Monday, November 24, 2008

simply bored...i'm bored

ouh.......life's bored when there's no laughters..................................................................
and wtf....u suddenly crawled into my mind again..........................................................
can someone like keep me company whole freaking night till i go to bed so i won't think of you?
no matter...how sad how happy...when i'm alone the freaking face of urs would pop up~
ur worst than a virus!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!U DUMBASS........SERIOUS SHIT~
WHY CAN'T I HATE YOU?DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!!!
URGH....................................................................................................................................
xien xien xien xien xien
i can't even finish my bowl of maggie now...
all because of YOU..............................................................................................................
stay off please............u've been my nightmare for 2 months..
and i really had enuf of it...................................................................................................

Sunday, November 23, 2008

22112008--------------->很久没有打华语了

嗯,真的很久没有用华语来打自己的部落格了。。其实有很想念看到华语字吗?有少少的。。
这几天,应该说这几个星期,我都过得还不错。。只是,我那没有用的头脑,还是会无意中的想起你!
你以为我想的啊?我也不想的~所以麻烦你快点从这个世界上消失。。至少在我的世界消失。。
不要再来侵入我的生活了,很烦!很令人讨厌~至少你是让我喜欢那么多个人里面最后悔的那个!
原来,被一个男生摔比起北三个女生摔得经历是差很远的。。没有关系!被摔得一定会得到属于自己的幸福。。
我不需要你的祝福,更不需要你的关心。。去过你那所谓自私的生活我会觉得好一点!
我不知道你还有没有来看,但是,我希望你看到后悔采取行动!
毕竟,已经两个月了,我已经受够了。。。而且我也觉得是时候了。。所以,我的书还有我的东西都还给我。。
很多东西都无法弥补,也不需要。。因为,它会自己痊愈。。
最近的生活中是日夜颠倒。。过的挺充实的!为什么?因为我都在打机。。。
原来打机睡觉。。真的可以过一天的!呵呵~可惜,这种生活到下个星期就结束了。。
我只有那两个星期的假期!真的很可悲~世界上哪有那么笨的学院的?两个星期够谁用?!
天啊。。而且明年的课程好难。。。特别是数学。。这次真的是高数二了。。我的妈呀~~~~
谁来救我?高数二我真的会死到五颜六色的。。因为我只会三角!我唯一的强项是三角。。
但是却不能靠它吃饭。。然后由点向放弃自己的经济学。。为什么?因为我看不明!
真的很烦!很烦!不放弃又不是,放弃又不是。。噢!怎么我那么烂?
然后然后,自己现在又不想放弃了。。为了我的3个A我不会放弃的!
哼~不管啦。。明年的机大概会少打很多吧。。老爸,你就让我玩多一个月。。
成绩明年一月出,我都不懂自己会哭还是笑。。所以这一个月还是好好玩了它~
如果明年从考的话,我都不懂自己还有没有时间打机。。
认识你们真好!因为有你们我的生活不再闷了。。
钻均明天从台湾回来哦~看那个傻婆买什么给我。。很久没有听到他的声音了。。
是时候要他陪我喝茶了。。明年6月之后,我们就会分开了。。相信要一起逃学都难了吧。。
你去年的大众传播,我会继续我的法律系的。。但是要去哪里年就真的不知道了。。
头好痛,但是却睡不着,而且不想睡!我是怎么了?!!我到底想怎样?
我总是希望明天不要那么快的到来,拿自己就可以多玩一下。。
有哪一个很厉害的人可以让地球就停在那个时空不让它自己自转呢?
只要地球不自转,时间就不会过,也就自然不回公转啦。。不是吗?然后时间就会停留在那个时空~
不可能吧,这个事情不可能会发生的。。
对了,最近长智慧牙,牙肉肿了,好不舒服!然后没有啦。。。
呵呵~老妈子灯下就回来了。。我呆在家里一个星期什么都没有做。。一定被鸟!哇咔咔。。
不管啦,你爱鸟就鸟。。我已经麻了。。很无聊。。每个人都睡觉了。。闷死了拉!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

22112008------------>kr's bday^^

basically,there's nothing much to talk bout lately..
is jux game game game and more game..
urgh...daddy jux came back from kota bharu thursday...ouh..he went to lumut again yesterday~
sigh*
bored...bloody they simply spent time more on jobs than with me and jack...
so don't blame me for every day facing the laptop..
you never know how the feeling would be..is been since last time...
anyway...i didn't sleep again..kinda fucked up...
i woke up at 9am yesterday and i didn't sleep again...damn it!
headache but i'm not sleepy at all...hoW?
I'M HUNGRY!!!HUNGRY!!!!!ALL I NEED IS FOOD FOOD FOOD...
roc went to uncle menglek's house yesterday..bet jack would be going out again..
ok..i'm HOME ALONE again..
sigh* is like u simply gimme money to stay alive...and mum called back simply to ask me do chores..won't u get bored?
omg..is such a nightmare..
so~I'M GOING TO CHING'S hse next week...i don't care..i'm going!!!
then i'll go nanny's hse with ying..and yes i have to go...
never go for how long dy?almost 6 years since i last went and stay o.O
so...after ying's spm i'm OFF~
yes..and THE FUCKED UP COLLEGE...classes commencing on the 1st of december...
O.O i only have 2 weeks of holidays..which i think would be assly not enough for me..
so...eventhough i dun like..i'll go langkawi and penang with that..i'm not gonna miss any outings!
I'M DYING OF BOREDOM~is all crap here..
even brownie got bored..wat she did all day was sleeping and walked into my room and sleep again..pathetic dog..
thanks to jack who bought me cans of coca cola^^ ouh i love you~
yes..thanks to roc for staying away from me..u another nightmare..mum's pet..
but can't shout at you i'm bored..damn it!i'm contradicting myself..
oh god..get me outta here!!!!!!!!!
and my beloved neighbour..he's effing mean..don't wanna lend me the shows..
I'M NOT GONNA SEND YOU ANYMORE NICE SONGS!!!
arrgh~~~bored bored bored...
had a game at 6am with drugs and babysitter..haha..3 v 5...
we lost gracefully~with dignity and pride!
anyway..i shall go get some rest..my brain's not functioning well...
shit...and i'm kinda dumb lately...sigh sigh..
i need books,games and coca colas!!!get me those~^^

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Madagascar 2 OS---------->I like to MOVE IT!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

All girls all over the world,
Original King Julian pon ya case man!
I love how all girls a move them body,
And when ya move ya body,
Uno move it, nice and sweet and sexy, alright!

Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.
Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.

Woman! physically fit, physically fit,
Physically, physically, physically fit,
Woman! physically fit, physically fit,
Physically, physically, physically fit,

Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic
Woman! ya nice, sweet, energetic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic.
Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic
Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic.
WOMAN!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.
Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.

Eye liner - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Nose powder- pon ya face a mek man mud up
Pluck ya eyebrow - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Gai ya lipstick - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Woman ya nice broad face, and ya nice hip,
Make man flip and bust up the lip
Woman ya nice and energetic,
Big ship pon de ocean that a big titanic
Woman ya nice broad face, and ya nice hip,
Make man flip and them bust them lip
Woman ya nice and energetic,
Big ship pon de ocean that a big titanic.

Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!

I like to move it move it,
He like to move it move it,
She like to move it move it,
You like to MOVE IT!

We like to move it move it,
You like to move it move it.
I like...Oh I did I have done I?
Did I do I like?
I think I did I like...
We?What about we?
They?They?did they...

Oh,I got it..I got it I got a new one,
I got a new one.
Them?No, not them.
Did I say them or not?

Them like to move it mov...
I'm gonna say them...

Them like to move it move it
We like to move it move it
umm..wait there's gotta be another one...
we...we..oh..nope..oh..US!
Can we do us like to?

Us like to move it move it,
That's the one.
Us like to move it move it,
Us like to move it move it,
Us like to....MOVE IT!

Move it..move iitt...move it..
move it!move it!move it!move it!

Ok then..wanna hear..
I just wanna tell you a little story this little story
That my daddy used to tell me he was a king as well
i was born probably about 68 years ago over by that tree over there yeh!

And i rememeber things changed a lot in those days,
In MADAGASCAR it wasn't that commercial,
You know,
There wasn't a fuss bout who's got the latest tree
And what leaves are you wearing,
And who's got the latest fur on their back you know..

Those days it was just me and a couple of the others you know...
Doing the jungle boogie you know..
Jungle boogie..jungle boogie...
woah woah woah woah woah woah woah

Move it!
You really think this is not gonna end?
coz it is 3,2,1
Not bad eh?I like it~
===================================================================
haha..i fell in love with this song..hahahahaha^^

16112008------------->i bored...

lolx..wat a boring day..another day at grandma's house..with cousins...and all
but this time visited another grandma first at the hospital..hmm...should i say i overcome it dy?or...
anyway...saw someone i hated for years there...they would only appear when they need help!
after grandpa passed away 5 years ago...i don't take them as part of my cousins anymore...
for what reason must i treat you like my uncle and auntie when u visit my grandma to gain benefits?
since last time your son came to my house...and granny or grandpa would take my chocs and give it to him...AND HE EVEN SPOILT my things!damn it~
i could remembered how you guys treated me and my stuffs...so just leave me alone!
in the car,daddy said they came to get granny sign the doc for them...
how i wish granny is as healthy as before...how i wish granny won't sign..it's not up to me to say a no....
i inherited grandpa's kindness..and god damn it!i even offered you the swissroll that we bought for granny..cox grandpa told me once that we must treat a guest with heart..
anyway..i don't give a piece of shit how you gonna be after getting my granny sign that doc for you..
ONLY IF YOU COULD STAY AWAY FROM HER!leave her in peace...
aunt said she had a plan to move back to jinjang...cox granny would need a larger room...
jinjang and the idiots would be her neighbour!BEAR IN MIND BECAUSE OF GRANDPA ONLY YOU GUYS GET THAT HOUSE!
my grandpa applied for all his nephews to get into st.john last time...HOW MUCH HE SPENT and HOW DID U GUYS PAID BACK?
i knew it!i don't need to ask and they would just tell...
life without grandpa is bored..and this is something until today when i thought of it i would still shed a tear...WHY WOULD THAT FUCKING HOSPITAL DID SUCH BLOODY MISTAKE?
i regretted for not giving the nurses extra punch!grandpa wouldn't like it but i couldn't take it!
a grandpa which i respect and love most....5 years dy....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

14112008-------------->it has called to an END...

my final paper..law paper 2..haha~so..yesterday didn't sleep...same for today..no sleep!
and have no idea wat the fuck was wrong with me simply started to feel sleepy because no coke and no mood to study..ouh~~~~~sad!
luckily i covered up most of the things yesterday..or i would really die..
anyway...i finished my police powers in college within 2 hours..hoho!i'm great..^^
thank god i have my notes with me...
hmm...i hadn't finished reading yet during lunch and i got so tension that i started to tremble...
so at the end of the day i had a can of coke...breakfast went with an empty tummy and a can of mocha latte..
exam..started...and my hunches were correcT!woooooo~~~
equity really came out...damn it!ok..i sux in it and hence i did nothing...i did the second question instead..which turned out to be kinda alright for me..
jp~wowowow!and.......court structure...huh...
i lack of time again today but at least i wrote something instead of leaving it blank..arrgh!
sir said my look during the exam was so tension and sleepy he almost knocked my head down to wake me up~o.O
after exam....went to mid valley with jas and angel...i went for food at kim gary!
yes...outta no where i had gastric during exam...sick!then ordered lotsa food...
2 pieces of fried chicken wing,1 french toast,1 big plate of french fries...and a cup of coke..
the french toast...were filled with...PEANUT BUTTER!omg..i don't like peanut butter..
i didn't knew bout it until i put it in my mouth..peanut butter not that nice...that taste is kinda weird and irritating to me..
hmm...then chatted for a while me and angel left and went home..
while waiting for the train i started to spam..or i think i might faint sumwhere there..
and the fucking phone was like RAN OUTTA BATTERY SUDDENLY!
thank god that time train's here dy...when it reached kl central..i got a nice seat with air-cond...
so i yawned and yawned and fell asleep..haha...
went out and stuffs....had dota...now extremely sleepy~
ok i shall go to bed dy!ouh...T_T
didn't dota with my brother and baby sitter tonight..haha.....all of them busy playing ryl!!!
no fair no fair~~~~cox i can't download that thing...SAD!!!!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

13112008------>i'm sad...depressed and disappointed

*sigh...i didn't sleep for the whole fucking night...stayed up studying..ok..lets see...i covered up almost everything dy....i'm serious..
law&morality,jp,legislation,dl,SI,CPS,HRA,lay participation......
why no common law&equity?why no police powers?why no legal professions?why no this...?no that?cox i sux in common law...i dislike adr...police powers too much..din really read..legal professions got bored of it..so?sigh*
so...i went out at 8am this morning happily grabbing watever materials i feel like bringing...my file too big dy and can't read up so many things..so i brought watever i think is alright..
thanks to ktm...the train late for 10~15 mins again!!!stupid train...
then...walked to mcd...ok..i stress..am REALLY STRESS...
i hadn't stop eating since yesterday....i just kept eating and eating...
yesterday after having dinner..when daddy cooked again he fried the vege..i ate again..then i drank coke..then...midnight i had a bowl of mushroom soup..then this morning 5smth..had a cup of oats..then...went to mcd for breakfast..then had chee cheong fun for lunch..then had a piece of cholocate bread for tea..yes..now..and i jux finished eating..and dinner up next..and supper later..
aite..so i was curious and anxious about the paper..never had that feeling unless i felt that i'm well prepared...
when i went for breakfast...i finished up juries..and all~then went to library..lolx..filled with people..i haven't seen so much people in the library before..anyway i went in..
jas was busy listening to the records..so i sat with mei kuan...hmm..i started to study..
ya...i don't know where to start..where to stop...and i'm so stupid..i had 2 sets of notes...one plainly on cps..the other one would be bail&cps..
too blind dy...i read the CPS notes alone without BAIL..ouh...and i simply didn't give a damn bout it after i realized..i only said i'm stupid and i started HRA...haha
lolx..then...study study study only i realised my HRA dun have case law to cite..so...so...looked back at my notes..i didn't write enough of infomation there..
grabbed a book and start writing down important case law..lolx..lolxx..when i'm done...almost..jas came and said..lets go makan chee cheong fun..
brought my notes and book along of course..i haven't memorize my case law for SI..yea..too confident till i forgotten all the cases..lolx..simply looking up the cases and time's up..walked back to college..
no time to study dy...and the tension in me is driving me nuts..so i told myself that i have to be calm go in pray hard and write..crap~because I COVERED ALMOST EVERYTHING dy...
question papers were then distributed..and i got so HAPPy...sentencing,court structure,DL,SI,HRA,Lay Participation..and one more forgotten...and 6 pick 3..I KNOW THE ANSWERS!!!OH FUCK OH FUCK..
i was so happy..i thought cambridge gonna screwed us when actually the questions was kinda easy and nice..
i chose SI,Lay participation and DL..then...my SI so fucking long..3~4 pages..till i got not enuf time to really crap bout my Lay participation and my DL...MY DL!!!!!!THE ONE THAT IS ALWAYS IN MY MIND!!!!FUCK!!!!
I DIDN'T ANSWER MY DL~~I DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME TO DO SO...MY FAULT...is ALL MY FAULT..I DIDN'T PRACTICE..DIDN'T TIME MYSELF...THAT'S THE RESULT..
i only answered 50/75 instead of 75/75...my 25 marks simply GONE!!!!!!!!!forever and ever..
my A also NO MORE...ouh..that's sad..very sad...
and i'm sad now..depressed and disappointed...sigh*
tomorrow paper 2!I SWEAR I'LL DEFINITELY FINISH UP ALL 50marks..I DON'T CARE!!!!ish...wat i have to do tonight would be study POLICE POWERS and the rest of the things...i'm NOT GONNA TOUCH ON THE STUPID ADR...
i'm so tired....so sad..so sleepy now~

12112008----------->my brain went haywire again...

today..i was supposed to go tsun jin with aunty connie and desmond..aite..so i went!i was supposed to wake up at 9am eventhough i off my laptop at 5am...
the problem with me is...the whole fucking 4 hours i simply couldn't fall asleep..
once i shut my eyes..the things that flew in my mind was HOW HORRIBLE WOULD BE THE LAW PAPER...ya..i didn't study..FOR MONTHS!all in mind was watever i read few months ago~
i'm so fucked up...so i got up and read watever novels that i haven't finish reading them...hopefully i would fall asleep..
HEAVEN'S SAKE..i finished all 3 books..and i'm still wide awake..so i wrote my stupid essay..ok..halfway through..i got fed up of it..due to the ugly writing on the paper..i hate it..
then i went and lied on my bed again..and i stared blankly at the ceiling..so i turn on my laptop and looked for songs..hopefully i found someone online at that time..it was 8smth..
unfortunately..none of teh humans are available..then i heard noises outside..so i simply shut the lid of my laptop and went back to bed..i don't want them coming into my room and screwed me again..
hmm..9 in the morning..my alarm clock rang..i forgotten to off it~then i lied there..without moving..till 9.30 i bath and waited for my aunt to come..
waited for around half an hour..she said 10am..haix..anyway..we went to tsun jin..and got rejected..desmond's result not that good and the school haven't start arranging classes and intakes for transfered students..so..went back fruitlessly..
aite..back home..i thought i would be tired and sleep for like 4 hours..i'm sick~i couldn't sleep!!!so..online chat surf..read continue that essay..walking here and there..
after lunch i thought i could sleep again..ok this time too full..can't even lay in peace..so...laptop again..essay again..law studies again..until......3smth..i guess..
when it started to rain when i heard storms..i turn off my laptop and read a story book and finally i felt sleepy and fell asleep...oh god!!almost 30hours sleepless..ya..that's me!
woke up 7smth..left only jack and me around..dad,roc and uncle menglek went out..o.O i went straight to the refrigerator and started to hunt for my coca cola..i found none..
never mind..i continued my essay and chatted till dad got back and i asked him..he said..you blind or wat?i bought so many and u said nothing there..haha..so i went back and looked again..
my cans of coca cola was hidden behind..far behind..something blocked them..lolx~~
then..then..nothing much~simply open the can of drink and err..start staring at the book..then i got pist..then moodless..then chatting then..i called lolo..
yea..my best senior...haha..outta no where i realised actually i had everything in mind..but..they were all mixed up..
so for the rest of the night..i'm gonna read up everything and get all the things sort out~
I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP TILL THAT PAPER ENDS...meaning another sleepless night till 3pm..or maybe 4pm...sigh..
praying hard that equity and adr not coming out..i sux in that 2 chapters..case laws are frust..the years are irritating and annoying sometimes..sigh
another 36 hours and my exams would call to an end!i'm looking forward to it~~hoho!!
i wanna go for the run..who's gonna fetch me?!?!???!

*damn it..outta no where u poped into my mind again..damn u!ish~I'M SO GONNA HATE YOU!i will prove you wrong that i could actually hate someone..yong said i'm too dumb and stupid to hurt and hate someone..i will prove you WRONG!!!!i don't wanna be a good hearted girl dy..please turn me into a demon or watsoever..should i worship satan instead?haha^^

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

11112008--------------->happy bday dessan

today's dessan's birthday..haha^^ya..i knew him for around 8 years dy..haha..
we were primary school mates and he sat beside me during the standard 6 year..haha^^
hmm...he's a nice guy tho...got hurt by quite a number of girls dy i think..have no idea..
anyway..may he have a happy 18th birthday...
aite..back to my day...is kinda fucked up...
why?
because i didn't study..i didn't prepare..simply motivationless to write my essays..
ouh...but i didn't really game..serious i didn't game much..
anyway..law..haha..my mind having great war..
my law studies are trying to conquer my mind..
haven't sleep and i have no idea how come i could stay up till late night..
been having suppers suppers and more suppers every night..
simply didn't gain any weight..*sigh

Sunday, November 09, 2008

08112008--------------->where's my sun?

i don't think i'm stable lately..haha..i think i'm emo~i have no idea how'd i felt..
anyway..that doesn't really matters...
slept at 6.40am and woke up at 5pm..haha~again...i'm really a big baby..
anyway...went online...then mummy came back and asked if i'm gonna follow them to the hospital..
hmm..the last time i visited granny was like few weeks back..so i decided to go..
since i've got nothing better to do staying at home..
my dear granny...she changed a lot!she really did changed a lot!
the moment i saw her..is NO MORE MY BELOVED GRANNY..
i miss her so much..although she can recognised me..but because of alzhemeir's..i think she lost part of her memory dy..she's like a kid now..
i couldn't talk to her..i can only feel the pain..then suddenly i realised the tears were tryin to roll down..
so i walked out from the ward..and first time ever i no longer fear the height of the bloody hospital..
i could actually lean against the window and look outside..first time my legs didn't tremble and my palms weren't sweaty..
after that i went back to the ward and joined them....i told myself i can't cry...
my granny made me thought of ashley anne's granny..her granny had alzheimer's as well..
and i remembered..that time i was so small..i was only 10..and i duno anything bout alzheimeirs..
so i fooled her granny..not really fooled..but we played around with her granny..
i felt so bad suddenly...anyway her granny passed away few years ago..hmm...
then..went for dinner..had nasi lemak at jalan antarabangsa..
not bad..haha~then headed home..
aite..nothing much..but thinking of granny made me emo..aww~i miss my granny so much!
i miss her cooking..sigh*

Friday, November 07, 2008

07112008---------------->hrmm..

hmm..my day..is only filled v games and sleep~ya..i din study again...
hmm..slept at 6 something this morning and woke up at 6pm..why?
cox daddy called back outta sudden..haix...he disturbed my dream..
at 5pm..i woke up suddenly v a shock..haha..i stared at the clock and i was like..
ouh it's 5pm and no one disturbed me!haha..then i fell back to sleep..
anyway...jack's back from his hostel..he's having his year end holidays now..
good for him tho..haha...hmm..boring day~
urgh..nothing much bout today..
no coke meaning no life..no motivation..ish!
i'll go get some and keep it for myself 2mrw..
i really need to study..law's up next..and i haven't even touch them..
ishish~~

06112008------------me sad..

sigh..studied econx for the whole farking night and i simply can't finish the 123pages..sad..i didn't even do any of the past year questions because i did them months ago..and due to my laziness..i didn't prepare well for the stupid econx..
aite..so..by 7.30 i still left around 4 chapters unread..lolx..i told myself..nvm...is fated you can't sit for the exam well..so what i brought to college was the notes i had with me..i didn't even bring the text books and my whole seminar pack,past year questions..
i brought my trial papers..and after a morning shower i walked to the train station...fucked i forgotten that i would be late cox this morning it rains heavily...sigh..sigh..by the time i reached the bloody train station...i stared blankly at it~it was so crowded..
when the train arrived..hoho~i thought i couldn't board..cox it was fucking crowded and thanks to one of the passenger he made some space and let me in...or else i would be late for my exam...
then...then..then..reached college dy..everyone's studying..a ha~i made the right choice...for not bringing my books..wat for bringing the books when u don't even have the time to study?wat i did was..i clarified those parts that i couldn't understand and walked into the exam hall..
heaven's sake..the stupid classroom was so so so cold!ish ish~brain froze..anyway...i managed to finish all 30 multiple choice questions in time and hmm...watever is done is done..i don't have the mood to think of it...
paper 2 up in next half an hour and i realised that i didn't even memorized any of the definitions..thank to my cleverness..i couldn't even remember a simply definition of inflation..anyway..those questions were outta my expectation...thank god!really thank god!
because watever i read was cost-benefit analysis...holy!i was so shocked when i saw that question..balance of payments,international trade none of them were in my mind..hoho~anyway..i managed to crap through all the questions within the time frame..
after that went for lunch and i reached home at 4pm..yes..whole night no sleep and i went online again...played a game..i went for a nap..had flower crab for dinner..
for god's sake..i think i had slight fever..neway,don't care but carry on v games and more games..
and because of my stupidity,i didn't get back my book from him..why would i do such crazy thing when i knew that he would avoid me?so..i still feel sad after a month..fuck man!seriously fucked up this time..
sigh..sigh..so i'm emo tonight..i think..due to the lack of sleep and because i screwed my exam...and BECAUSE I STILL HAD THE FUCKING URGE TO KNOW THE STUPID ANSWER!why would you ditch me before EXAMS?!damn u~damn you!seriously damn you!why would the fucking 10 days made so much differences?

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

05112008------------->fucking emo~

2mrw would be my stupid econx exam..heaven's sake..i'm not studying..simply couldn't study...every line i read seems so familiar to me..but god damn it..i tend to know everything but when i wanna explain to myself i seems to don't know everything..
fucking tense..i'm so bloody emo now..i know tears are gonna roll down my cheek soon..
ish ish~i hate having this kinda feeling..i hate the phobias of exam..fuck you!ish ish ish!!!!!!!
tonight i don't have coke to lemme stay awake..i need more and more coke..simply more of them...
yes..i got addicted to coke..and i need them to stay awake...
huh...no game..no coke..no study...wat do i want?i have no idea..
my mind's blank..and i'm emo..and i'm pist of myself..and my body's aching..
and i feel fucking sick~
sad..sad.............................................................

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

04112008------------->my econx paper up next..

today..another tough day huh?i was happily sleeping and my mum came into my room just to scream at me!only if i weren't her daughter i would asked her to shut up!
one thing i hate most is someone disturbed my sleep..that feeling sux!and one thing they love most is they'll just walk into the room and bloody wake you up~
last time would be daddy start playing loud music out of no where..and mum started to shout and brothers then would be either jack or roc coming into the room and bang my bloody room door..
now?jack's in hostel..i wonder if one day they leave me in peace they would die of boredom..
aite..so economics up next..and wat the fuck had i done the whole day?
i was sitting there..chatting and gaming..simply got no mood to study~..ish!
no maid so wat?i'm not being calculative when ur the one!fuck you~u can do the ironing urself and leave the rest alone..when they need the clothes they'll just do it..don't screw me simply because i din do the chores!
aite..so daddy called and err..i cooked the rice and he came back and cooked fried rice..
was kinda happy playing dota v the skype on v the rest of them..then suddenly i heard voices coming from downstairs..
so mum came back!i knew something is wrong...i can sense it!
simply forgotten to throw away a plastic bag u can just leave it there!bloody fucking don't screw me!when i don't make a noise doesn't meant that i could take it..and i'm serious~
hmm..so had a stupid dinner..finished the food and i'm back in jack's room..
then played..and it was like WAT THE FUCK THE GAME LAG SHIT..
so i got disconnected and no more game for me..good tho..
i was sitting here doing nuts..simply can't read anything..econx is a piece of shit..
urgh...my mood is swinging and swinging..can someone help me stop it?shit!

03112008---------------->miserable life..

urgh..let's see wat to talk about today..stupid roc woke me up in the middle of my sleep..could u like please fuck off for a day and just leave me alone in peacefulness?
i'm always like this..when i had problems and i don't share them..sigh..so wat?i share and i get nothing..wat i get in return is just some relief..
nevermind..i called chang today..haha~talking to him would be forever that nice..hmm..he's looking for part time job..yes..and i should look for mine as well..
after that no game no game...no game..
for the sake of my mum..i did the chores..i swept the floors and moped them..and i even bathed fatty brown..
i wonder if you guys could just leave me alone for a sec..i will do those chores when i'm in the mood of doing..don't nag me if you don't wanna have a great fight..
after everything..done~bathed!online again..online online online..
was waiting for game..busy gathering people..
and..daddy called back..asked me wat would i like for dinner..
nevermind of that..we made a choice to go SS2 for dinner...
till spect knew that i'll be going SS2 he asked me not to go due to the bloody traffic..
aite..waited for mum to get home..and we headed to desa park city..rakuzen..
wasn't a nice dinner afterall..because..i'm not in the mood of eating..
i ordered sashimi..and erm..not bad tho~
my mood is kinda shaky lately..urgh..and this kinda feeling is pissing me off!
ouh~then i got home after dinner..and they just started the game..
then..then then..nothing i was doing nothing but chores again..eww..
but i had 2 games after that..not bad..hmm..improved a lot compared to my first 2 weeks..
i had been playing for 24/7 lately..if there's no improvement..i'm stupid or simply dumb then..
yes..you brought me into the game so wat?one fine day i'll definitely have the ability of pawning you..please be prepared..i'll just walk to the cyber cafe v chang and pawn you..
i'm mean i'm evil..i simply couldn't get you off my mind!eww and that's painful..that's disgusting!
i couldn't hate you..wat i could do is only nuts..
i'm like a fucked up bitch right now..with my own fucked up life..

Monday, November 03, 2008

周杰伦 - 给我一首歌的时间


曲:

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雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫 分开了叫
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后 果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫 分开了叫
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候 说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有那一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让他留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候说了爱你
要怎么证明我没力气
告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我说我不该 不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气

02112008------------>i'm having a screwed life~

well..basically i'm jux wasting all my time playing dota lately~
i wonder what the fuck is wrong with me myself right now!
i don't game much...the only game i went crazy was need for speed..and now..i craved for dota..
life is so bloody screwed!i sat for my stats paper last friday...
outta my expectation it was kinda easy...aite..hopefully it's as easy as wat is seen...
i realised that whenever i don't wanna face the reality i would bury myself in games and books..
since young it has been like this..should i change it or i'll just keep it on?
anyway...some idiots played fire on me today..
don't guys out there..don't try to screw someone before that fella screw you..
although ur on the web doesn't meant that u could play with one's limits..
so at the end of the day i got so pist off~and i started to scold them..
yes..and i think that would be years after my last time screwing someone like that..
i don't usually said that much of vulgar words..not when i'm really really mad..
but if i were to scold my brothers when i'm really really angry..
i don't scold..i'll just tell them loads of stuffs and they'll end up crying..
i did that once to my bro~and that was scary...because not even a fuck came out from me..
i'm always tolerating with people because chang told me i should do so..
he said it would be nice if we treat others good eventhough they don't treat us good..
but those asses were really too much..
and i'm always very lucky...because there're always people to back me up~
and now i wonder wat is wrong with the guys there..
sexism?girls can't play dota because guys don't play with dolls..
and i'm telling wat the fuck when some of my guy friends play dolls?
spect was right..i shouldn't fight with them when i don't even know them..
i got really really pist when they traced my profile...
and thank god none of my friends as in i don't really go tell everyone i has a blog here..
so luckily they see nothing...hmm..anyway i got really really pist~at that very moment..
i couldn't imagine wat i would do when i got really really mad against a stranger...
maybe i would give him 2 tight slaps and a great big punch..
anyway...i had great time playing v mun,spect and drugs and all..
econx exam is drawing nearer..simply couldn't get my head outta this laptop..
i wish i would be able to move my fingers towards the book instead of the keyboard..
hehe^^haix..haix~~
my life is so miserable...get me a pail of water and pour them on me..
i should wake up from my dream!ouh~~