgusted whenever i look at my piles and piles of books..and files..thank god my piano is there..i've got something to do..hmm..i'm back to my old life..music,eat,dream,slack,sleep...gaming can't be part of my life..

forcing myself to go to bed as early as possible..so that i would get my ass up early and go library..i rather camp at the library..than staying at home and sleep =) well..at least i will study there..although is frigging cold..i would at least force myself to study weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

watched fast & furious 4 with darling..NAISE movie..hehe ^^the both of us were lucky enough to get middle seating..yippie!!!!!! damn lucky because the cinema was full and we didn't booked the tickets at the first place..brian o' conner was damn yeng~ DOM was fantastic..the cars are SEXY!!! i loves racing movie..i loves car..hehe ^^

31032009----------------->end of the month..

time flies!haha..my last post..i think was about me got stucked in the mud..urgh..i be too lazy to blog about my life lately..
life's a bitch...nothing much to talk about..started to get numb with the life i'm having now..
shuda add some spice into it..BUT...where are the spices?which part of my life shud i add the spices into?sigh*
exam's around the corner..simply seek no motivation to study..wat to do larh?eww...the moment i look at my messy table..i lost the feeling of studying..
in great debt lately..having problem clearing off my dumb debts..is like suddenly i'm in such great debt!WTF...why am i so fucking broke?am i really that broke?i have no idea...
nothing much..jie jie got married finally..i know she's gonna have a happy life after this..haha..girls from the TAN family tend to have the same situation..thanks for knowing my feelings..
sigh...ghost or spirit..god or the goddess..believe it or not..brother in law could see them..haha!it drew back my attention to the buddhist beliefs..always a half half for me..like roc said..why can't i be a half christian and a half buddhist?at the end of the day we're still praying to the same god..aint it?
see the logic..understand it and thought about it..there's a lot to learn in my life..too much to be learnt that i'm afraid i don't have enough time..
grandma's in kinda severe sickness..her alzhemeirs been driving most of us crazy..endure and that's it..is scary for 2 different people to have almost a same dream..
bro in law actually dreamt that grandpa wanted to take grandma's live away...same as me having a similar dream..kinda spookie tho..dream won't come true..right?
looking forward to this sunday's outing with darling?i hope i could make it..

p/s:would wanna say sorry to my beloved bf..not really in the mood lately..can't really get crazy..been stressing about exam all night..sigh..i'm terribly sorry..love you always..muackxx!^^

Marie Digby ----------------> Say it Again

the thing about love
is i never saw it coming
it kind of crept up
and took me by surprise
and now there's a voice inside my heart
its got me wondering
is it true..? I wanna hear it one more time
move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder...
Say it Again for me
cause i love the way it feels
when you are telling me that i'm
the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world
stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love...
say it again

the thing about you
is you know just how to get me
you talk about us
like there's not end in sight
the thing about me
is that i really wanna let you
open that door
and walk into my life
move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder..
Say it Again for me
cause i love the way it feels
when you are telling me that i'm
the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world
stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love..
and it feels like
it's the first time
that anybody's ever brought
the sun without the rain
never in my whole life
have i heard words
as beautiful as when you say my name..

say it again for me
cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me
that i'm the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love
say it again say it again say it again
ooohh
say it again say it again say it again
say it again say it again say it again
when you tell me you're in love
say it again
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naise song..didn't know she was the one who sang this song..one of my favourites!hmm..saw her fans profile at facebook and there's how i realized she's the singer..nice pitch!lol..her voice is nice..sweeeeeeeeeeeto!

Leona Lewis - I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

Cause without you I cant breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

15032009--------------->a day that i will always remember!

my daily routine..back to my "neraka" and thank god there's ying to help me up today...well..everything went on smoothly except that i reached the shop half an hour later and left the shop half an hour later than i've expected..since i won't get the chance to meet my boyfriend for the next two weeks..i decided to meet him up for dinner..

for god's sake..i got stucked in the jam for...almost an hour only i reached taman desa..went for dinner at "i forgotten the restaurant's name" and...drove home...ouh!the traffic was fantastic and i simply loved it!it went...smoothly...in jux 20 mins time..i reached uncle's house dy!woohoo..
so..passed him the keys and money and i wanted to rush home..heaven's sake..my trial's be tomorrow..and i have to get my LAN folio done by tonight latest by tomorrow..

thank you for being a smart girl i drove into the road that was under construction since years ago..and fucking hell thanks to the contructor for not closing back after sending in the sand and all...i thought the road OPENED and well constructed...before going in i actually asked my cousin sister..where be the turning this is one way and O.O where to go...there's an exit at the front..so..my only choice..be the exit..drove ALL THE WAY in and FUCKING IT WAS A "DEAD END" and only motorcyclist and go through..

made a u-turn and.."fantastic"..thanks to the rain and i got stucked in the MUD...tried my very best to get out from the mud..drove front reverse back turn here turn there..and my car's tyre went deeper in..i had no choice but to call uncle..while waiting for uncle..there's this dumb car who went into the same lane like me..fucking hell he passed by..and..he made a u-turn..he saw me stucked in the mud..and he simply drove up without helping me outta trouble..wat a selfish ass!

he came and he tried..got himself muddy..and..he failed..SO...when you have no money and you need help and your parents not around...you wouldn't want the whole dumb family to know about your stupidity..call the police!dialed 999..connected to the BOMBA...and told them my problem...

IN JUST 5 MINS time..they reached..(i got stucked right behind the balai)..still it was FAST!the whole truck came and i think 10 of them were to help..so...4 bomba(s) actually pushed my car out from the mud...holy crap!POLICE called and thought i was caught in fire..he wanted to speak to my dad and the firefighter settled the issue for me..thank you! *salute*
always had the mindset that government servants be suxxors!I BE GRATEFUL this time..well at least to the firefighters!salute!i really salute to them while saying thank you...THANKS ALOT...ya policemen tend to get rasuah..still..firefighters worked it out..police don't get us out from this kinda situation..hmm...great..

drove back to ying's home to drop her..and my goodness..due to the heat caused by the stucked in the mud..my car broke down cox of overheat..haiyo...haiyo..stayed at ying's house..almost had to stay a night there and i could finalleh start my car after 90 mins...and now..i'm back home!thank you..

haven't start reading and i'm planning to screw my ELS on tuesday..since i know wat to write and i know the questions..ima memorise my own answer before exam and write them out..will have to get my folio done by tomorrow and pass it up by tuesday..ouh jesus!please save me..

*to the firefighters that came today..thanks for the help...am really really grateful..very efficient tho..i thought it would take you hours to reach..but it was only 5 mins...hmm..thanks a lot and salute you guys!*

exam..

exam days have been drawing nearer and nearer...but i don't seem to give a damn about it!i was like all day surfing the net..and wondering around my own world...fantasizing my own dreamx..is MOCK..and the finals be in just 2 months time..as for what i'm doing now...i wouldn't stand the chance to get a good result for my finals!if this is gonna be the case..i find no reason why would i ended myself up here...well..i think is my time to get myself prepared for my life war! =(

as the exam days been drawing nearer...i actually would miss my big baby more..i have no idea why this is happening..but the missing him kinda feeling is getting stronger..i must learn how to resist it!maybe..is just a maybe..i'm afraid that i will neglect you when i'm preparing for my finals..bah~is just a maybe..i can't tell as well..

i am undergoing the stress right now..right here..but..i seek no motivation to get my hands off my laptop..i've already started to abandon my cellphone..which i think is a good sign..the next thing is..get rid of the laptop and fucking maintain like this for the 3 dumb months then i can fly..i wouldn't want watever had happened on me before happened again..the history shall not be repeated..and shall just lie there...forever~

ouh my baby darling..please tell me wat should i do in order to get myself out from the world..father in heaven..please guide me to the right route..i know seek for the help of jesus..and all~i know i should at least score well and not get my time wasted for a year and 3 months in the college..it will turn out to be a waste of money and time and i wouldn't want that to happen..*sighs* [shakes head] turn around and stay here remained...STONING..

screw it seriously...i doubted if i could really take it..

someone that i've been calling him kor kor for 10 fucking years suddenly said..stop calling him kor kor because it made him felt dumb and like a small kid!
you shud've jux fucking tell me way earlier and not 10 dumb years later...is like me and chang..fucking ask the both of us not to talk to each other for a month be..driving us crazy...
so now left only me and chang because you withdraw urself out..is not a game..is a relationship..you ended it!i love you because i really take you as a brother you know..not the way you put it in..it be fucking harsh..i love chang as well..both of you are my best brothers and friends..
i dunid someone to lecture me about my age and stuffs...but thank god you told me!it'll be way better than 20 years later you telling me this..i'll definitely faint..
nevermind..thanks for the stuffs and lessons you taught me in my life..i appreciated them much..and i ride outta my life way earlier...because i take you as a brother and you don't and then u asked me to get a ride outta my life...
u screw the friendship and the relationship between me you and chang..let's call it for an end..thanks kor kor for stepping into our life..may you have a better life out there without me bugging you...

10032009------------->My 19th Birthday..

is my birthday again..well i'm a silly girl that enjoys celebrating birthday..weeeeeee..IS FUN you know blowing candles..making wishes...cutting the cake..sharing with family and friends..listening to birthday song..i simply love that!i celebrated my birthday with MY BELOVED boyfriend and of course my family^^ happy...

*all i see is someone tearing up the piece of garlic bread..*

well..we had exciting moments...and memorable moments at 1 utama..lunch at the jack's place..the food are nice..BUT..it be too greedy of me..i ordered a lot..and we ended up couldn't finish the food..sad..fries!!!hung around 1 utama and took the sticker photos..and both of us actually looked good in it..ouh love you!muakxx..i be too lazy to scan the pictures and upload them here..sorry.. =)

on my birthday..i be fucking smart to take a new highway to get myself to college and fucking got lost in hartamas...so me and jasmine ended ourselves up at klcc maxis centre and we found out something SHOCKING!well it be for me to know and for you guys to find out then...hmm...i suddenly went crazy and said i wanna go find my boyfriend when i know he be free for the rest of the day..so i got excited and...asked for the directions to get to that DESA PANDAN..studio DL..

I have no idea whether to say i'm fucking stupid or just purely dumb and blind...or maybe the constructor of the kampung pandan super duper big round-a-bout be an ass..thank him for painting the word DESA PANDAN on the street instead of painting it on a sign board..after 3 hours of journey...MY JOURNEY OF ROUNDING IN PANDAN JAYA,PANDAN INDAH,KAMPUNG PANDAN&TAMAN MALURI..is so fun!fucking fun..and my car went gg-fied..

i found the way to DESA PANDAN after 3 hours with the guide of sook ling jie jie..thanks a lot!still i got lost in desa pandan for making a wrong turn..ish~finalleh!we found and we reached and we stayed for 2 hours...sent mah boyfriend home and off to mum's shop..after everything..drove home dropped jasmine back..and here's wat i got from my family when i reached home..^^

my small lil pooh bear muffin^^i got so excited when i saw it..after all is still a pooh..muahkx dad..there be my birthday cake..is walnut coffee cake..muahkx mum..thanks for the pooh and the cake!love you guys...the best thing ever happened was...all my kor kors actually messaged me and said happy birthday..which is outta my expectation i thought they forgotten bout it..then i received a phone call from jack!!my brother..holy!he said happy birthday as well..and also chang..so all my close friends actually greeted me and i had my best 19th birthday~love you guys so much!MUACKXX MUACKXX MUACKXX

04032009----------------->i love kenny low!

hmm..wednesday..wat a torturous day..why?because after law..i be having bitch class..MATHS!not that i hate maths.. but the lecturer be bitchy..screw it..this morning..fucken woke up at 8.20am..my goodness!left home at 9am..drove off from kepong to kl at 9.10am..reached college at 10 smth..wat a good student!when i reach college..my precious seat..had been taken away from someone..sad T_T she made me and jas had to squeeze ourselves for a table..and my stuffs kept dropping...awww..

break and i had chee cheong fun, half-boiled egg and milo ice!weeeeeeeeee wonderful breakfast!law class be..boring...sir was basically repeating wat he taught us in extra class last saturday..haiy..wasted!lunch time..wanted to eat ramli burger..sad that the stall wasn't open when we went there..instead of burger..we went for nam heong chicken rice..O.O esquire kitchen..yummy

the chicken rice be nice..and i chose to skip that bitch class and i entered business...i'm such a good student!mr. edgar be HUMOROUS..haha..hahaha..his class is fun..well..during break time...i was reminded of that tamil song..and i start jiggling..ouh that be fun to play!haha^^ read a few pages of contract right before the class end..and went yumcha with angel...

was supposed to send her back to taman desa..but ended up at sri neelas..before that went ddp and bought..SUSHI for my beloved boyfriend...he work so hard for his future..i shall reward him with his favourite food..seriously hope that my sushi would brighten up his stressful day...he work from 5am till 8pm..and sometimes it be later..sob* T_T

just right after i sent angel home after that yumcha session..i received a message from dear telling me thank you for the sushi..ya..that time i was at the junction turning out..HOLY!i made a phone call and i turned back to taman desa..just to see him for a while..that's madness but nvm!is worth it!love you always..

02032009----------->happy bday tze chuan

hmm..today..late for class again..well we're only 5~10 mins late..and i found a nice parking!^^ nice shade..today's LAN class..another new lecturer..haiy..seriously..wat's wrong with the management..why do we have different lecturers every week?well..today's new lecturer..be WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY better than the previous shila..anyway..group presentation and all..well me and jasmine didn't prepare..so obviously the two of us be sitting behind..crapping stuffs..

hmm...ivan and nevian be...going nuts..lol...and the worst part be neevian misheard if i were a boss to if i were a breast..haha^^nothing much going on in the class..after LAN class..me,jas,esther,jackson,steven,tze chuan,fangkai and jy went to times square for karaoke session...haha^^it was 4 months ago since my last visit to karaoke..woooohoooo..

hmm..jy joined us later..and..i actually fetched..all of them to times square..my goodness..i didn't know my car could actually fit so many people..that's madness...haha..we were given a BIG BIG ROOM with personal toilet..haha^^how nice..4 mics..given the time from 1pm till 7pm..ouh that's gonna be nice...how nice if my boyfriend could join..sad he be working..was waiting for his message since morning..then when i was singing..he messaged me..aikx!maxis got problem..after i sent a few messages to him..my phone got hanged and i couldn't send messages..wat the fuck!

hmm...sang non-stop..thank god the guys were sporting enough and jy..could actually sing..hahaha..he has got that serious look on him when he was singing..shall post that picture up someday..haha..the crowd left at 4.30pm..that big room left only me and jas alone..both of us actually sang...till 6.40pm...our throat sored...but it was FUN^^

hmm..parking fare be...7 BUCKS..my goodness..next time i park low yat or some other place..i'll make sure it's not times square..haiy..drove home with that extreme slow speed again...haha...80km/s this time..the slowest i went was 20km/s..i'm such a safe driver..wooohooo..i got crazy and i spam boring malay songs with the windows whined down..haha..then i actually jiggled when i heard slumdog millionaire's soundtrack..jas got sicked of it..

right before we reach the restaurant..both of us changed the lyrics of if i were a boy to if i were a breast..keep yourself update with my blog for further lyrics about the if i were a breast...dinner was fun..secret revealed..and it was SHOCKING!!!haha..outta expectation...went home...and i got to talk to my boyfriend!my goodness...my goodness..i miss him so much~~~~~bloody....please let the time fly..i wanna see him larh ish!

rest and sleep...tomorrow no econx class..haha..i'll end myself up at kay's cafe..dear be at work from 5 in the morning..pity him..he must be very very tired..haiy..