30052009------------->dun read this post unless u wanna feel the emoness

ya..i'm emo..so..don't read..unless u really wanna feel wat i'm feeling...^^ think twice peeps!

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not trying to offend u babe..but..u really hurt me this time..i know you tried really hard to be a good boyfriend..but..money is not everything..is the heart that counts

yah..i'm over-reacting over stuffs..that u think it's not important at all..well that's for you..is different!i cares for wat i care..u cares bout your friend..do you even care bout my safety?

i never stopped you..because i know if you wanna stay you'll stay..but could you just make that effort to ask me "where are you?" could you just worried bout me for just that few minutes?

i seriously have no idea..if i'm a horrible girl and a nightmare to you..please call for a stop..before anything worst happen..i know this is hurtful..but..i don't know wat to do already!

if you think that i'm a bugger..that i bug you for everything and every single moment...that's me!it's gonna be wrong if i don't bug..

if you really want me to keep everything to myself..just lemme know..i'll never tell you anything in my life..i'll just shut up....and you won't like it

i know my english aint that proficient..but this is the message i'm trying to deliver..

i don't love myself?i love myself..but i place you and my family first..that's why..(jasmine i'm not stupid)

sometimes i duno why am i so crazy..yah~being called stupid by a friend..because i went and visit my boyfriend...to them is not worth it from the way i'm being treated..

tell me wat you love me for..because i don't know..tell me wat's my position in your life..i'm feeling very insecure right here..tell me...everything that i want to know..

you don't bother to tell...because you don't understand me..you'll never ever get to know me..not because i kept everything away from you...just because i have no idea how to deliver it..

if you open ur mouth to ask..i'll try my best to tell..is nothing about privacy..is the concern that counts..

ask everyone around me..ask them!how much freedom i gave you in my life..not that i don't bother..but i think you deserve the freedom..

very unlucky today..waited for an hour bus...went into the basketball court to look for you but you weren't there..and when i came out the bus just left..took the fucking cab that the taxi driver actually conned my money for using the other longer route..and..in the train when i got down from it..one smelly chewing gum was sticking on my calf..

emo?thank you..that's because my heart is crying =( low kent..i love you..do you know that?

29052009---------------->numbness

1 down...5 to go ^^

FINALLY 6 > 5..

YIPPIE..

p/s: i felt..weird suddenly..when i saw the numbers getting lesser..kinda funney..

          gona get to see my darling tomorrow missy missy him ^^

28052009-------------->lucky?yes?no?iono

1 DOWN...6 TO GO~!

see....see.....the numbers be the SAME TODAY!!! 

5< x <7> :. x=6!! yippie!!!! is 6@6 day today ^^

muahahahahahahahahaha ^^

I AM SO EFFING HAPPY YOU DON'T KNOW...

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

p/s: fucking bad luck today..i'll pretend that it didn't happened at all..

so i shall remain happy ^^ weeeeee mah contract GONE!!! 

27052009--------------->lucky

1 DOWN 7 TO GO!!!!

woooohoooooooooooooooooo

do sense happiness in me..please please ^^

smaller numbers are getting greater...greater numbers are getting smaller..

good sign =P

yes yes yes!!YIPPIE!!!!!!!

*fireworks*

25052009--------------->one fucking great day =(

1 DOWN 8 TO GO!!!!!!!!

RAWR!!!!!

It seems like the exam days be ENDLESS!WTF !!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrr

can't sleep can't do shit..stressed up like an idiot ToT

why is 4 < 8??? WHY?

i've got something to say bout AI season 8

RAWR!american idol season 8 has finally come to an end..with A REALLY REALLY UNEXPECTED RESULT!god damn it!ya..ima curse the daylight outta everyone..the outcome was SO UNFAIR!!!!!hell no adam lambert LOST because he's a GAY!seriously...americans..i'm so dissapointed in you guys..i thought...it would be a brand new season..brighten up my eyes or watsoever...but HELL NO!you guys are dumb...RAWR!!!

i thought this kinda tv show is another way for the hollywood to get some talented from the outside world..but..sigh seriously sad.. one great singer just lost his the title of being the next american idol!!!can't wait for his first album...IMA GET IT!!!ADAM LAMBERT...u rock!! ^^

had a nightmare

something that made me had the urge to actually blog it...
grrrrrrrr...
had a nightmare....or maybe i shud name it nap mare or maybe morning mare...
due to my ungratefulness...i hasn't been turning up to my grandma for a week time..
please forgive me..
i have no idea why i suddenly kept having one creepy dream thru out the 1 hour of sleep...
went to bed 4am in the morning and i only managed to sleep at 4.30..every 15mins interval i would woke up in fright or shocked...
i guess i worried too much..or maybe not..
nightmares jux haunted me down~ sigh*
and i cudn't believe that it's actually a story that made sense...
grandma became as healthy as before...holy ^^ how i wish seriously...
she came into my room and shoosh me off my bed...o.o well..i felt creepy and i actualy told my aunt in the dream and she told me that i'm dreaming.. grr confusing!
then...i became late...i woke up late and i was late to send roc off to school..
but it somehow ended with me and aunty at one of the buddhist temple..the name of the temple sounded more like a quil than a temple... smth started with J..
after some creepy talk..exact story can't really rmber..urgh..forgive me...rawr!
then we left..after that i have no ideaa who sent roc to school and i think it was mum..i jux ended up at another place..this time in my own car..
with 2 indian fellas...i guessed i got rob or smth..and i remembered seeing another 2 drivers drove in drunken mode jux right in front of my car...
they drove back into that quil temple or temple quil..dun bother much..so after that i told that 2 indians who were in my car to get down..
i forgotten wat they told me already...and that the one at the drivers' seat told me that the guy who sat next to him could actually speak cantonese..and he's a siamese.. is creepy..
soon after i took over my car..i ended myself up with aunty agnes and one of her friend...at one petshop..omg omg!
it was unti l my phone alarm rang..then i woke up and got off my bed...i turned on the lights and that's the end..gosh~creepy like hell =s


p.s: grandma's condition getting worst..i'm sorry grandma for being so ungrateful...seek no forgiveness this time T_T

18052009------------------>happy bday MUN!!!

1 down......9 more to go!!!!

yippie!! is already 3 down~ left only 9 more!!!

still 3 < 9....

great hope eh~


p/s: happy birthday mun!!ur finally 19 today....weeeeeeeeeeee ^^

1,2,3,4------------------->Plain White T's

would like to dedicate this song to my beloved bf..kent!muackxx
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1 2, 1 2 3 4
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do(I love you)
I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you(I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do(I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you(I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do(I love you)
I love you.
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love is in the air ^^

16052009---------------------->5th month dy?

wakakakaka...i love you kenny low kent!
seriously cudn't believe that..we've been together for 5 months dy!!!
i actually find it hard to believe...
well anyway...thanks for being there for the past 151 days..3624 hours...217440 minutes..13046400 secs with me^^
i appreciated it soooooo much so much...
muackxx^^love you~

15052009-------------------> H1N1 detected..

another 1 down 10 MORE TO GO!!!!!

which make it 2 downs for the moment... 2<12 sobsob T_T

hohohohohohohoho....

not gonna write much bout my day..i'll keep it for the last ^^

ATTN: saw jackson's PM..omfg..H1N1 DETECTED...beware peeps!

13052009-------------------> my funeral starts here!

counting down =D

1 down...11 MORE TO GO!!!!

u can do it...weeeeeeeeeee ^^

12052009--------------->pray hard for meh!

tomorrow..a day which i've been waited for so long yet i hope it's not tomorrow right now! i wanted to end my exam as soon as possible...but hell!i'm unprepared..argh..such useless girl~ *sigh 

i have no idea why the days have been passing soooooooo fast!as in really fast..i joined the college at may 2nd last year..well~sooooo soon..too soon to believe that..is already a year!my relationship with kent..weeee almost 5 months dy ^^ he got it right..he's so gonna be my longest boyfriend! muackxx love you~

be lazy to blog..be lazy to think..be lazy to construct..i have no mood to study..have no mood to practice right now..that's why..i ended up here..the feeling of failure is flowing in my blood..my brain...

just one paper..HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO FAIL TO ANSWER 4 QUESTIONS IN A ROW?conclusion = FAIL..aint it?

bah..time to go back to my studies..been slacking around for 2 hours..shud be more than enough for me~

had starbucks for breakfast, mc D for lunchie...now..DOMINOS for dinner..it be too fake if i hadn't put on any weight..i'm so bloody fat right now..urgh~is a little too much for me..sad..ima start my jogging again right after my exam!god damn it~been eating too much dy..sigh

05052009----------------->pissed off like fuck!

why such title?why?i had my great morning...why u guys are always the spoiler?if the shop couldn't work anymore..jux fucking close it~you knew that i be having exams soon...and you still insisted me to be therE!i seriously have no idea wat is wrong with your brains..

from day 1 the shop shouldn't exist in my life..from day 1 you shouldn't had run the stupid shop!you knew it soooooo well that it won't work..ya finally today you realized how dumb are you to listen to your stupid brother!he can work it out doesn't meant that you could do the same..and now you guys are telling me that you're going to kelantan..ok!have fun staying there..i will stay here ALONE!i don't mind...

seriously pissed off like crazy the moment you called..you're just my daddy...just because you're my daddy doesn't meant that i have to listen to your every single nonsense...i have my own way..please!well..at least i still went there..don't make noise..fucken took the wrong turning over and over again!URGH!!! =(

went to the tit dah master..and got my shoulder and wrist bandanged..sigh i'm simply problematic..next wednesday be the first paper!please kill me =)

01052009--------------->labours' day

well..i'm not a labour~so..obviously i don't celebrate labours' day^^hehe...but because everyone in the college works..and i have no idea if the college is open..so is my dating day =) great!

finally i could sleep last night..had 9 hours of awesome sleep...then..after 1.30hours of dragging..i finally left my house at 1130am..pro betul~

was in great mood at first..then~credits to my bitchy mama..she's such a mood spoiler!called me jux to ask me where the hp charger is and...asked me to clean up my room..

ok..not like your room is very tidy..so jux stay off!not like the house is like no dust at all..not like you give a damn bout the rest of the mess your son contributed to..so jux leave me alone thanks!

hoho~i ignored everything and drove all the way to midvalley..dropped ying..then went to kent's!well..my bf..i couldn't get a better word to describe the both of us..we simply enjoy dragging our time ^^

off we go..after another 1.30hours i think~yippie!mid valley was PACKED LIKE HELL!seriously..omfg..parked and went italiannes for lunchie..pizza for the day..

next..movie~ok..sorta had the feel to get rid of my crazy horror movie phobia..so i said i wanna watch "coming soon" =D queued..oh gosh!how many times were we supposed to be asked about the age while purchasing tickets?DO WE LOOK LIKE KIDDOES? *grrrr*

oh gosh..the movie was so terrible!no more no more for me..no more horror movie for me..is a waste of money and time..and i be stupid to go there and scare myself..my goodness.. =( why am i so "brave"?sigh..i thought the show ENDED because some malays said "dah tamat"..wth!i looked up and that freaking scene suddenly poped out one bloody face ={

then..went for.......the monsters vs dinosaurs exhibition...WE WERE CONNED!!!!paid 12 bucks for nothing...WTF!nvm..we had fun posing snapping photos..haha =D

met up with justin and the rest of them..i duno who were they..then then..i went home first..that bitch called again..i have no choice..

darling continued his day with his friends =D well well..i had a great day..so weeeeeeeee




p/s: expenses all on my world-best bf!muackx!
the other rest of my time after i went home wasn't nice..not gonna blog it =)