stress or depress? baby said I'm not stress but DEPRESs! I have no idea what I am now. I don't know what's coming about later, I rather not know or I rather know? I'm in a great dilemma now! yes ONE HUGE ONE!
So great that I couldn't even put myself to bed. I'd rather sit here and wait for the time to pass and read other's blog and not to bed. I hoped for a pass, and please let my dream come true! I hope you hear my prayers. The one that I truly prayed for. Not that others were not true, this is just one important one to me!
Maybe baby's right, the course is just not the right one for me! Stepping into the world is just a wrong decision made? or rather NOT? I have no idea already. I need to clear my own doubts and Make SURE what I want besides wasting my time trying on other stuffs.
I have been working for a month and ya I saw the true colors of the parents in Malaysia. They have been forcing their kids, who are innocent and THEY should be spending their sweet childhood in the kindergarten learning how to read and write and make new friends instead of facing PILES and PILES of homeworks at the age of 5!
I saw the stupidity in parents and the expectations in them. They blame the teachers for EVERYTHING! The child being unable to write at the age of 5, WHY? All I can say is because the parents didn't spend enough time with the child alone to teach him HOW TO FUCKING WRITE! You gave birth to the child, you have to raise him up and not just chuck him at a learning center or a kindergarten expecting the teacher to teach him EVERYTHING.
No, teachers can only guide them and not TEACH them. It doesn't matter how much you pay a month. To me, it is your responsibility. If you're working during the weekdays, then spend some time during the weekends. Just an hour every day will not harm you. Maybe because I don't have a kid right now, I couldn't understand. To me, the parents are like RICH ASSES that can afford A L.V. bag or a GUCCI. The time you can spend with your child is PRICELESS. Do not wait till the time when he grows up and he understands the world. He will never have that MUCH of time for you. The childhood of a kid is the BEST memory of his life and he shall never forget, be it good or bad.
I have no idea why did I typed such things out. I need a place to tell my feelings. I want to feel better. I really hope the parents that didn't treat their kids well could read what I wrote. Not that when you ask your son " Have you studied today? " and your son said "No" then you go bad mouth about the center makes you a great person or rather not. Because you'll never get a really good feedback about your child if you only wanna listen to GOOD things! Note that, nothing is ever gonna be perfect in Malaysia or rather this world. Nothing WILL GO AS YOU WISH. So stop dreaming!
