01052009--------------->labours' day

well..i'm not a labour~so..obviously i don't celebrate labours' day^^hehe...but because everyone in the college works..and i have no idea if the college is open..so is my dating day =) great!

finally i could sleep last night..had 9 hours of awesome sleep...then..after 1.30hours of dragging..i finally left my house at 1130am..pro betul~

was in great mood at first..then~credits to my bitchy mama..she's such a mood spoiler!called me jux to ask me where the hp charger is and...asked me to clean up my room..

ok..not like your room is very tidy..so jux stay off!not like the house is like no dust at all..not like you give a damn bout the rest of the mess your son contributed to..so jux leave me alone thanks!

hoho~i ignored everything and drove all the way to midvalley..dropped ying..then went to kent's!well..my bf..i couldn't get a better word to describe the both of us..we simply enjoy dragging our time ^^

off we go..after another 1.30hours i think~yippie!mid valley was PACKED LIKE HELL!seriously..omfg..parked and went italiannes for lunchie..pizza for the day..

next..movie~ok..sorta had the feel to get rid of my crazy horror movie phobia..so i said i wanna watch "coming soon" =D queued..oh gosh!how many times were we supposed to be asked about the age while purchasing tickets?DO WE LOOK LIKE KIDDOES? *grrrr*

oh gosh..the movie was so terrible!no more no more for me..no more horror movie for me..is a waste of money and time..and i be stupid to go there and scare myself..my goodness.. =( why am i so "brave"?sigh..i thought the show ENDED because some malays said "dah tamat"..wth!i looked up and that freaking scene suddenly poped out one bloody face ={

then..went for.......the monsters vs dinosaurs exhibition...WE WERE CONNED!!!!paid 12 bucks for nothing...WTF!nvm..we had fun posing snapping photos..haha =D

met up with justin and the rest of them..i duno who were they..then then..i went home first..that bitch called again..i have no choice..

darling continued his day with his friends =D well well..i had a great day..so weeeeeeeee




p/s: expenses all on my world-best bf!muackx!
the other rest of my time after i went home wasn't nice..not gonna blog it =)

29042009---------------->i'm just happy

well well well...let's see..i had great day today!haha..
didn't make it to dear dear's place..he said..dunid le.. *sad*
soooo...i slept till almost noon..yippie!ya..i'm having great time relaxing here..
do envy me...and haha..you shall see me cry for the second time^^
so..the reason i stayed home today..because the piano tuner wanted to come over to fix my piano...

and...me as a very great host..i was still in my pyjamas when he came..
hehe^^i seek no effort to change...weeeee
watched one piece again for the rest of my day till around 4pm...
daddy called back and said:" ouh your car's ready...later i send you to pick your car back"..
YIPPIE!!SENSE THE HAPPINESS IN ME!!SENSE ME..FEEL IT..
was sooooo soosososososososo happy...
i took a quick bath...and waited..yahoooooooooooo!!!

ouh my beloved car...my goodness lar..those mechanics dirtied it..omfg..is like a trash car..
ima send it for cleanup tomorrow...then only i go visit my tit dah master...
yippie yaya yippie yippie ya..
say bye bye to the sardine train^^
*fireworks*

i'm still relaxing...first paper is only 2 weeks later..
please someone slap me PLEASE!!!
i need to study de...omfg...i duno wat to do... ToT
urgh...

*i'm still happy*...

weeeeee....funny video!hahahaha.. tuts my barreh

25042009--------------->effing screwed..

fucken hell..jux leave me alone
i seek no help...as no one would give me a hand..
i sat aside in agony..and suffered in my own pain..
when i give a thought about it..i realized i ran outta brain juice..
i have no slutions to the tonnes of problems i am facing..
all i want..is SILENCE!
all i want..is PEACE..
all i want..is THE FREEDOM I HAD BEFORE..
all i want..is NOTHING TO WORRY..
all i want...is JUST MY NORMAL LIFE..
so..for the sake of fulfilling wat i want..
people out there..PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE..
i know i will find my way..
i know i will have my thought
i know wat i could do for myself..
thanks for the care..
thanks for the love..
thanks for the patience..
thanks for the advice..
i learnt from my mistakes..
i learnt from my pass..
i never would do the same again..
i swore to myself..

23042009-------------->emo!!emo!!emo!!

saw christy's blog..well..here's something i learnt in my life..never trust someone 100%..NEVER!i will never do that again..i SWEAR!!fucken irritating...things tend to turn out badly..lately!i have no idea why..it just couldn't go according to my plans!ima be EMOFO soon...lets see..when u trust someone..there's nothing as ouh i trust 50%and leave the other 50% aside..there's no such thing in my life..when i don't trust i don't trust..i give you 100% and you returned 70%...and that's the end of the story..that's it..

wasn't in a really good mood lately..things stressed me up~especially that dumb upcoming exam!i have no idea..wat i'm doing..FUCKEN CAR still not here yet..motherfucker you tend to take ages to repair my brake paddle eh?have you got any idea how much i suffered throughout the week?if you couldn't get it done..then don't fucking tell me that the car will be ready by when when and when..i hate the stupid train!and now i have no where to go...i don't know where to camp..

no car..i can't camp at college till late night..dad's gonna renovate my room..WHERE THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO SLEEP?you can't expect me to study in jack's room..that's a total junk store to me..so..give me an answer where to study?WHERE?i want my car back...I WANT IT BACK!i rather that car hasn't broke down before..i'm at my peak right now..i'm going crazy..everything's driving me crazy!

i only know i'm having a very very messy thinking..having messy thoughts aint good...having insomnia...fucken hell!and the worst!the weather is SUCKY...how many times am i supposed to bath in a day?omfg omfg i hate it..and i'm always the one being nice and got scolded at the end..well..i don't wanna be the nice person anymore..lolo got it right..darling said the same thing..everyone told me the same thing..fuck man!seriously..fuck off please..just leave me alone..thanks~

urgh..URGH!!!!why would things turn out to be at its suckiest point when my DUMBASS FINALS is around the corner?why can't they be nice to be for once?WHY?ima curse the day light outta it..exams exams exams...grandma..family..friends...darling..what the hell is wrong?where the hell went wrong?grrrrrrr...grrrrrrrrrr....

p/s: seriously in emo mood..gimme a knife and i might slice you up~

21042009------------->the rain made me thinks about you

saw the tiredness in me?sigh*
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another sleepless night..i guess i'm having a world-best boyfriend now..there's no such thing that you could actually pop into ur bf's room early in the morning and stays at his house for the rest of the day just because you wanna sleep..well..i could do that at my bf's house!=) and i'm always glad about it..thanks darling...*muackx*

well..it has been really really hot these 2 days...hasn't seen a droplet of rain coming down from that very high sky...sad...i'm always feeling sweaty and sticky.. =(

err...is 3.30am and~haha^^it rained finally..so heavy..it's a heavy downpour..never really hates raining..i enjoy walking under the rain..playing under the rain..weeeeeeeee =) the wind blowed like as if a lion was roaring right outside at your gate..i was sitting by the sliding door..feeling the coldness of it..and i thought of you..

you were really really happy yesterday eventhough you were sick..well..i guess i know why..haha^^but i'm so not gonna tell you..since you said no!weeeeeeeee lets just keep it to myself..lalala..ya..my big baby here is sick..please don't get sick..i know you have no say but just please don't.. =( take care and drink lotsa water please...PLEASE!!

p/s: i really need you right now..and please don't ditch me...=D you promised...hehe^^ you never break any of your promises before..so please don't do it..weeeeeeeeeee =p love you! muackxx..

18042009--------------->outing with pua pua =)

weeeeeeee..mah outing with mah pua pua!haha..no worries..pua pua aint my boyfriend..he's mah 'sista'..hehe^^ well..go further to study lar..no time to ying chao me jor..finally squeezed that tiny bit of time for me...omfg!ish..so..the destination changed from one to another and then back to the same point..pavillion...i simply love the cinema seats~THEY'RE SIMPLY OSUM.. ^_*

well..i have no car lately..my only transport be..DUMB KTM..fucking hell..dumb weather made me sweat like a crazy girl..urgh..i hate the sticky feeling..especially right after i bathed..wtf man!i thought the train should be cooling....i bet it be the shittiest train ever...i was like in a sauna..holy!out of the blue..i sensed hunger in me..sad..forgotten to grab a bite when i left...and i forgotten bout darling's present...hehe^^his book...

well..instead of taking monorail and walk under the hot sun...i took a cab^^weeeee...the taxi driver is jux nice...haha..i'm always lucky to get some nice taxi drivers..they be kind to me..=)hohohoho..met up with pua pua..ouh~we went for...the movie..-------->MALL COP..

hilarious lar!hahahaha..i laughed non-stop in the cinema..is funny yet meaningful..the cinema was like soooooo empty...maybe because it's only 12.15pm...i have no idea..but definitely not more than 40 people inside the cinema 2..like i said..i had great time watching my movie in the big big cinema with my food..i miss my boyfriend sitting beside me tho =(

well...after the movie..headed down to starhill...jogoya...got my vouchers and met a few friends and off i left for darling's house...well..the later part of my day be boring and useless..nothing much to write bout..hehe^^ no worries i had my great day tho!yippie~

17042009--------------> sun's birthday...

今天心情还不错的。。就来篇华语的！哇~真的很久很久没有用华语了。。感觉就是很陌生。。其实，我并没有很讨厌华语，我只是不太喜欢。。讨厌和不喜欢是很大分别的。。今天阿，是我小学的一个好朋友的生日。。很可惜的就是都失去联络了。。可悲吧？

我身边的朋友总是看起来很多但其实却很少。。有时候翻查自己手机里的联络簿里找寻着朋友的时候，总是想不起谁是自己的好友。。那些朋友都是在他们遇到困难的时候，他们需要你的时候才会出现的。。我还真的很失败。。那天，我告诉升说：“ 喂，我刚发觉原来我没有什么朋友，我觉得很好笑。。你有那样认为吗？” 没想到的是，这个就是他的答案：“ 是哦？我告诉你，其实我和你都差不多。” 哎哟~这个到底是什么社会嘛？

其实，我很想避免这些人。是想得不得了！但是，我却办不到。我不忍心当没有人肯帮忙的时候，自己也是其中一分子。我没有办法当冷血的自己，总是觉得很残酷！就好像和亲爱的吵架，我都会硬着头皮去道歉，因为我觉得说句对不起并没有伤害到我。。说了对不起，他开心了，见面的时候就自然不回尴尬拉！但很多事情，是说了对不起都无法挽回的。。。

我一直没有用华语写部落是有原因的。。因为我那亲爱的看不懂华语。为什么要为难他呢？所以总是用英文。。今天心血来潮了。。撇下那白痴的信念，来篇华语的，感觉还挺好的！其实我还有个冲动，就写篇华语的信，要他的朋友念给他听，看看他会不会很感动！呵呵~我想是自己想太多了。。因为，天塌下来都不可能发生的事，竟然是我的梦想！哇咔咔。。。天真啊。。 ^^

16042009------------->it's the fourth month

been waiting for this day for sooooooooo long..we've been through quite a lot..aint it...is not easy you know..when 2 people gets together..we'll need patience and a very good temper...i'm not a girl with very very good temper..and i don't really have patience...you don't clap with a hand..we need two hands to clap to make a noise!

i endured...i followed your pace..i tried my very best to be a good girlfriend..because i knew i wasn't one in the past..i thought i was one right now..but i somehow failed to be one aint it?i never thought of betraying this relationship if i gave you the impression..simon is simply one guy that could be a good friend..to me he's better than some hypocrite friend...

yesterday was a hectic day for me...i couldn't take it anymore..i hate hospitals and that's why i feel so sick bout it..going to the hospital be worst than visiting a graveyard..and i hope you understand my feeling...my anger and frustration will take over my patience and happiness easily..you can put it as dementors in real life..which until today i have no petronuses to take them away...i'm sorry

i didn't want to be a cry baby..i hold my grudges and my tears..like i said..i don't wanna pressurized the already burdenized and pressurized shoulders of yours...you have your own life at work..i only hope that you could spare a lil time when i need you...seriously a little time only..you tried very hard to be a bf as well...we have loads to learn in life...it ain't easy...is not a nursery rhyme nor something you could learn by just watching video..they're something you will only get to learn when you experience it...

is tough..is painful..and it always give you the feeling of giving up!a fight is a fight..a fight with love and patience is different from a normal fight..a fight that will lead us to get to know each other better is different too...i love you my boyfriend and i hope you understand...muackx

13042009------------------>slacking at kent's

went to pc fair yesterday with jack and dear...hmm..to be honest i preferred last year's fair..not much pretty models this year.. =( and after i drove out from the parking..fucking car broke down..sigh~ well i'm no mechanic..so obvious i had no choice but to call my dad..got scolded..so?it won't help..and it was raining heavily that time..stayed there...waited..jack had to take cab back to his school.. sorry babe..

so left me and kent in the car waiting for the mechanic to come..awesome time aint it..haha~ playing with the windows..snapping photos..great ^^ thanks jon for fetching me home..never hope for my parents to come pick me up..as i know THEY WON'T!and they will never..i wonder how only i could be selfish..i wanted to be like them as well..lemme be one selfish girl..selfish girlfriend..maybe i'll live a happier life?

stoned and slacked around..hit the sack quite early yesterday.. =) woke up damn early this morning..well..had no choice cox darling's DSLR be with me...had to send it to him before he went off to work..so..took the dumb train..I SWEAR!!I'LL NEVER TAKE KTM ANYMORE IN THE MORNING UNLESS I HAVE NO OTHER ALTERNATIVES..god damn it!people pushing around..squeezing in and ignoring you when you said stop pushing and "ouch"..i was so worried bout the DSLR in my bag...i wonder if i crashed it or wat..sigh*

well..he went to work..and i stayed at his house...slept for 2 hours..hmm..the dreamcatcher thingy didn't work well on me..i had 2 hours of different kinda dreams..woke up study..then can't stand the messiness of his room..had to clean up for him...well it looks tidier than before..got so fed up with my tort law that i gave up studying and start slacking here..haix...YIPPIE! can collect my car dy later by 4pm or so..sad case..i'll have to go mum's shop after that..hectic lar..god damn it!

10042009------------>the feelings jux came out of the blue

hmm..been having this weird routine lately..a driver for both the guys..my bro and my big baby..well..fetching roc be lessen dad's burden..fetching the big baby because i wanna see him moar!couldn't really sleep lately..would wake up in fright during midnight..URGH!and is always 3am..wtf!as i have to wake up 515 in the morning..i get extremely tired after that..*sigh*why am i always having this dumb insomnia during exam eves?serious shit~

bah..back to the day..fucking got caught in the jam..due to my lateness!i left the hse around 625..sigh..sigh..shuda got up earlier and avoid the jam..but my SLEEP!?!?neway after sending roc..jln kuching was still kinda smooth that time..was listening to jj&ean in the car..ok i have this habit of playing loud music whenever i feel sad or down or watsoever you called..it wasn't that loud this morning..after the prank called they made to someone..i duno why..i felt like crying..

kinda weird aint it..i felt like crying out of the blue..early in the morning and its not even 7am yet!doink..maybe i'm over stressing myself..=( i duno..but i somehow forgotten the feeling of tears rolling down the cheek..i forgotten how to cry..i know i shudn't cry..i have to stay tough..i can't let myself fall before the war starts..darling is already stressful..i can't add anymore stress onto his burdenized shoulders..that's why i stopped my tears from falling =)

i'm sorry my friends at the college..been really stress lately that i don't really remember how to smile~let the war ends and i'll get myself back to normal mode..i need to get fucking good grades or my parents will slice me up!well..can't deny the fact that i won't let myself fail so many times in my study life..life be too short for me to waste..cherish the time cherish everyone around you..

this morning had "ba zang" with kent..wow!i really miss my home-made "ba zang"...how i wish grandpa is still here..grandma be as healthy as before..BUT sigh..we can't look back to our past aint it?haha..neway..i need to find a way to deal with my sleepiness at 10am every morning..urgh..chicken essence doesn't really help =( had KFC snack plate for lunchie...and also CHEESY WEDGES..yummy yummy...

the piano tuner came..and..he told me that instead of buying one new piano..i shud actually send my piano mechanism for overhauling..due to the good condition of my piano..well my piano has been there for 10 years!my bday present from papa..then..ok lu...600 bucks..sigh..been spending a lot lately..i need one fast job..well i need 300 bucks for now..let mama pay half..or maybe i shud jux go withdraw from my bank?hmm...it depends tho..

another evening i spent watching one piece...i'm so in love with the anime..=) am gonna buy the comic as collection~YIPPIE!!!!i miss my boyfriend..ouh we be going to kr's school carnival 2mrw..hmm..jalan a bit then go home?ya i think it shud be done it that way=) piano lesson for me 2mrw..urgh..gonna be tiresome..

06042009------------>a month to go..

A month to go..and there comes my finals!hoho~lets see what i've been doing lately..slacking, watching anime..day dreaming...stoning in the room...staying up all night doing nuts...hypnotising myself...urgh!i know it didn't work at all..BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHICH PART IS GOING WRONG!god damn it..seriously..whenever i look at the book...i felt like sleeping..i rather spent my time doing the stuffs above and not study...eww..

felt kinda disgusted whenever i look at my piles and piles of books..and files..thank god my piano is there..i've got something to do..hmm..i'm back to my old life..music,eat,dream,slack,sleep...gaming can't be part of my life..

forcing myself to go to bed as early as possible..so that i would get my ass up early and go library..i rather camp at the library..than staying at home and sleep =) well..at least i will study there..although is frigging cold..i would at least force myself to study weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

watched fast & furious 4 with darling..NAISE movie..hehe ^^the both of us were lucky enough to get middle seating..yippie!!!!!! damn lucky because the cinema was full and we didn't booked the tickets at the first place..brian o' conner was damn yeng~ DOM was fantastic..the cars are SEXY!!! i loves racing movie..i loves car..hehe ^^

31032009----------------->end of the month..

time flies!haha..my last post..i think was about me got stucked in the mud..urgh..i be too lazy to blog about my life lately..
life's a bitch...nothing much to talk about..started to get numb with the life i'm having now..
shuda add some spice into it..BUT...where are the spices?which part of my life shud i add the spices into?sigh*
exam's around the corner..simply seek no motivation to study..wat to do larh?eww...the moment i look at my messy table..i lost the feeling of studying..
in great debt lately..having problem clearing off my dumb debts..is like suddenly i'm in such great debt!WTF...why am i so fucking broke?am i really that broke?i have no idea...
nothing much..jie jie got married finally..i know she's gonna have a happy life after this..haha..girls from the TAN family tend to have the same situation..thanks for knowing my feelings..
sigh...ghost or spirit..god or the goddess..believe it or not..brother in law could see them..haha!it drew back my attention to the buddhist beliefs..always a half half for me..like roc said..why can't i be a half christian and a half buddhist?at the end of the day we're still praying to the same god..aint it?
see the logic..understand it and thought about it..there's a lot to learn in my life..too much to be learnt that i'm afraid i don't have enough time..
grandma's in kinda severe sickness..her alzhemeirs been driving most of us crazy..endure and that's it..is scary for 2 different people to have almost a same dream..
bro in law actually dreamt that grandpa wanted to take grandma's live away...same as me having a similar dream..kinda spookie tho..dream won't come true..right?
looking forward to this sunday's outing with darling?i hope i could make it..

p/s:would wanna say sorry to my beloved bf..not really in the mood lately..can't really get crazy..been stressing about exam all night..sigh..i'm terribly sorry..love you always..muackxx!^^

Marie Digby ----------------> Say it Again

the thing about love
is i never saw it coming
it kind of crept up
and took me by surprise
and now there's a voice inside my heart
its got me wondering
is it true..? I wanna hear it one more time
move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder...
Say it Again for me
cause i love the way it feels
when you are telling me that i'm
the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world
stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love...
say it again

the thing about you
is you know just how to get me
you talk about us
like there's not end in sight
the thing about me
is that i really wanna let you
open that door
and walk into my life
move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder..
Say it Again for me
cause i love the way it feels
when you are telling me that i'm
the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world
stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love..
and it feels like
it's the first time
that anybody's ever brought
the sun without the rain
never in my whole life
have i heard words
as beautiful as when you say my name..

say it again for me
cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me
that i'm the only one who blows your mind
say it again for me
it's like the whole world stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love
say it again say it again say it again
ooohh
say it again say it again say it again
say it again say it again say it again
when you tell me you're in love
say it again
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naise song..didn't know she was the one who sang this song..one of my favourites!hmm..saw her fans profile at facebook and there's how i realized she's the singer..nice pitch!lol..her voice is nice..sweeeeeeeeeeeto!

Leona Lewis - I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

Cause without you I cant breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

15032009--------------->a day that i will always remember!

my daily routine..back to my "neraka" and thank god there's ying to help me up today...well..everything went on smoothly except that i reached the shop half an hour later and left the shop half an hour later than i've expected..since i won't get the chance to meet my boyfriend for the next two weeks..i decided to meet him up for dinner..

for god's sake..i got stucked in the jam for...almost an hour only i reached taman desa..went for dinner at "i forgotten the restaurant's name" and...drove home...ouh!the traffic was fantastic and i simply loved it!it went...smoothly...in jux 20 mins time..i reached uncle's house dy!woohoo..
so..passed him the keys and money and i wanted to rush home..heaven's sake..my trial's be tomorrow..and i have to get my LAN folio done by tonight latest by tomorrow..

thank you for being a smart girl i drove into the road that was under construction since years ago..and fucking hell thanks to the contructor for not closing back after sending in the sand and all...i thought the road OPENED and well constructed...before going in i actually asked my cousin sister..where be the turning this is one way and O.O where to go...there's an exit at the front..so..my only choice..be the exit..drove ALL THE WAY in and FUCKING IT WAS A "DEAD END" and only motorcyclist and go through..

made a u-turn and.."fantastic"..thanks to the rain and i got stucked in the MUD...tried my very best to get out from the mud..drove front reverse back turn here turn there..and my car's tyre went deeper in..i had no choice but to call uncle..while waiting for uncle..there's this dumb car who went into the same lane like me..fucking hell he passed by..and..he made a u-turn..he saw me stucked in the mud..and he simply drove up without helping me outta trouble..wat a selfish ass!

he came and he tried..got himself muddy..and..he failed..SO...when you have no money and you need help and your parents not around...you wouldn't want the whole dumb family to know about your stupidity..call the police!dialed 999..connected to the BOMBA...and told them my problem...

IN JUST 5 MINS time..they reached..(i got stucked right behind the balai)..still it was FAST!the whole truck came and i think 10 of them were to help..so...4 bomba(s) actually pushed my car out from the mud...holy crap!POLICE called and thought i was caught in fire..he wanted to speak to my dad and the firefighter settled the issue for me..thank you! *salute*
always had the mindset that government servants be suxxors!I BE GRATEFUL this time..well at least to the firefighters!salute!i really salute to them while saying thank you...THANKS ALOT...ya policemen tend to get rasuah..still..firefighters worked it out..police don't get us out from this kinda situation..hmm...great..

drove back to ying's home to drop her..and my goodness..due to the heat caused by the stucked in the mud..my car broke down cox of overheat..haiyo...haiyo..stayed at ying's house..almost had to stay a night there and i could finalleh start my car after 90 mins...and now..i'm back home!thank you..

haven't start reading and i'm planning to screw my ELS on tuesday..since i know wat to write and i know the questions..ima memorise my own answer before exam and write them out..will have to get my folio done by tomorrow and pass it up by tuesday..ouh jesus!please save me..

*to the firefighters that came today..thanks for the help...am really really grateful..very efficient tho..i thought it would take you hours to reach..but it was only 5 mins...hmm..thanks a lot and salute you guys!*

exam..

exam days have been drawing nearer and nearer...but i don't seem to give a damn about it!i was like all day surfing the net..and wondering around my own world...fantasizing my own dreamx..is MOCK..and the finals be in just 2 months time..as for what i'm doing now...i wouldn't stand the chance to get a good result for my finals!if this is gonna be the case..i find no reason why would i ended myself up here...well..i think is my time to get myself prepared for my life war! =(

as the exam days been drawing nearer...i actually would miss my big baby more..i have no idea why this is happening..but the missing him kinda feeling is getting stronger..i must learn how to resist it!maybe..is just a maybe..i'm afraid that i will neglect you when i'm preparing for my finals..bah~is just a maybe..i can't tell as well..

i am undergoing the stress right now..right here..but..i seek no motivation to get my hands off my laptop..i've already started to abandon my cellphone..which i think is a good sign..the next thing is..get rid of the laptop and fucking maintain like this for the 3 dumb months then i can fly..i wouldn't want watever had happened on me before happened again..the history shall not be repeated..and shall just lie there...forever~

ouh my baby darling..please tell me wat should i do in order to get myself out from the world..father in heaven..please guide me to the right route..i know seek for the help of jesus..and all~i know i should at least score well and not get my time wasted for a year and 3 months in the college..it will turn out to be a waste of money and time and i wouldn't want that to happen..*sighs* [shakes head] turn around and stay here remained...STONING..

screw it seriously...i doubted if i could really take it..

someone that i've been calling him kor kor for 10 fucking years suddenly said..stop calling him kor kor because it made him felt dumb and like a small kid!
you shud've jux fucking tell me way earlier and not 10 dumb years later...is like me and chang..fucking ask the both of us not to talk to each other for a month be..driving us crazy...
so now left only me and chang because you withdraw urself out..is not a game..is a relationship..you ended it!i love you because i really take you as a brother you know..not the way you put it in..it be fucking harsh..i love chang as well..both of you are my best brothers and friends..
i dunid someone to lecture me about my age and stuffs...but thank god you told me!it'll be way better than 20 years later you telling me this..i'll definitely faint..
nevermind..thanks for the stuffs and lessons you taught me in my life..i appreciated them much..and i ride outta my life way earlier...because i take you as a brother and you don't and then u asked me to get a ride outta my life...
u screw the friendship and the relationship between me you and chang..let's call it for an end..thanks kor kor for stepping into our life..may you have a better life out there without me bugging you...

10032009------------->My 19th Birthday..

is my birthday again..well i'm a silly girl that enjoys celebrating birthday..weeeeeee..IS FUN you know blowing candles..making wishes...cutting the cake..sharing with family and friends..listening to birthday song..i simply love that!i celebrated my birthday with MY BELOVED boyfriend and of course my family^^ happy...

*all i see is someone tearing up the piece of garlic bread..*

well..we had exciting moments...and memorable moments at 1 utama..lunch at the jack's place..the food are nice..BUT..it be too greedy of me..i ordered a lot..and we ended up couldn't finish the food..sad..fries!!!hung around 1 utama and took the sticker photos..and both of us actually looked good in it..ouh love you!muakxx..i be too lazy to scan the pictures and upload them here..sorry.. =)

on my birthday..i be fucking smart to take a new highway to get myself to college and fucking got lost in hartamas...so me and jasmine ended ourselves up at klcc maxis centre and we found out something SHOCKING!well it be for me to know and for you guys to find out then...hmm...i suddenly went crazy and said i wanna go find my boyfriend when i know he be free for the rest of the day..so i got excited and...asked for the directions to get to that DESA PANDAN..studio DL..

I have no idea whether to say i'm fucking stupid or just purely dumb and blind...or maybe the constructor of the kampung pandan super duper big round-a-bout be an ass..thank him for painting the word DESA PANDAN on the street instead of painting it on a sign board..after 3 hours of journey...MY JOURNEY OF ROUNDING IN PANDAN JAYA,PANDAN INDAH,KAMPUNG PANDAN&TAMAN MALURI..is so fun!fucking fun..and my car went gg-fied..

i found the way to DESA PANDAN after 3 hours with the guide of sook ling jie jie..thanks a lot!still i got lost in desa pandan for making a wrong turn..ish~finalleh!we found and we reached and we stayed for 2 hours...sent mah boyfriend home and off to mum's shop..after everything..drove home dropped jasmine back..and here's wat i got from my family when i reached home..^^

my small lil pooh bear muffin^^i got so excited when i saw it..after all is still a pooh..muahkx dad..there be my birthday cake..is walnut coffee cake..muahkx mum..thanks for the pooh and the cake!love you guys...the best thing ever happened was...all my kor kors actually messaged me and said happy birthday..which is outta my expectation i thought they forgotten bout it..then i received a phone call from jack!!my brother..holy!he said happy birthday as well..and also chang..so all my close friends actually greeted me and i had my best 19th birthday~love you guys so much!MUACKXX MUACKXX MUACKXX

04032009----------------->i love kenny low!

hmm..wednesday..wat a torturous day..why?because after law..i be having bitch class..MATHS!not that i hate maths.. but the lecturer be bitchy..screw it..this morning..fucken woke up at 8.20am..my goodness!left home at 9am..drove off from kepong to kl at 9.10am..reached college at 10 smth..wat a good student!when i reach college..my precious seat..had been taken away from someone..sad T_T she made me and jas had to squeeze ourselves for a table..and my stuffs kept dropping...awww..

break and i had chee cheong fun, half-boiled egg and milo ice!weeeeeeeeee wonderful breakfast!law class be..boring...sir was basically repeating wat he taught us in extra class last saturday..haiy..wasted!lunch time..wanted to eat ramli burger..sad that the stall wasn't open when we went there..instead of burger..we went for nam heong chicken rice..O.O esquire kitchen..yummy

the chicken rice be nice..and i chose to skip that bitch class and i entered business...i'm such a good student!mr. edgar be HUMOROUS..haha..hahaha..his class is fun..well..during break time...i was reminded of that tamil song..and i start jiggling..ouh that be fun to play!haha^^ read a few pages of contract right before the class end..and went yumcha with angel...

was supposed to send her back to taman desa..but ended up at sri neelas..before that went ddp and bought..SUSHI for my beloved boyfriend...he work so hard for his future..i shall reward him with his favourite food..seriously hope that my sushi would brighten up his stressful day...he work from 5am till 8pm..and sometimes it be later..sob* T_T

just right after i sent angel home after that yumcha session..i received a message from dear telling me thank you for the sushi..ya..that time i was at the junction turning out..HOLY!i made a phone call and i turned back to taman desa..just to see him for a while..that's madness but nvm!is worth it!love you always..

02032009----------->happy bday tze chuan

hmm..today..late for class again..well we're only 5~10 mins late..and i found a nice parking!^^ nice shade..today's LAN class..another new lecturer..haiy..seriously..wat's wrong with the management..why do we have different lecturers every week?well..today's new lecturer..be WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY better than the previous shila..anyway..group presentation and all..well me and jasmine didn't prepare..so obviously the two of us be sitting behind..crapping stuffs..

hmm...ivan and nevian be...going nuts..lol...and the worst part be neevian misheard if i were a boss to if i were a breast..haha^^nothing much going on in the class..after LAN class..me,jas,esther,jackson,steven,tze chuan,fangkai and jy went to times square for karaoke session...haha^^it was 4 months ago since my last visit to karaoke..woooohoooo..

hmm..jy joined us later..and..i actually fetched..all of them to times square..my goodness..i didn't know my car could actually fit so many people..that's madness...haha..we were given a BIG BIG ROOM with personal toilet..haha^^how nice..4 mics..given the time from 1pm till 7pm..ouh that's gonna be nice...how nice if my boyfriend could join..sad he be working..was waiting for his message since morning..then when i was singing..he messaged me..aikx!maxis got problem..after i sent a few messages to him..my phone got hanged and i couldn't send messages..wat the fuck!

hmm...sang non-stop..thank god the guys were sporting enough and jy..could actually sing..hahaha..he has got that serious look on him when he was singing..shall post that picture up someday..haha..the crowd left at 4.30pm..that big room left only me and jas alone..both of us actually sang...till 6.40pm...our throat sored...but it was FUN^^

hmm..parking fare be...7 BUCKS..my goodness..next time i park low yat or some other place..i'll make sure it's not times square..haiy..drove home with that extreme slow speed again...haha...80km/s this time..the slowest i went was 20km/s..i'm such a safe driver..wooohooo..i got crazy and i spam boring malay songs with the windows whined down..haha..then i actually jiggled when i heard slumdog millionaire's soundtrack..jas got sicked of it..

right before we reach the restaurant..both of us changed the lyrics of if i were a boy to if i were a breast..keep yourself update with my blog for further lyrics about the if i were a breast...dinner was fun..secret revealed..and it was SHOCKING!!!haha..outta expectation...went home...and i got to talk to my boyfriend!my goodness...my goodness..i miss him so much~~~~~bloody....please let the time fly..i wanna see him larh ish!

rest and sleep...tomorrow no econx class..haha..i'll end myself up at kay's cafe..dear be at work from 5 in the morning..pity him..he must be very very tired..haiy..

01032009----------------->i met the archbishop

today..i followed dear dear to HOLY ROSARY..well this be my second time visiting the church for the year..haven't even pay a visit to any of the temple yet but churches..nevermind of that..everytime i go church i feel HOLY..o.o that's actually weird..i'm not
a catholic or anything..i'm not a buddhist..ok i might be a half buddhist..who cares..aikx!

hmm..service was kinda FUN actually..don't really felt left out there..while waiting for dear i studied and all..hmm..didn't really study much..got bored of the first chapter of contract..fucken can't finish after a week..damnit!is jux simple 40 pages..i cudn't even finish them..well..after that drove to brickfields for lunch..that coffeeshop's drinks be the suckiest ever..i didn't finish my cup of drink..

drove home..and..rest and went out to st.john's..my first time visiting that place..haha that church be huge..sad part be it's WARM inside the church..that sending off ceremony or RCIA...i forgotten wat's that ceremony called be..nice!and i saw the archbishop of m'sia!wahahaha..he's an OLD MAN..but cool well at least i saw him..

despite his age..the way he speaks..i simply love it..sorry to say but compared to father daniel..i actually find it more interesting listening to the archbishop speech.. *_* well..you know..the ceremony was kinda HUGE..and people tend to come from other states..therefore speeches were given in four different languages...english, mandarin, tamil and malay..my goodness!there's this indian FATHER that could actually give speech with MANDARIN!!!holy holy...and his pronounciation was...correct..^^

song were sang in 2 different versions...malay and english versions..sad to say..the songs in st.john's be slow and boring..aikx!hmm...well..after the ceremony went home lu..tomorrow my dear be working dy..i'm gonna miss him like crazy!take care and enjoy your job babe..heavy rain for the rest of the night..it be a cold night...that night be the first time in my life after i took my drivers' licence that i drove with the speed of 20km/s...well that's crazy...effing slow..i cudn't see the road clearly...wat to do?i had to drive with extreme slow speed..as there be POOLS and POOLs of water..then with my hazellight on..haiy..

thunderstorms...and all...i need some hugs*

27022009--------------->i have no sense of direction..sigh

so..outta sudden..i felt like eating the fatty rice(nasi lemak) today at taman desa..and..there we go..i told dear that i would reach there around 8 and justin as well..hmm..sad case..be...it rained heavily in the morning..went all the way to segambut and..JAMs!i be just in time to make a u-turn back to kepong and i chose to go taman desa by using LDP..as i drove i passed by...penchala link..but i dun give a damn as i thought it be jam..so i simply ignored it...

then..i went and passed by BU...i continue to drive..and drive and..the fuck i missed one of the turnings or what..somehow i couldn't find EASTIN hotel..then i realised i'm on the wrong route..and wat came into my mind at that moment was follow the seremban sign..i did..and haha..i went to kelana jaya..and..i almost...followed the route to cyberjaya..my goodness..

and i have no idea wat stroke me at that very moment..and i changed my mind to follow KL route..haha...went on NPE...and..ended up at some random place..which i saw midvalley very very far away...hahaha..i actually made a big turning to bangsar then back to the old klang road and then only i reached taman desa..the whole journey took me 1.30 hour..i had a PJ to KL tour fucken early in the morning..wooohooo^^

well..i was supposed to study..but my dear's bed was somehow telling me to sleep..and i went to bed..god!I SLEPT OFF MY WHOLE MORNING AND woke up at 2pm..how great...had food..aunty bought me LUNCH!^^then kr..and justin came and that 3 guys went out..o.o cc guys..i stayed at home and STUDY..well i went out and went home and..haiy..i only studied 3 pages then i started to feel SLEEPEH..

packed my stuffs and off i go..drove home..and...mama called..weeeeeeeeee...after i got down from the car..i actually couldn't start my car back..after a while she called again..asked me fetch the dumb bros out for DINRAR..ok..dinner..and i went to shop with mama..holy..KL be jam..due to my laziness of driving at MRR2..i said lotsa cars i scared..and i drove my mum for another KL tour...jams...made my journey WORST!a 20min journey turned out to be an hour journey..mama cursed me like crazy..ouh sorry larh..

haiy...how i wish my life would be less complicated and simpler..haha^^but at the same time exciting..ok i'm dreaming big here.. =)

26022009-------------->i'm blur..always..

same today i drove to college again...well..this time i be smart..that i took jalan duta instead of jalan kuching..congrats!caught in that dumbass jam..and fucking got lost in kl again!damnit~hmm..thank god that we found the right route and we got on then we reached college..this time..be an hour late!haiy....

woke up early in the morning...had gastric..i have no idea why...it has been 4 years ago since it last happened...so..obvious i don't really know wat's the reason..effing pain...and i drove with the pain along...lost my appetite cox of the pain T_T that's saddening..had lunch with papa liang..for god's sake..jackson thought that it's kent..how i wish my boyfriend would come...but no..it was papa liang..haha..he came for his notes...

law class...all about OLA..simple topic yet lotsa things to memorise...especially the siting cases..it be one whole lot of them..ya..make sure i don't mix up the cases for year 1957 and 1984..mock be in just 2 weeks time..and sara said it be part of the exam..holy shitzzor!!!before the class end..i went home with jasmine..i'm sorry but i have something on..my piano lesson appointment..very important....

heavy rain..there caused the heavy traffic..didn't really jam..but the traffic be DAMN SLOW..sent jas home and there i go to mum's shop again..i be JUST IN TIME for my appointment..sad part be..i can't even play well my song..after 5 years..it be WASTED..well..it takes time..no hurry and nothing to rush..^^ registered and all..class commencing next month saturday..weeeeeeeeeeeee...can't wait till the day..

ouh ya..today i ran over one man's foot..why?because he's smart enough to stop at a single way road lar..my car be huge..and there goes his foot..uncle i'm sorry...i be blur..and if you didn't knock on my window..i don't think i would have realised that i ran over the foot of yours..hehe..

so...it be mummy went home first and i close the shop..heavy rain...slow traffic..jinjang..be jam!so..i took some kampung route home..seriously..i don't really remembered how daddy fetched me home using that route..BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS SLEEPING WHILE HE'S DRIVING..haha..and i fucking got lost in that area...the funniest part be there's this car..kept following me..he thougt i know how to get out..but..i brought him to a dead end..hahaha..

finally..after half an hour of hide and seek..i got on the right track..and headed home..my life be filled with excitement if this is gonna be the case..weeeeeeeeeeeee^^

25022009-------------->Sharon's bday..

again..this morning..i woke up late..my goodness..i can't really wake up in the morning lately..haiy..must be my fault for going to bed late..god knows eh..anyway..packed and went out around 8.45am..when i reached jas house..it be around 8.55am..is normal for both of us..as we're always late for classes..never been early after the cny holiday i guess..can't really remember when...hmm..so..both of us were so bloody broke..that when we add on our money..we left only 6 bucks..is DAMN BROKE...my goodness..

so...today we decided that..we shouldn't park in the station and save the money..we parked outside the station..just after i parked my car nicely and i told her..ouh fuck!i don't feel like getting down..haha^^we made a choice to drive down to college..ok my car wiring got problem..but..till today..my beloved mechanic can't find out which wire got problem..haiy..i tried my best to avoid the jams...weeeeeeee...well at least afterall it was all..traffic lights..and no jam..

hmm..we reached college..at 9.50am..lets see..i left the train station around 9.30am..or maybe earlier..don't really know the time..so i guess it be the earliest day we've ever reached college so far..haha^^had break and i ate a lot again..because i get my money back..hoho..thanks sc..bloody..it was just after my break..i don't feel like going for class..i meant the T's class..then..god knows me too well..i had stomachache right after i made my choice..holy..

so i my stomach was still purging after my class..and when we're to go for lunch..only someone told me that..today's SHARON'S birthday..happy 19th..hehe..went to mcd for celebration..bought her a meal and a birthday cake..after a slice of cake..tummy purge like giler..i left and went to buy chee cheong fun..unfortunately..the stall was CLOSED..wasted my energy to walk so far..walked back to my car...and..fuck!i got stucked in the car park..

the parking space there be LIMITED..and those fags could simply park their car the way they want..serve you right nub!for parking right in front of me..a dumbass myvi..ouh i'm so sorry for banging your car....because the space in front of my car WASN'T A PARKING SPACE..you could fucking buy yourself a pair of spects before you park there..ya..my fault for banging you..but IT BE YOUR FAULT FIRST FOR PARKING THERE...don't fucking stared at me..your car pain my car also pain..and you must thank god..i didn't step on the accelerator..hahaha!is simply some paint wore off..u could wipe them off..so..just fucking drive off..

hmm...settled..no fight no quarrels..nothing..and i drove off..damn sad..to drive without spects..haiy..i took the wrong route and i was caught in the jam..after kl central..no more jam and i reached in just 15 mins...fetched aunty and kent out...ouh aunty i love you so much..you actually dare to sit my car..hahaha^^post office then back to taman desa and went to mid valley..the jam be...crazy..must be jusco's fault for having members' day..haha..after 6 spinnings at..gardens..we finally found a space..weeeeeeeee....and it was just right next to the entrance..

lunch and we did some shopping..after that..headed home..ouh we're lucky that we're not caught in the jam...i love my car..for not fooling around today..haha..lazy around the house for a while..and..went out for ball...the rain loves me so much that once i reached the court..it started to rain..and my dear hates me..he said i don't take him seriously..i'm sorry babe..went for yumcha session..the rain really loves me so much that it got heavier..

fetched james..and headed back to dear's home..passed by justin's place..he hid behind the windoe and chose not to turn up..sad T_T dropped them off..and me and jasmine went home..no jam..just slow traffic..after jalan kuching it be fine..my car is performing well today..so..i'm planning to drive to college as well tomorrow..hahaha^^i am too lazy to wait for the train..ouh..and my car's cd player be working!yes~finally after so long..wooohooo..

today be my best day..my dad finally had the guts to sit into my car..hahahaha^^when i finally stepped into my room..my head be bursting soon..ok..nap and dinner..and now..time to go to bed..very tired..tomorrow be having morning and afternoon class again..after college..have got this piano thing to attend..fly!5 years after i stopped my piano...hope my fingers won't tremble when i play for the teacher tomorrow...keep my fingers across...

p/s: my dear got his job~so he be starting his work..NEXT MONDAY..congrats!muackxx

24022009--------------->undescribable day

haiy..another tuesday..went to bed very early last night..but..god knows why i still couldn't manage to wake up early this morning..pathetic..hmm..so i rushed and did all my stuffs..and..i planned to pump petrol before i fetch that crazy girl..

the world is never fair..haiy..the more i hope to get the things done..higher chances that i would bloody screw my own plan..so..it all came true..i screwed my own plan..woohoo..fucking traffic jam..that's why i fetched her first and i couldn't pump my petrol.. *sigh* then..seriously..malaysian drivers sucks..they're the suckiest and the nastiest drivers i ever came across..well i only drive in m'sia..but..seriously GOD DAMN IT MAN!

kepong road already damn narrow..that fucker could just fucking stopped his car in the middle of the road..right in front of an old lady's house and blocked the whole dumb road..causing traffic jam!it actually worsen the jam...my goodness..are you really that dumb?can't you just drive park your car..inner abit?i forgive your dumbness...

then..i have no choice but to pump petrol..mobil was my only choice..and i'm running outta petrol..my god lar!ish~that thing..forgotten what is that called..is..not in a good shape..i thought it'd be ok..but..OMG!!!i washed my feet with...PETROL...seriously it be my first time...i can't stop cursing...damn!ouh..and i saw an idiot...parked his car...in the petrol station...and he was MAKING PHONE CALL in his car...i seriously have no idea if he's brainless or what..

anyway..i was...damn late for class..but..nevermind i'm so used to it..haha..i had corns..and sandwiches before i entered the class..ouh they're YUMMY^^thanks to jas's mom..break and after that class continued and ended..went home after that..my goodness..the weather be killing me..took a nap and after that went to mum's shop..haiy..

got stranded for the rest of my day..couldn't do shits there..being ignored by my boyfriend for the whole night..haiy..drove home and i did nuts..freaking sleepy..asked a question also kena pwnt..being said arrogance..i apologized if i did offended you..

shall go to bed..tomorrow have got law in the morning and maths in the afternoon..i shall die..sob

marty casey & love hammers---------trees

I don't wanna go through this life
Without you by my side
And I got it all worked out
In my head here's how it's got to be

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

We, we make believe
In a world we rule together
We can build our dreams
With a knot tied tight to last forever

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
We got one shot
So let's use our imaginations
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
You're all that I got
So where do we go from here

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

I know there's more for us in this life
If we hold on, if we hold strong
I know there's more for us in this life
Can we hold on, can we hold on
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this song is AWESOME
hahahaha...time to update a song after 2 months of bohemian ^^
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

19022009-----------------

14022009-----------------> my VALENTINES day

weeeeee...my valentines day be AWESOME!!!seriously AWESOME...hehe...celebrated it with my dear dear of course...only for dinner..cox i have some lame-shit maths class in the morning..*Sigh*
anyway..met mah dear up at 5pm..class ended at 12.30pm..reached home around 1.45pm..went to jusco and grabbed gift..wat i bought for him be secret ^^hoohoo...
neway..i broke my very rule and i wore SKIRT...u made it...ur the first guy that made me wore a skirt on a date..effing lucky boy..ok i know i'd be weird in it..so just forget bout it..can't post the picture..i couldn't upload that photo..haha
had AWESOME dinner at "the spaghetti grill"..weeeeee..stuffed mushroom..fettucine...mushroom soup..*yummy*pictures..are all with my dear..haha..i don't have them with me..sad =(
this is the ONLY photo i have..there be my boyfriend..
he makes me look like an old lady..he has got KIDDO face =(

ouh thanks my dear for the night..it was awesome and unforgettable..muackxx love joo^^

11022009-------------->I AM VERY HAPPY^^

weeeeeeeeee...i had a very very happy day...congrats me please!thank you....i'm willing to share my happiness with joo people..hahahahahaha..
despite the fact that sk and jasmine finally broke up...and please let the story end..i got so fed up with sk that i think he suck to the max..the way he treated my friend and his fucked up attitude..
i got my bank account done!weeeee!!!weeeee!!!and..and...i got my new number~hahahaha...ouh...thank to that maxis guy...he found me a number that made me feel so close to my darling...haha..i am so happy^^
besides..that dumb dumb car couldn't start up again...sadness...then the 2 crazy girls...me and jasmine of course..we're smart enuf to open the bonnet and pour water and there we go...started up the engine..hohoho...
then i'm a good sister..i speed up to fetch my lil moron brother from school...why moron?he's sometimes irritating,sometimes adorable..hence it be moron for me..fetched him and stopped at shell...cooled down the car for a while and WE FLEW BACK TO KEPONG FROM JALAN IPOH..
wooohooo..when i passed by maxis...weeeeeeeeee...is not close yet!hohohohoho...of course..wat i did was..parked the car and rushed into that centre and tell them i wanna change mah number~
wow!maybank in jinjang be..EFFICIENT..haha..i've got MONNEH in my debit card...imagine..how happy would i be...when i had not enuf of CASH...chose the number cleared off the bill..there goes mah new number...
and from tomorrow onwards...i can SPAM jasmine's phone and call her..FOR FREE!!!after that...DROVE HOME WITH UBER SPEED...no choice..that lil moron has got tuition..changed into my jogging attire and...went back to jas' waited for her...
headed down...to the jogging park...damn lar..no stamina..2 rounds..when i stopped..i can't continue...so i shall not stop and run longer...
after 2 and a half round i headed to the kids corner..and started to play with every shits...ouh i found my favourite thing..i have no idea wat is that called..but it will spin...
so i be the only 19 year old retarded girl playing that with 2 lil girls..hehe..i think they be around 6~7 year old...they're so cute...that one of them actually joined me at that spinning game..till i felt like vomiting..
i stopped and i played other stuffs..and it started to drizzle...sad =( nevermind...ran to the car..couldn't start again..haiy..went to the toilet..goodness!it was SO NICE!CLEAN AND NICE..shall snap a few shots next time..now i know why that whole construction wasted a few millions..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
after toilet..there goes DESA PARK CITY...went there for steamboat..hoho...food and MORE FOOD!!^^ we ate for almost 2 hour..only i got home...
new number...leave me a comment and you'll get my new number..haha..
i'm still very excited and happy now...wat a good day^^ how nice if my life be always like this...hahahahaha...

说说自己的感受吧。。

已经很久没有用华语了。。大概有差不多两个月了吧。。那时因为我为了方便你看我的部落格呀。。所以，才没有用华语的。。但是你有没有来看我就真的不知道了。。但是没有关系。。是交往了都快两个月了。。当初的开始有没有做错决定我就真的不知道，可是我现在真的很爱你。。这个是真的了。。是无法否定的事实。。也没有必要去否认或否定它。。

最近总是一直觉得沟通方面有问题，是我的问题吗？还是你的呢？其实你都不知道，每一次吵架，我都没有真的在吵，因为我知道自己的脾气，我知道自己的限度，所以我都在容忍。。但是我有自己的极限，只怕极限到了之后我会直接喊停。。我真的会这么做，有多么的不舍得都好，我的决定是不会改变的。。尤其是这种分手的事情。。。

你的脾气是很不好，但是我都忍了。。难道你就不可以谅解我一下吗？我，需要顾虑太多人的感受了，我自私不了。。这个是自己最不好的一点，但也是我觉得很不错的一点。。人生就是产生了很多的矛盾，这些矛盾就是在等着我们自己去解决它们。。有些时候，我的压力是来自于朋友，很多是后都是自己不知道该怎么样告诉你，因为知道你会容易受伤。。因为怕你会承受不起。。那我呢？你有考虑过我承受不住吗？我并不是你看上去如此的坚强的。。

开心的时候真的很开心的。。那个时候自己的压力会逐渐增长。。因为快乐的时光总是过得特别快，不是吗？很多时候，电影情节就是在反映着现实社会。。社会是残忍的，没有人会对自己仁慈。。相信你对我的态度也是一样的吧。。道歉了，你还总是如此。。总是那么的冷。。我会觉得不知所措的。。但是你却又不知道这一点。。

我以为你会很了解我。。但原来你不是。。当你对我觉得很失望因为你认为我不谅解你的时候，其实我都会很伤心的。。我都在尽自己最大的努力去认识你，但你有尝试着去认识我吗？考试对我而言就真的很重要，你知不知道当你说我为了一张白痴的文凭发神经的时候，我的心有多痛有多失望？其实你不知道，所以就没有关系。。

我亲爱的男朋友，我也会有崩溃的一天的。。。拜托不要再欺负我了。。我爱你。。

CNY part 1..

HAPPY CNY peeps...ok..hmm..greeting everyone happy cny be happy...haha..duno why i simply love to say hi..happy chinese new year..for nothing..and...this year's reunion dinner...showed that...from next year onwards..the table be lacking of one of the family members..sze wei jie jie..
she be getting married this coming march..o.o well..why lacked of one before her is because grandpa's death..sigh..it has been 6 years...every year's reunion dinner..i'll thought of him...
grandpa's a very very kind old man..weeeeee..he drinks and smokes..well..every year..when he was still here..after the dinner..he will sit at the dining table...drinking his HENNESY with dad and uncle and aunty and mum...
after cleaning the dining table..ALL OF US will start gambling at there..haha..grandpa be the winner everytime..after he passed away..i seldom gamble anymore..there's no longer fun and laughters at the dining table..i will miss him a lot..
till today...i will only gamble...to entertain my family..and not for the sake of gambling..i find no fun..i miss grandpa..a lot..and the days playing fire crackers with him be EXTREMELY fun..wooohoo..me and ruei ming kor kor..will start playing right after dinner..no more for now..all kor said..is ...u baka dota..dun play dota dy..go sleep.. ^^
well..chinese new year is all about red packets and visiting friends and family members...due to global recession...the amount in each angpao..has been REDUCED from what i received last year..sob...T_T some of the aunties don't even bother to give..serious mofo..I'M UR FUCKING NIECE LAR...damnit!
and those who usually gave 10 cut cost gave 5 this year..i wanted to ask mama to give 5...she said nevermind.. o.O total amount of money right now is only half of what i've collected last year..omfg..daddy haven't gimme angpao yet..sigh...
fucking economy crisis..WHY THE HELL?you made me felt so broke...

p/s: uncle chin gave me a blank angpao today...haha...he took out the money to pay for his gambling debt.. ^_*

21012009------------>another big day

omfg..i'm scared

so at the end of the day..i'm still afraid of facing my AS results...
sigh..i'm such a coward...ya..so?ish....who the hell on earth would have the guts to collect the results when she has no confidence at all?
ya..i know i'll definitely fail either one of it..i have my own feelings..
tension is driving me crazy...
maybe you won't know how'd i feel...well...nobody knows..
and my parents can't even remember that i be collecting my results later...
i told them...so wat?they don't give a god damn shit about it..
sigh...
10am in the morning..5th floor...get the fucking result..
urgh...i know i will cry...is either...right after i collected it..or...when i'm alone in the room~
to be honest..i'm a sore loser in my studies...i can't let the results be outta my expectation..
T_T
watever has been done..is already a past..I WON'T SCREW MY A2 if i really fail..
i can't sleep..my heart is pumping fast..i'm gonna have nightmare..

19012009----------->tired but happy ^^

a night without any sleep or rest be tiring...because wat's coming up next be 3 hours of boring class and no rest given...
well..LAN class suckx...so..i ended up sitting at the back sit with jas,angel and joey and the three of us talk craps..hoho..my writing speed has reduced from moderate to a slow pace..i can't stand it anymore...and the writing suckx..uh oh..
break time...wanted to eat chee cheong fun at first...ok..because i'm hungreh so i can take any food at that time...ended up eating filet-o-fish in the class..i was happily having fries when the lecturer was talking there...haha..
after class..went home straight..hehe...was so tired that i fell asleep at the sofa...till....i heard my grandma and my maid shouting...wtf...fucking noisy..then that old lady came down from upstairs and sat on the chair..she cried and kept complaining she's sick when she's fucking healthy...damn it lar!
so i got angry and i went back to my room and sleep..5 mins later..bloody hell daddy and brother got home...came into the room and kept disturbing me...i hate people who disturb my sleep when i don't have enough of rest..is like as if you don't know about it..mofos!house phone ringing non-stop...urgh
3smth..finalleh i went out with chang..and paid my phone bill..settled everything i went to the train station..met yong..o.o bumped into lolo at putra station..haha..sigh...unbarred the phone line...life is always boring yet happy..ok..forget bout it..
then...nothing much...waited for 2 hours only my dad came and picked me up...hoho^^ my coolest daddy...told him lotsa things..well..i always have nice time talking to him...
then we had the worst dinner..bloody hell..the food they served simply suckx..don't expect me to go back again..service suckx as well..so...forget bout it..headed home after dinner..daddy said tomorrow's dinner settle myself..weeeeeee...of course ima bug my darling..haha...
i've got a boyfriend who can cook and do lotsa stuffs...hahahaa....i'm so lucky^^

me and my name...TAN SUE YINN ^^

You Are Spontaneous and Whimsical

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

16012009-------->one month already...^^

without realizing it...the relationship between me and kent actually lasted for one fine month...of cox..the longer it goes the better..so it's still counting on..weeeeee.....
well..we went back to tsun jin and took my book and bumped into quite a number of people..my juniors all...haha..smart ass..all know kent's my boyfriend..lol..
went to times square...for MOVIE of course...sigh..another horror movie...george romeo's diary..hmm..this movie...be almost the same as quarantine...not as scary but quite funny at some point..well..i didn't hid myself behind the popcorn box...but...at the first screen...i headbutted my dear..
cinema was so cold..again..we didn't finish the popcorn we bought...o.o sad...guess..i would only finish the popcorn when i really enjoy the whole movie..haha...so far...madagascar, ratatouile, harry potter, jay's movie....and not horrors..my heart be too weak for horrors i guess..
anyway..i'll try to watch more..shall overcome the phobia^^
ouh ya..before movie..i had lunch at secret recipe again...there's this WOMAN..who sat next table..bloody kept staring at me and kent...omg..wat the fuck is wrong with you? then the hell..the service sucks...seriously..waiter cleaning up plates when i left a piece of chip there for kr? THEY FUCKING DIDN'T ASK ME AND TOOK AWAY MY CHIP...then when i said they didn't ask only one of the waiter asked.."do you want it back?" fuck lar..ish..
after movie...headed to buy kr's friend's birthday present...lolx lolx...our friend here kena pulled away by a MALAY CHICK..which i don't find her HOT at all...promoting some malay pimples remover cream...
haha..and..kr simply stoned there..when i said lets go he remain stoned..and he almost bought that stupid cream...lolx..lolxx....
such a cute boy...
bought his friend present..and he became broke...hehe ^^
walked all the way to pudu..and found kent's diablo 2...i smart..cox i remembered that the shop sold computer games..weee....
kr went home and me and kent went for CHEESY WEDGES...
woooohuu...real CHEESY...yummy yum...shaun..u simply missed it..hahahahaha...nothing much...went home after that...
reached home..grandma went avatar...lolololo...screamed for 1 hour...for nothing...she simply qixin...chang said is normal...i also duno..
mum came into the room and said...she be going to taiwan with aunty maggie 2mrw..i was simply having dilemma before she came in..she solved it...by going to taiwan..hohohoho...
BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WANNA GO TAIWAN...nevermind..i'll definitely get to go taiwan one day...no worries...make sure you get the things i listed out..especially the CHOCOLATES..thanks..

p/s: thanks....to my beloved bf...for giving me such memorable month..hohohoho...heart you ^^

13012009--------->fucking xien

damn it lar..i seriously don't know wat kinda parents i'm having right now..
HAVING A BOYFRIEND IS NO BIG DEAL OK?
i'm already 19...I KNOW HOW TO THINK...fuckers treat me like a kid...i'm no longer that dumbass sue yinn in ur freaking dumbass heart..
ya..YOU GUYS DATED EACH OTHER SINCE 15..DON'T THINK I DON'T KNOW...
i know more than you do..so just freaking shut up..YOUR CURRENT HUSBAND FAIL DOESN'T MEANT THAT MY BF FAILS...YOUR CURRENT WIFE IS AN ASS..DOESN'T MEANT THAT UR DAUGHTER WOULD TURN INTO AN ASS AS WELL..
you want me to take law..i took law...i watch series..you said i didn't study...i go for a date..you said i didn't study as well...when i said i wanna study..you fucking said...don't need to pretend..
YA...ALL YOU SAY...HAPPY?i'm like an idiot puppet right now..
i hate to be the smartest..yet i have to be one..i hate to be the eldest..yet i'm born as one..
have you guys ever thought from my angle?
my dad as the youngest child...my mum as youngest daughter...you guys get every shit you want..
WAT ABOUT ME?i am the eldest..ASK URSELF..HOW MUCH TIME HAVE YOU EVER SPENT ON ME..BEFORE YOU START LECTURING ME..
yes..i respect you as my parents...I RESPECT!i listened..BUT YOU SAID I DON'T NEED TO ACCEPT EVERY SHIT YOU SAID BEFORE..and i remembered..you don't need me to repeat it don't you?
don't fucking threatened me...I HATE THREADS...i'll prove you wrong DEFINITELY...for having a boyfriend i'll study even harder...
now i know why i can't talk to you...because watever i have in mind is always wrong...you'll say i have the wrong mindset..
NEVER LET ME KNOW WHO THE HELL ON EARTH LET THE 2 FAGS KNOW I GOT A BOYFRIEND...I'LL CURSE YOU TO THE MAX...
bloody hell...you spied me...

09012009-------------->updates^^

effing tired..effing sleepy..but..i'm still here to update my blog..simply because i've been VERY LAZY lately...i think the time to push myself IS HERE...so...college life remains the same..it makes no difference..good news and bad news..both i don't feel like writing here..as long as the decision is made correctly..there it goes..i'll give you full support^^

then..my AS results be out on the 21st of JAN...sigh..honestly i have no idea..and i don't know how is it gonna be..exam's over..the final result can't change..if it turns out to be..horrible..well..i should retake all the subjects and redo everything...hopefully..it's not horrible..*keep ur fingers across*

18th of JAN..atc student ball...of course i would invite my darling with me...well..at least i should ask if he would like to come along..since outsiders are allowed..i know if i didn't even bother to ask..something bad will happen..rows..and more rows...

don't really have much time to spend with you...hope that planner work out well with you...hehe^^is love and time...

chinese new year be around the corner..and i haven't get any new baju yet...simply too busy lately...sigh...shall look up for a few and get mama or maybe daddy to the shop and pay...i'm effing broke..forgive me..T_T

is year 2009...hope everything's gonna work out well this year...at least not as bad as last year...god bless me!!!!!!

01032009----------------->i met the archbishop

today..i followed dear dear to HOLY ROSARY..well this be my second time visiting the church for the year..haven't even pay a visit to any of the temple yet but churches..nevermind of that..everytime i go church i feel HOLY..o.o that's actually weird..i'm not
a catholic or anything..i'm not a buddhist..ok i might be a half buddhist..who cares..aikx!

hmm..service was kinda FUN actually..don't really felt left out there..while waiting for dear i studied and all..hmm..didn't really study much..got bored of the first chapter of contract..fucken can't finish after a week..damnit!is jux simple 40 pages..i cudn't even finish them..well..after that drove to brickfields for lunch..that coffeeshop's drinks be the suckiest ever..i didn't finish my cup of drink..

drove home..and..rest and went out to st.john's..my first time visiting that place..haha that church be huge..sad part be it's WARM inside the church..that sending off ceremony or RCIA...i forgotten wat's that ceremony called be..nice!and i saw the archbishop of m'sia!wahahaha..he's an OLD MAN..but cool well at least i saw him..

despite his age..the way he speaks..i simply love it..sorry to say but compared to father daniel..i actually find it more interesting listening to the archbishop speech.. *_* well..you know..the ceremony was kinda HUGE..and people tend to come from other states..therefore speeches were given in four different languages...english, mandarin, tamil and malay..my goodness!there's this indian FATHER that could actually give speech with MANDARIN!!!holy holy...and his pronounciation was...correct..^^

song were sang in 2 different versions...malay and english versions..sad to say..the songs in st.john's be slow and boring..aikx!hmm...well..after the ceremony went home lu..tomorrow my dear be working dy..i'm gonna miss him like crazy!take care and enjoy your job babe..heavy rain for the rest of the night..it be a cold night...that night be the first time in my life after i took my drivers' licence that i drove with the speed of 20km/s...well that's crazy...effing slow..i cudn't see the road clearly...wat to do?i had to drive with extreme slow speed..as there be POOLS and POOLs of water..then with my hazellight on..haiy..

thunderstorms...and all...i need some hugs*

01012009-------------------->NEW YEAR!!

first..happy new year guys...sad no pictures of fireworks..because..my beloved darling's dslr ran outta battery..hehe^^ *sobs* so...me,kent,jas,sk,jack,roc,raymond,mun,kr,hock leong all went to kl plaza..
right..sorry mun and kr..that plan wasn't suppose to end up in the pool when u guys were here...sigh* sorry sorry..
KR WHERES MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT??!!i don't want the 2 towels..ish ish!!make sure you gimme 2 this year..hahahaha^^MUN THANKS FOR THE CHOCOLATES..they're yummy *wink*
raymond..our great sponsor for booze..hoho..brandy and coke and carlsberg..ok i took only brandy and coke and not carlsberg nor guiness stout...hmm...played bluff and all..
brandy made me blur T_T haha..i swang alone on the bed..6 in the morning..when i see ceiling spinning above my head..and i can't even stand properly...sad sad...to the extend that i need to use cold water to splash on my face...
cigarettes SUCKX!especially pall mall..omg that smell...eww...
hock leong and jas puked...haha...i didn't!*claps* never get drunk before..i duno if i were tipsy or sober..haha..the only i know is..i was blur but at the same time i was awake..i know what i'm doing..hehe
hmm...mun be leaving to the states this sunday...sigh all the best to you mun...MAKE SURE YOU COME BACK AND PAY US A VISIT...ur my shifu weih..those dota lessons actually helps..lulu be leaving to phil on the 8th..coming back on feb and off again during april and off to the states june or july...sigh my bud...i will miss joo!!
my darling be at some party right now...have no idea if he is still alright..haha..i don't think he had enough of rest..sigh
that ass out there please don't spoil my new year...you bloody cheapskate..
i feel so broke.....sooooooooooo BROKE.....and poor T_T

*thanks to justin,lulu and everyone that sent me sms to greet me happy new year..haha^^