tagged by pik yee =)

1. What have you been doing recently?
rotting at home after i'd resigned =) preparing for the stage play tho..as an assisstant stage manager =D


2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
nope..nope =P dun think so..


3. What happened at 10am today?
happily sleeping...=D


4. When did you last cry?
last week =S


5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?
yes... =(

6. What do you want in life now?
all the happiness that i'll have for the rest of my life =) sadness shooshoo..


7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
NO..and never..is a hassle carrying it =(


8. What's your favorite thing to do in bed?
uh huh...to read?to sleep?o.o


9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
red botshorts =)


10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

tonnes and tonnes of forwarded e-mails


11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no and never =)


12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
no


13. What was the last movie you caught?
unfortunately..it was the movie that turned me down =( harry potter =S


14. What are you proud of?
me...


15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
one random fella..about the differences of mistresses and wives =)


16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
uh huh...can't remember =(


17. Do you have any nicknames?

weeeeeeeeee...yes =D


18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
haiyo....my darling...is written there nope =D


19. What time did you sleep last night?
awesomeness


20. Are you currently happy?
hmm...yah!no?yah!no?yah lar....weeeeeeeeee


21. Who gives you the best advice?

the one and only one...weeee i know and it shall always be in my heart =D


22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no..tarak..too oily =S


23. Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
none gua...


24. Is something bugging you right now?
YES...normal issues =(


25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
ah huh...flends =) my daddy lor..haha...his faked death


26. Do you like yourself?
YES =)


27. You want $5 or $10?

for wat?from who?


28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?

everytime =S haiy...


29. What will you do if you like that girl/boy?
be myself =D


30. Who are your favourite stars?
lol...lots of them..my jay..my lp..my darling..my family..my friends =)


31. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
not really hate..just pissed off =D


32. Do you had even stead before?
o.O apani?


33. What type of girl/boy do you like?
great question =D one guy that will be by my side..and listen to my sadness..my problems..a guy with heart =(


34. Now are you single/attached?
dah taken lar...my darling =) and i love him...


35. Tag 10 friends

1) agnes teh

2) jasmine

3) shaun

4) fatty tom

5) jaywhy

6) JJ

7) Daryl

8) Justin

9) E Jinn

10) Esther

you're so near and yet so far..

in reality..you're miles and miles away from me..

in my dreams..you're just so close..

to the extend that i could easily reach out for you...

the one who had the ability to pull me out from my fantasies and left me behind..

the one that told me how cruel the reality would be..

you forgotten your promises and you kept NONE!

you left them in my heart swarming through my dreams...

you made no effort in fulfilling them...

and yet..i still had that lil' hope...hoping that those promises would come true...

i wonder how you felt right now...

and i wonder how are you...

i'm always wondering and haven't been told any of those feelings besides i love you..

lets make it a role play and you shall try looking from my view..

maybe you would see no differences at all and maybe you would sense the same..

life is just unpredictable and yet i tried so hard to predict it..

why predict it?when you can just sit there and wait...

i'm tired of all these...i just need a break...

please forgive me...lotsa lies have been told..

sometimes i just don't want to burden you..i'm sorry darling =(

15072009------------>one LONG update..

not bad..not bad...last update was on the 30th of june =D i would just update this post in chinese...i realized that i haven't been using my mother tongue for such long time that i almost abandoned it..all the grammar mistakes.. =(

七月，一个我不知道是好还不坏的月份。。真的不知道。。很多的不开心和很多的开心都发生了。。
开心的就是我做工作到这个月底就不用再作了。。哈哈！再也看不到那个肥婆咯。。真开心！^^
我的学弟去世了。。哈哈！觉得我在开玩笑吗？我也很希望我是在开玩笑的。。我真的很想！很希望我自己是在过着愚人节。。。
星期日，逛街逛一半，一通电话过来。。“你记得谁是明泽吗？” “我记得。。mashi的弟弟嘛。。”
之后就是。。 “今天早上他走journey的时候，遇车祸，现在在医院动手术。。” “哦，那他出来在告诉我怎样了。。那个很可爱的小弟弟。。没有错？” “没有。。”
好啦。。。之后就这样没有消息到下午5点，“喂，他怎样了？” “mashi说医生刚弄好他的内脏，现在弄着他的手。。” “oo..那你迟点再打给我拉。。”
就这样，晚上11点，简讯来了。。 “他从手术室出来了，还不能自己呼吸。。”
看到这里，总是会觉得靠着那个呼气管，过了几天就大概会好了，醒来了。。对，我有时候就是会如此的乐观。。。放松了一整天紧绷在心理的感觉。。
我还想说，他以后会如何告诉他的朋友过马路时真的要很小很小心。。然后心理狠狠的诅咒那个撞了他就走的笨蛋司机！
第二天，也就是星期一，看到那个肥婆已经很不爽了，竟然还要被她间接侮辱我。。妈的！如果他不是我的supervisor，你看我鸟不鸟他？！一看手机，就是两个未接电话，一封简讯。。“明泽去世了”。。这个是在我最不爽的时候收到的消息。。看着那封简讯，我真的楞着了。。我不知道我可以做什么。。电话响了，我接。。另外一头是一个女孩的哭声。。很伤心，我找不到适当的词句来形容我的心情。。
真的很难以置信，我什么都做不到。。没有一个人做得到东西。。如果他走了，他就不用受苦的话，那他走吧。。明泽，安息！一个在每个人都duty着会来慰问你的小男孩，就是他了。。总是挂着开心的笑容来问候你的一天。。
报章竟然没有登这则新闻？果然是马来西亚。。这个国家养活了一个不负责任的司机却失去了一条宝贵的生命。。但愿那个司机不会有好日子过。。撞了就逃，不为自己的过错负起责任的，根本不是大丈夫的行为。。

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there you go the little junior..may you rest in peace..we miss you...