my year 2008...^^

year 2008...a year which filled with happiness and sadness and surprises...hohoho^^never let myself sleep and rest for a long long time..never like to have a boring life..i'm always busy^^that's life..live them up till you're too tired to continue...hehe...my life is always...colourful although there are time which is miserable..

well..this year..i left the whole science 3 and went to college instead..really couldn't coop with the mandarin subjects sorry...then...there's this problem with college...i've got really great and fantastic lecturers..sad part be the management suckx!credits to dr.kharl..ya is DR. he got his PHD in finance...then my best best best sociology lecturer..MR.SHANKAR...then there's this cool law lecturer..MR.BALA~although it was just 30 days...maybe lesser..the chances you guys gave me were way too much..especially mr.bala...you've trusted me and let me joined the moot competition...thanks!^^ i chose to be the sub because i've known myself too well..afterall..is still thank you...

after that one month..i went to atc...ya..atc this college has always been my last resort..i never like the place where the college situated..i still remembered last time after tuition at chan she...and whenever i passed by the college i would tell myself that i won't go to that college..god knows i ended myself upthere?ish~so well...i've got one nice lecturer here...mr.siva..anyway..days in atc were cool..nice and fantastic i guess..haha^^i've got my own buddy..jasmine..and a few close friends..ya..rumors again..about me and jy..haha..

then there's this passerby in my life..omg..he's a friend of jas...well..never knew that he be such coward!mofo?ya..i guess he be one of them then..lucky me for not loving you..ya..never love that guy..simply plain liking..but it shud be months ago..i shall not forget wat you've done to in my life..it be the best lesson i've ever learnt...thank you so much!never learn how to hate someone because i duno how to..unfortunately...it seems that you somehow pricks the hatred in my heart that i now hate you so much till i don't know why..

credits to you that all because of you i asked tom for a dota game and i got to know the whole dota gang..and my current bf be one of them^^so...i've got my best present for christmas i guess...went to genting with my dearest...sat for my a-lvls exam...results be out by next year january...not really ready to face the result i guess...have no idea how my result is gonna be..made up my mind that i chose mechanics instead of statistics..yes..never like stats..all the graphs been killing me for the past few years...

well?guess it be going to the uk as my next target!I SHALL DO MY BEST FOR IT THEN...so do you my dear..my year 2008 turned out to be quite exciting afterall..haha...at least i got my finisher medal for my adidas king of the road half marathon..shall get more next year..hehe^^went to jay's concert..hahahaha...had my 18th birthday party..couldn't ask for more right?i've got my best year~although my result sucks..yes..my spm sucks!so?never care much..all i have to do is to get good grades for my A-lvls..here i come my beloved A2..wait for me!

p/s:happy new year guys!

29122008-------------->i'm so not fine lately

yes..i'm not fine!i'm so freaking unfine!!!!!!!i have no idea what's wrong with my bloody brain..it's not functioning well i guess..the more i cares the more i worries about..so i shall not care so much and lessen the worries...why would i give a damn when i don't even have any idea what were you thinking about?
it's my fault all my fault fine?my fault for being such a good friend that i lent you that book and now you fucking lost my book!never even bother to ask me how?simply give me a sentence sorry i couldn't find that book that's all!HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO MY HOMEWORKS THEN?ya..you've scored good grades for your uec and what about my A-lvls?please don't freaking ignore me...
since when i couldn't write my feelings here anymore?i didn't realized this..i cares too much about people..well then someone please teach me to not to care SO MUCH..jas's right..i have no responsibility on everything..why would i care so much?
ya..i have moodswings...and you can choose to leave me alone then..I AM SO FUCKING NOT FINE!who the hell on earth would be ready for me to scream at besides chang?i need some fresh air..let me out of the stupid house!ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH

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24122008/25122008--------->christmas

christmas..christmas!What a nice festival to celebrate with your love ones..

well..i've celebrated mine with my darling..yes..that guy in the picture!hehe^^

everything went well on that day..went there with jasmine and sk and some of sk's friends..

ok..which i don't find most of them to be friendly..

anyway...lets talked bout the trip...

FINALLY..I GOT TO TASTE THE YUMMY NASI LEMAK IN TD....

well..it was nice..haha^^

then...we went to puduraya to buy bus tickets...but....the tickets were sold out..

earliest was 3pm..that time when i asked was..err..11smth?

then there were taxi drivers who charged us RM20 per person that sent us straight up to genting

well..we took that instead and i slept in the taxi..happily..

it took us around 1 hour to reach genting..hoho^^

saved up lotsa time to queue up for the cable car...

played pool..fui kor be pro at it..my darling also pro larh k~

then?nothing much simply walked around....and they went for food...

before that we had wedges^^haha...cheesy wedges are YUMMY..

took a few captions outside first world hotel and we went back in...

fui kor and his friend had dinner at kenny rogers..

worst ice cream i ever had...omg!

wanted to go outdoor and play after the dinner..

sigh...they closed it at 7pm...WHAT THE FUCK?!seriously..what the fuck!

so...walked around again and again....bored like hell..

wasted all those time waiting for fui kor's friend ended doing shits!

went to starbucks and had a cup of hot chocolate...

didn't even played at the arcade..well...none of them would wanna play there..

it be so funless to play alone..i know kent would play with me...argh

next time we go our own..and walk on our own...

waited and waited...then went to resort hotel...sat there and stoned...

well...there's this crazy guy..called justin...ya..a friend of shaun and justin~

err..nothing much to say about this justin guy..no comments..

then...all of them went out...and we stoned again?till12am..it was christmas..

merry christmas...my kr bro sent me a christmas message all the way from china..

thanks a lot!!sorry larh...my phone ran outta credit that's why i didn't reply you..

after that went for movie....BEDTIME STORIES...

ouh~nice movie!adam sandler rocks

ok...after that movie..was supposed to yumcha with fuikor and jasmine..

but..our friend there..fell asleep...and couldn't wake up..wat to do?

so i walked around with my darling lor..it was raining outside..

can't even go out...sigh T_T

went to coffee bean instead and sat there for the rest of the night..

hot chocolate in coffee bean suckx...i don't really like it..

had breakfast in mcd...then walked around again..

yes..went all the way to genting without rooms be suxxors.

never do that again!called jas in the morning..all of them were still sleeping..

so we went home first..

took cable car...omg!!!!i felt so sick in that crazy thing..

sigh...waited for one an a half hour simply for a bus back to kl..

that was torture..darling arh darling..please drive the next time^^

went back to his house and slept...finally i get to sleep...

well..the rest of the day be normal..nothing much to update..

i be lazy for that..haha^^

p/s:i had my best christmas present for the year...hohoho^^

Bohemian Rhapsody------------------Queens

Is this the real life
Is this just fantasy
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
Im just a poor boy,i need no sympathy
Because Im easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesnt really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now hes dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now Ive gone and thrown it all away
Mama ooo,
Didnt mean to make you cry
If Im not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine
Bodys aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama ooo (any way the wind blows)
I dont want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning very very frightening me
Galileo (galileo)
Galileo (galileo)
Galileo figaro (magnifico)
But Im just a poor boy and nobody loves me
Hes just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come easy go ,will you let me go
Bismillah! no ,we will not let you go let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go let me go
Will not let you go let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh baby-cant do this to me baby
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....

23122008------------------->is it me or what?

i seriously have no idea wat's bothering my mind right now..i don't know wat's so wrong..
maybe is my fault..maybe is just me!seriously i'm afraid getting ditched for the second time..
ok so it's phobia..i thought i could simply overcome it!but i couldn't!!!I CAN'T!
yes i love you but the phobia..so?it takes time isn't it?
every now and then when i'm alone i would remember the days i got ditched..
the pain the memories..how i wish there's this soup that would wash away all memories..
sorry kent i am seriously sorry....
yes u made me fell in love..u made me said that 3 words...u made me miss you like crazy..
but u didn't remove the phobia..
i could finally hate him from the bottom of my heart...credits to the letter he wrote..
BUT THE CRAZY PHOBIA MY DEAR..THE PHOBIA!
ever wonder why i would want a fight?
i never had a great fight before..a fight would get the hearts closer..
after that fight think properly..maybe u would know each other more..
we had one yesterday right?wasn't that good..at least i know you hate last minute stuffs..
is just a week..there's so many weeks more to go..
seriously..could the GOD gimme more confidence?at least for the last time?
at least i think it be worthy for me to give out more......
sigh ...........
how long would the happiness last?how long till sadness starts?
keep the fingers across...

*today...laren told me something bout mistletoe..haha..everyone know wat's a mistletoe and i don't..so u shud kiss ur lover under the mistletoe tree..but...would the tale be true?

16122008--------------------->anonymous

err..nothing much to update recently besides me having a boyfriend..
haha..yeah that be my christmas present?haha~
who's that guy?lolx..he be NICE~
cox he's ANONYMOUS...haha..hahahahahahhaa....
bah..i duno wat i'm doing here..sigh
anyway..he be my best boyfriend after the previous one..
OBVIOUSLY HE BE WAY WAY WAY BETTER THAN THE REST OF THEM
ok so i wasn't ready at first..i really did gave a thought bout it...and..not bad..
crazy jasmine was like OMG WTF SO FAST!
haha..angel's reaction..lolx~~lolxx...
nevermind..cox i had a shocked as well...because i told jackson i be alone for christmas..
but now there's someone to celebrate with..hoho~~^^
I BE LUCKY then...
hmm..nothing much..went to pav and snapped the christmas trees..ouh it be nice!^^
thanks my darling...thank you so much^^

16122008------------------>i can't sleep...

jux read the blog i shared with laren and all..hmm..i saw something..constructive^^
life shudn't be waiting but to keep it moving on..yea..true..
chang came back from s'pore..he went for the meditation course held in one of the buddhist temple..glad that he told me he gain a lot~at least u didn't waste your time there..
then...my beloved wife called..sigh..her results..was a mess..i'm so sorry i cudn't give much advice and help...no worries i'll be there whenever u need me...
think back..never regretted studying in a chinese school..yea..my chinese sucks..but at least i had some life which other people don't have it..^^
hmm..lulu be going to the states soon i guess..never asked her how's her result..bet is great..she has been trying very hard on it...
and me..having class later..but bloody wide awake now...wat to do?
this week will be my last week having class..and I'LL BE HAVING HOLIDAYS TILL NEW YEAR!yes~~YES!!
sigh...the whole family going to langkawi and i'm staying back...I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY I SUDDENLY BECAME SUCH A GOOD GIRL AND STOP SKIPPING MATHS..
ok fine..i need good grades..but i don't find it if i were to attend HER STUPID MATHS class i will pass my exam with flying colours..
sigh..nevermind..i told daddy i won't go..hence uncle menglek could go with them..ya..u guys be drunktards there then..
nothing much to update..ouh pc fairs..this year's pc fair really had got nothing much to see..
snapped a few pictures of HOT GIRLS with kent's DSLR...hehe^^
sad i dun have the pics..because the kind guy dun wanna send them to me..
going to low yat later..daddy didn't pay me..AND I'M IN TOTAL BROKE STATS..sigh..
anyway..time to bed i guess..sigh..i have to sleep T_T or uncle khor be killing me in class..

10122008----------------->credits to uncle lol

hmm...last day of training..hoho^^ no more going taman desa dy if there's no more matches..
weeee....tomorrow be pingpong match..and i didn't go college today...
sigh..told jy to bring the pingpong bat for me and i didn't go for class...why?
COX I COULDN'T WAKE UP...sigh..although my babysitter called and messaged..and jas simply spammed my phone with messages and i still couldn't wake up..
ok..imagine how tired am i~anyway..i fell back to sleep and woke up an hour later..^^ then i went out dy...
lolx...reached td for a while only..then it started to rain...sigh* so me and kent stayed in the room...till duno wat time..i think it be 3pm..only went out for makan and bball..lolx~
ouh the roti bomb's nice..haha^^ long time didn't makan such nice food le...is so unfair..how come taman desa got nice food and kepong dun have? T_T
yeah then bball practice..the floor be slippery...hard to get the ball in..i also duno why~
my problem..sigh* friday's the match...let it be then..
running on a slope is no fun...i always die there..i hate slopes..is sickening..i need to train on that..
next year's kl tower run must be faster dy..and more marathons..yeepie!
sad case be next year's A2....urgh..can't screw up the papers le..
ouh yea..dropped stats 2 and i took mechanics instead..yes..hopefully i made the right choice...
statistics' suxxors..physics..i could easily score a B in my SPM when i didn't study haha^^
by the way...i got ditched by friends in the basketball tournament..no..shud put it in a way that they suddenly said they're busy and not going..
so..they whole game been cancelled..fantastic right?it be AWESOME..
anyway...jy told me before his team 7 people an 2 guys won't be able to turn up..so i said i be their sub..i really have no idea why i love basketball so much~
has been playing since standard 4...ya..jux i didn't go practice..and i simply play..hehe^^
ouh...today while playing bball...omg!!i saw retarded kids..haha...hahahahahaha...
then i saw retarded teenagers..haha^^ real retards..
they punched each other and fell into the pool..and they carried someone and threw that fella into the pool~hoho^^ retards..
ouh..kent's niece is so cute~~omg...and the nephew as well..lolx...lolx...CUTIES^^
lolx..then went home and i was supposed to sleep..but..tension drove me crazy and i'm here..xien

08122008-------->another 5 days since my last update^^

huh....has been playing bball lately..and i actually played 2 days only...not really 2days..but..at least i did played...missed those days at the court..
but..they renovated it and we no longer play there...kinda sad tho..bloody they took like..half a year to get that thing done...
roy's back today from s'pore..the last time i saw him was....during my bday party..which was months ago...haha
that day..played bball v kent under the rain was nice..after so many years...i din really played in the rain..sigh* simply miss those days so much~
with yong,xiang,roy,chester and all...when we actually sneaked into the cyber and climbed into school for the court..those days..haha^^
yesterday..had a game..teamed v a soloer...never like soloer in life..got affected by yong and all i guess?kor always tell me..bball game is teamwork can't solo de..sure die
anyway...had great time playing bball..sad case din do any runnings..i really wonder how the hell am i suppose to finish my 100m 200m 400m in time...hmm...then...nothing..
i saw someone familiar in the train!without my spects..i thought it was you~
i really wonder when only the image of yours would disappear in my life..never like to have it in my memory forever...is painful...
it wasn't that nice...i took such bloody long time to let go..and i couldn't...right?i'm a failure..i fail!
thursday's pingpong match....i duno how am i gonna play...rumors bout me and junyong has been spreading like disease again lately..and uh huh..i thought they stopped it!
anyway..i don't know how to play pingpong..and sigh shudn't have promised him for the doubles..well..guess i would just try my best then...
grandma has been discharged...hope she's doing well at home..i duno much...guess i shall take care of her like how she had taken care of me when i was still a kid like roc..
she has always been the best grandma and i really duno why she became like this...is all because of a stroke....

02122008------------------->???

let's see...din update for such a long time and i don't know wat to post..haha^^anyway..had great time staying in subang (ching's hse)...baked cakes and gingerbread men..haha^^
played with the icings and creams and all..swam and played basketball...and I HAD NOT ENUF OF SLEEP everyday...pathetic..and do LOTS AND LOTS OF CHORES..
my cheese cake...^^ chocolate cheese...
aite..then we went to a private sector for lunch after swimming..that restaurant's fantastic....serves nice and yummy foods..
my lunch..yummy...
lots of pictures to be post..but due to my laziness..haha..i dun feel like posting them dy...i managed to capture a rainbow when we were going to uncle's shop...although that pic wasn't that clear..still you could see the rainbow..muahaha..
not that clear..but can still see the rainbow..
hmm..then yesterday..which is 0112..went midvalley with mun,kr,drugs,vinzhen and my babysitter...
the outing was fun...watched...QUARANTINE..with them..and bloody that movie..ish!all of them were laughing and i was the only one screaming...with my head hiding behind the popcorn box..
*sigh my popcorn box became my shield...2nd time of watching this kinda movie..please..the third time when i scream dun laugh..
where got such thing as..when i screamed..and hid..someone just turned over and laugh at you..sad de..
anyway..the outing was fun..the food sux...never go back to secret recipe...
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went college today..the new time table sux!why do i need to go college on SATURDAYS?i had had enuf of schooling during saturdays for the past 5 years..why again?damn it!
american gods' a nice book...shall finish it within this week..then i get to get back my money..
bloody broke now..sigh..
i wana skip class this friday...TEMAN ME and i go CC with you~
I PROMISE!^^haha...
played dota..and dota again..was supposed to be sleeping..but then daddy woke me up..
he said i din makan lunch so i mux makan dinner..sigh..then bros making noise..is so noisy!!!!
but happy..daddy bought me 6 cans of coca cola..hehe..my best dad ever...

simply bored...i'm bored

ouh.......life's bored when there's no laughters..................................................................
and wtf....u suddenly crawled into my mind again..........................................................
can someone like keep me company whole freaking night till i go to bed so i won't think of you?
no matter...how sad how happy...when i'm alone the freaking face of urs would pop up~
ur worst than a virus!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!U DUMBASS........SERIOUS SHIT~
WHY CAN'T I HATE YOU?DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!!!
URGH....................................................................................................................................
xien xien xien xien xien
i can't even finish my bowl of maggie now...
all because of YOU..............................................................................................................
stay off please............u've been my nightmare for 2 months..
and i really had enuf of it...................................................................................................

22112008--------------->很久没有打华语了

嗯，真的很久没有用华语来打自己的部落格了。。其实有很想念看到华语字吗？有少少的。。
这几天，应该说这几个星期，我都过得还不错。。只是，我那没有用的头脑，还是会无意中的想起你！
你以为我想的啊？我也不想的~所以麻烦你快点从这个世界上消失。。至少在我的世界消失。。
不要再来侵入我的生活了，很烦！很令人讨厌~至少你是让我喜欢那么多个人里面最后悔的那个！
原来，被一个男生摔比起北三个女生摔得经历是差很远的。。没有关系！被摔得一定会得到属于自己的幸福。。
我不需要你的祝福，更不需要你的关心。。去过你那所谓自私的生活我会觉得好一点！
我不知道你还有没有来看，但是，我希望你看到后悔采取行动！
毕竟，已经两个月了，我已经受够了。。。而且我也觉得是时候了。。所以，我的书还有我的东西都还给我。。
很多东西都无法弥补，也不需要。。因为，它会自己痊愈。。
最近的生活中是日夜颠倒。。过的挺充实的！为什么？因为我都在打机。。。
原来打机睡觉。。真的可以过一天的！呵呵~可惜，这种生活到下个星期就结束了。。
我只有那两个星期的假期！真的很可悲~世界上哪有那么笨的学院的？两个星期够谁用？！
天啊。。而且明年的课程好难。。。特别是数学。。这次真的是高数二了。。我的妈呀~~~~
谁来救我？高数二我真的会死到五颜六色的。。因为我只会三角！我唯一的强项是三角。。
但是却不能靠它吃饭。。然后由点向放弃自己的经济学。。为什么？因为我看不明！
真的很烦！很烦！不放弃又不是，放弃又不是。。噢！怎么我那么烂？
然后然后，自己现在又不想放弃了。。为了我的3个A我不会放弃的！
哼~不管啦。。明年的机大概会少打很多吧。。老爸，你就让我玩多一个月。。
成绩明年一月出，我都不懂自己会哭还是笑。。所以这一个月还是好好玩了它~
如果明年从考的话，我都不懂自己还有没有时间打机。。
认识你们真好！因为有你们我的生活不再闷了。。
钻均明天从台湾回来哦~看那个傻婆买什么给我。。很久没有听到他的声音了。。
是时候要他陪我喝茶了。。明年6月之后，我们就会分开了。。相信要一起逃学都难了吧。。
你去年的大众传播，我会继续我的法律系的。。但是要去哪里年就真的不知道了。。
头好痛，但是却睡不着，而且不想睡！我是怎么了？！！我到底想怎样？
我总是希望明天不要那么快的到来，拿自己就可以多玩一下。。
有哪一个很厉害的人可以让地球就停在那个时空不让它自己自转呢？
只要地球不自转，时间就不会过，也就自然不回公转啦。。不是吗？然后时间就会停留在那个时空~
不可能吧，这个事情不可能会发生的。。
对了，最近长智慧牙，牙肉肿了，好不舒服！然后没有啦。。。
呵呵~老妈子灯下就回来了。。我呆在家里一个星期什么都没有做。。一定被鸟！哇咔咔。。
不管啦，你爱鸟就鸟。。我已经麻了。。很无聊。。每个人都睡觉了。。闷死了拉！

22112008------------>kr's bday^^

basically,there's nothing much to talk bout lately..
is jux game game game and more game..
urgh...daddy jux came back from kota bharu thursday...ouh..he went to lumut again yesterday~
sigh*
bored...bloody they simply spent time more on jobs than with me and jack...
so don't blame me for every day facing the laptop..
you never know how the feeling would be..is been since last time...
anyway...i didn't sleep again..kinda fucked up...
i woke up at 9am yesterday and i didn't sleep again...damn it!
headache but i'm not sleepy at all...hoW?
I'M HUNGRY!!!HUNGRY!!!!!ALL I NEED IS FOOD FOOD FOOD...
roc went to uncle menglek's house yesterday..bet jack would be going out again..
ok..i'm HOME ALONE again..
sigh* is like u simply gimme money to stay alive...and mum called back simply to ask me do chores..won't u get bored?
omg..is such a nightmare..
so~I'M GOING TO CHING'S hse next week...i don't care..i'm going!!!
then i'll go nanny's hse with ying..and yes i have to go...
never go for how long dy?almost 6 years since i last went and stay o.O
so...after ying's spm i'm OFF~
yes..and THE FUCKED UP COLLEGE...classes commencing on the 1st of december...
O.O i only have 2 weeks of holidays..which i think would be assly not enough for me..
so...eventhough i dun like..i'll go langkawi and penang with that..i'm not gonna miss any outings!
I'M DYING OF BOREDOM~is all crap here..
even brownie got bored..wat she did all day was sleeping and walked into my room and sleep again..pathetic dog..
thanks to jack who bought me cans of coca cola^^ ouh i love you~
yes..thanks to roc for staying away from me..u another nightmare..mum's pet..
but can't shout at you i'm bored..damn it!i'm contradicting myself..
oh god..get me outta here!!!!!!!!!
and my beloved neighbour..he's effing mean..don't wanna lend me the shows..
I'M NOT GONNA SEND YOU ANYMORE NICE SONGS!!!
arrgh~~~bored bored bored...
had a game at 6am with drugs and babysitter..haha..3 v 5...
we lost gracefully~with dignity and pride!
anyway..i shall go get some rest..my brain's not functioning well...
shit...and i'm kinda dumb lately...sigh sigh..
i need books,games and coca colas!!!get me those~^^

Madagascar 2 OS---------->I like to MOVE IT!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

All girls all over the world,
Original King Julian pon ya case man!
I love how all girls a move them body,
And when ya move ya body,
Uno move it, nice and sweet and sexy, alright!

Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.
Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.

Woman! physically fit, physically fit,
Physically, physically, physically fit,
Woman! physically fit, physically fit,
Physically, physically, physically fit,

Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic
Woman! ya nice, sweet, energetic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic.
Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic
Woman! ya nice, sweet, fantastic,
Big ship on de ocean that a big titanic.
WOMAN!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
i like to move it, move it,
ya like to move it!

Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.
Woman ya cute, and you don't need no make up,
Original cute body you a mek man mud up.

Eye liner - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Nose powder- pon ya face a mek man mud up
Pluck ya eyebrow - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Gai ya lipstick - pon ya face a mek man mud up
Woman ya nice broad face, and ya nice hip,
Make man flip and bust up the lip
Woman ya nice and energetic,
Big ship pon de ocean that a big titanic
Woman ya nice broad face, and ya nice hip,
Make man flip and them bust them lip
Woman ya nice and energetic,
Big ship pon de ocean that a big titanic.

Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!
Woah! Bop!

I like to move it move it,
He like to move it move it,
She like to move it move it,
You like to MOVE IT!

We like to move it move it,
You like to move it move it.
I like...Oh I did I have done I?
Did I do I like?
I think I did I like...
We?What about we?
They?They?did they...

Oh,I got it..I got it I got a new one,
I got a new one.
Them?No, not them.
Did I say them or not?

Them like to move it mov...
I'm gonna say them...

Them like to move it move it
We like to move it move it
umm..wait there's gotta be another one...
we...we..oh..nope..oh..US!
Can we do us like to?

Us like to move it move it,
That's the one.
Us like to move it move it,
Us like to move it move it,
Us like to....MOVE IT!

Move it..move iitt...move it..
move it!move it!move it!move it!

Ok then..wanna hear..
I just wanna tell you a little story this little story
That my daddy used to tell me he was a king as well
i was born probably about 68 years ago over by that tree over there yeh!

And i rememeber things changed a lot in those days,
In MADAGASCAR it wasn't that commercial,
You know,
There wasn't a fuss bout who's got the latest tree
And what leaves are you wearing,
And who's got the latest fur on their back you know..

Those days it was just me and a couple of the others you know...
Doing the jungle boogie you know..
Jungle boogie..jungle boogie...
woah woah woah woah woah woah woah

Move it!
You really think this is not gonna end?
coz it is 3,2,1
Not bad eh?I like it~
===================================================================
haha..i fell in love with this song..hahahahaha^^

16112008------------->i bored...

lolx..wat a boring day..another day at grandma's house..with cousins...and all
but this time visited another grandma first at the hospital..hmm...should i say i overcome it dy?or...
anyway...saw someone i hated for years there...they would only appear when they need help!
after grandpa passed away 5 years ago...i don't take them as part of my cousins anymore...
for what reason must i treat you like my uncle and auntie when u visit my grandma to gain benefits?
since last time your son came to my house...and granny or grandpa would take my chocs and give it to him...AND HE EVEN SPOILT my things!damn it~
i could remembered how you guys treated me and my stuffs...so just leave me alone!
in the car,daddy said they came to get granny sign the doc for them...
how i wish granny is as healthy as before...how i wish granny won't sign..it's not up to me to say a no....
i inherited grandpa's kindness..and god damn it!i even offered you the swissroll that we bought for granny..cox grandpa told me once that we must treat a guest with heart..
anyway..i don't give a piece of shit how you gonna be after getting my granny sign that doc for you..
ONLY IF YOU COULD STAY AWAY FROM HER!leave her in peace...
aunt said she had a plan to move back to jinjang...cox granny would need a larger room...
jinjang and the idiots would be her neighbour!BEAR IN MIND BECAUSE OF GRANDPA ONLY YOU GUYS GET THAT HOUSE!
my grandpa applied for all his nephews to get into st.john last time...HOW MUCH HE SPENT and HOW DID U GUYS PAID BACK?
i knew it!i don't need to ask and they would just tell...
life without grandpa is bored..and this is something until today when i thought of it i would still shed a tear...WHY WOULD THAT FUCKING HOSPITAL DID SUCH BLOODY MISTAKE?
i regretted for not giving the nurses extra punch!grandpa wouldn't like it but i couldn't take it!
a grandpa which i respect and love most....5 years dy....

14112008-------------->it has called to an END...

my final paper..law paper 2..haha~so..yesterday didn't sleep...same for today..no sleep!
and have no idea wat the fuck was wrong with me simply started to feel sleepy because no coke and no mood to study..ouh~~~~~sad!
luckily i covered up most of the things yesterday..or i would really die..
anyway...i finished my police powers in college within 2 hours..hoho!i'm great..^^
thank god i have my notes with me...
hmm...i hadn't finished reading yet during lunch and i got so tension that i started to tremble...
so at the end of the day i had a can of coke...breakfast went with an empty tummy and a can of mocha latte..
exam..started...and my hunches were correcT!woooooo~~~
equity really came out...damn it!ok..i sux in it and hence i did nothing...i did the second question instead..which turned out to be kinda alright for me..
jp~wowowow!and.......court structure...huh...
i lack of time again today but at least i wrote something instead of leaving it blank..arrgh!
sir said my look during the exam was so tension and sleepy he almost knocked my head down to wake me up~o.O
after exam....went to mid valley with jas and angel...i went for food at kim gary!
yes...outta no where i had gastric during exam...sick!then ordered lotsa food...
2 pieces of fried chicken wing,1 french toast,1 big plate of french fries...and a cup of coke..
the french toast...were filled with...PEANUT BUTTER!omg..i don't like peanut butter..
i didn't knew bout it until i put it in my mouth..peanut butter not that nice...that taste is kinda weird and irritating to me..
hmm...then chatted for a while me and angel left and went home..
while waiting for the train i started to spam..or i think i might faint sumwhere there..
and the fucking phone was like RAN OUTTA BATTERY SUDDENLY!
thank god that time train's here dy...when it reached kl central..i got a nice seat with air-cond...
so i yawned and yawned and fell asleep..haha...
went out and stuffs....had dota...now extremely sleepy~
ok i shall go to bed dy!ouh...T_T
didn't dota with my brother and baby sitter tonight..haha.....all of them busy playing ryl!!!
no fair no fair~~~~cox i can't download that thing...SAD!!!!

13112008------>i'm sad...depressed and disappointed

*sigh...i didn't sleep for the whole fucking night...stayed up studying..ok..lets see...i covered up almost everything dy....i'm serious..
law&morality,jp,legislation,dl,SI,CPS,HRA,lay participation......
why no common law&equity?why no police powers?why no legal professions?why no this...?no that?cox i sux in common law...i dislike adr...police powers too much..din really read..legal professions got bored of it..so?sigh*
so...i went out at 8am this morning happily grabbing watever materials i feel like bringing...my file too big dy and can't read up so many things..so i brought watever i think is alright..
thanks to ktm...the train late for 10~15 mins again!!!stupid train...
then...walked to mcd...ok..i stress..am REALLY STRESS...
i hadn't stop eating since yesterday....i just kept eating and eating...
yesterday after having dinner..when daddy cooked again he fried the vege..i ate again..then i drank coke..then...midnight i had a bowl of mushroom soup..then this morning 5smth..had a cup of oats..then...went to mcd for breakfast..then had chee cheong fun for lunch..then had a piece of cholocate bread for tea..yes..now..and i jux finished eating..and dinner up next..and supper later..
aite..so i was curious and anxious about the paper..never had that feeling unless i felt that i'm well prepared...
when i went for breakfast...i finished up juries..and all~then went to library..lolx..filled with people..i haven't seen so much people in the library before..anyway i went in..
jas was busy listening to the records..so i sat with mei kuan...hmm..i started to study..
ya...i don't know where to start..where to stop...and i'm so stupid..i had 2 sets of notes...one plainly on cps..the other one would be bail&cps..
too blind dy...i read the CPS notes alone without BAIL..ouh...and i simply didn't give a damn bout it after i realized..i only said i'm stupid and i started HRA...haha
lolx..then...study study study only i realised my HRA dun have case law to cite..so...so...looked back at my notes..i didn't write enough of infomation there..
grabbed a book and start writing down important case law..lolx..lolxx..when i'm done...almost..jas came and said..lets go makan chee cheong fun..
brought my notes and book along of course..i haven't memorize my case law for SI..yea..too confident till i forgotten all the cases..lolx..simply looking up the cases and time's up..walked back to college..
no time to study dy...and the tension in me is driving me nuts..so i told myself that i have to be calm go in pray hard and write..crap~because I COVERED ALMOST EVERYTHING dy...
question papers were then distributed..and i got so HAPPy...sentencing,court structure,DL,SI,HRA,Lay Participation..and one more forgotten...and 6 pick 3..I KNOW THE ANSWERS!!!OH FUCK OH FUCK..
i was so happy..i thought cambridge gonna screwed us when actually the questions was kinda easy and nice..
i chose SI,Lay participation and DL..then...my SI so fucking long..3~4 pages..till i got not enuf time to really crap bout my Lay participation and my DL...MY DL!!!!!!THE ONE THAT IS ALWAYS IN MY MIND!!!!FUCK!!!!
I DIDN'T ANSWER MY DL~~I DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME TO DO SO...MY FAULT...is ALL MY FAULT..I DIDN'T PRACTICE..DIDN'T TIME MYSELF...THAT'S THE RESULT..
i only answered 50/75 instead of 75/75...my 25 marks simply GONE!!!!!!!!!forever and ever..
my A also NO MORE...ouh..that's sad..very sad...
and i'm sad now..depressed and disappointed...sigh*
tomorrow paper 2!I SWEAR I'LL DEFINITELY FINISH UP ALL 50marks..I DON'T CARE!!!!ish...wat i have to do tonight would be study POLICE POWERS and the rest of the things...i'm NOT GONNA TOUCH ON THE STUPID ADR...
i'm so tired....so sad..so sleepy now~

12112008----------->my brain went haywire again...

today..i was supposed to go tsun jin with aunty connie and desmond..aite..so i went!i was supposed to wake up at 9am eventhough i off my laptop at 5am...
the problem with me is...the whole fucking 4 hours i simply couldn't fall asleep..
once i shut my eyes..the things that flew in my mind was HOW HORRIBLE WOULD BE THE LAW PAPER...ya..i didn't study..FOR MONTHS!all in mind was watever i read few months ago~
i'm so fucked up...so i got up and read watever novels that i haven't finish reading them...hopefully i would fall asleep..
HEAVEN'S SAKE..i finished all 3 books..and i'm still wide awake..so i wrote my stupid essay..ok..halfway through..i got fed up of it..due to the ugly writing on the paper..i hate it..
then i went and lied on my bed again..and i stared blankly at the ceiling..so i turn on my laptop and looked for songs..hopefully i found someone online at that time..it was 8smth..
unfortunately..none of teh humans are available..then i heard noises outside..so i simply shut the lid of my laptop and went back to bed..i don't want them coming into my room and screwed me again..
hmm..9 in the morning..my alarm clock rang..i forgotten to off it~then i lied there..without moving..till 9.30 i bath and waited for my aunt to come..
waited for around half an hour..she said 10am..haix..anyway..we went to tsun jin..and got rejected..desmond's result not that good and the school haven't start arranging classes and intakes for transfered students..so..went back fruitlessly..
aite..back home..i thought i would be tired and sleep for like 4 hours..i'm sick~i couldn't sleep!!!so..online chat surf..read continue that essay..walking here and there..
after lunch i thought i could sleep again..ok this time too full..can't even lay in peace..so...laptop again..essay again..law studies again..until......3smth..i guess..
when it started to rain when i heard storms..i turn off my laptop and read a story book and finally i felt sleepy and fell asleep...oh god!!almost 30hours sleepless..ya..that's me!
woke up 7smth..left only jack and me around..dad,roc and uncle menglek went out..o.O i went straight to the refrigerator and started to hunt for my coca cola..i found none..
never mind..i continued my essay and chatted till dad got back and i asked him..he said..you blind or wat?i bought so many and u said nothing there..haha..so i went back and looked again..
my cans of coca cola was hidden behind..far behind..something blocked them..lolx~~
then..then..nothing much~simply open the can of drink and err..start staring at the book..then i got pist..then moodless..then chatting then..i called lolo..
yea..my best senior...haha..outta no where i realised actually i had everything in mind..but..they were all mixed up..
so for the rest of the night..i'm gonna read up everything and get all the things sort out~
I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP TILL THAT PAPER ENDS...meaning another sleepless night till 3pm..or maybe 4pm...sigh..
praying hard that equity and adr not coming out..i sux in that 2 chapters..case laws are frust..the years are irritating and annoying sometimes..sigh
another 36 hours and my exams would call to an end!i'm looking forward to it~~hoho!!
i wanna go for the run..who's gonna fetch me?!?!???!

*damn it..outta no where u poped into my mind again..damn u!ish~I'M SO GONNA HATE YOU!i will prove you wrong that i could actually hate someone..yong said i'm too dumb and stupid to hurt and hate someone..i will prove you WRONG!!!!i don't wanna be a good hearted girl dy..please turn me into a demon or watsoever..should i worship satan instead?haha^^

11112008--------------->happy bday dessan

today's dessan's birthday..haha^^ya..i knew him for around 8 years dy..haha..
we were primary school mates and he sat beside me during the standard 6 year..haha^^
hmm...he's a nice guy tho...got hurt by quite a number of girls dy i think..have no idea..
anyway..may he have a happy 18th birthday...
aite..back to my day...is kinda fucked up...
why?
because i didn't study..i didn't prepare..simply motivationless to write my essays..
ouh...but i didn't really game..serious i didn't game much..
anyway..law..haha..my mind having great war..
my law studies are trying to conquer my mind..
haven't sleep and i have no idea how come i could stay up till late night..
been having suppers suppers and more suppers every night..
simply didn't gain any weight..*sigh

08112008--------------->where's my sun?

i don't think i'm stable lately..haha..i think i'm emo~i have no idea how'd i felt..
anyway..that doesn't really matters...
slept at 6.40am and woke up at 5pm..haha~again...i'm really a big baby..
anyway...went online...then mummy came back and asked if i'm gonna follow them to the hospital..
hmm..the last time i visited granny was like few weeks back..so i decided to go..
since i've got nothing better to do staying at home..
my dear granny...she changed a lot!she really did changed a lot!
the moment i saw her..is NO MORE MY BELOVED GRANNY..
i miss her so much..although she can recognised me..but because of alzhemeir's..i think she lost part of her memory dy..she's like a kid now..
i couldn't talk to her..i can only feel the pain..then suddenly i realised the tears were tryin to roll down..
so i walked out from the ward..and first time ever i no longer fear the height of the bloody hospital..
i could actually lean against the window and look outside..first time my legs didn't tremble and my palms weren't sweaty..
after that i went back to the ward and joined them....i told myself i can't cry...
my granny made me thought of ashley anne's granny..her granny had alzheimer's as well..
and i remembered..that time i was so small..i was only 10..and i duno anything bout alzheimeirs..
so i fooled her granny..not really fooled..but we played around with her granny..
i felt so bad suddenly...anyway her granny passed away few years ago..hmm...
then..went for dinner..had nasi lemak at jalan antarabangsa..
not bad..haha~then headed home..
aite..nothing much..but thinking of granny made me emo..aww~i miss my granny so much!
i miss her cooking..sigh*

07112008---------------->hrmm..

hmm..my day..is only filled v games and sleep~ya..i din study again...
hmm..slept at 6 something this morning and woke up at 6pm..why?
cox daddy called back outta sudden..haix...he disturbed my dream..
at 5pm..i woke up suddenly v a shock..haha..i stared at the clock and i was like..
ouh it's 5pm and no one disturbed me!haha..then i fell back to sleep..
anyway...jack's back from his hostel..he's having his year end holidays now..
good for him tho..haha...hmm..boring day~
urgh..nothing much bout today..
no coke meaning no life..no motivation..ish!
i'll go get some and keep it for myself 2mrw..
i really need to study..law's up next..and i haven't even touch them..
ishish~~

06112008------------me sad..

sigh..studied econx for the whole farking night and i simply can't finish the 123pages..sad..i didn't even do any of the past year questions because i did them months ago..and due to my laziness..i didn't prepare well for the stupid econx..
aite..so..by 7.30 i still left around 4 chapters unread..lolx..i told myself..nvm...is fated you can't sit for the exam well..so what i brought to college was the notes i had with me..i didn't even bring the text books and my whole seminar pack,past year questions..
i brought my trial papers..and after a morning shower i walked to the train station...fucked i forgotten that i would be late cox this morning it rains heavily...sigh..sigh..by the time i reached the bloody train station...i stared blankly at it~it was so crowded..
when the train arrived..hoho~i thought i couldn't board..cox it was fucking crowded and thanks to one of the passenger he made some space and let me in...or else i would be late for my exam...
then...then..then..reached college dy..everyone's studying..a ha~i made the right choice...for not bringing my books..wat for bringing the books when u don't even have the time to study?wat i did was..i clarified those parts that i couldn't understand and walked into the exam hall..
heaven's sake..the stupid classroom was so so so cold!ish ish~brain froze..anyway...i managed to finish all 30 multiple choice questions in time and hmm...watever is done is done..i don't have the mood to think of it...
paper 2 up in next half an hour and i realised that i didn't even memorized any of the definitions..thank to my cleverness..i couldn't even remember a simply definition of inflation..anyway..those questions were outta my expectation...thank god!really thank god!
because watever i read was cost-benefit analysis...holy!i was so shocked when i saw that question..balance of payments,international trade none of them were in my mind..hoho~anyway..i managed to crap through all the questions within the time frame..
after that went for lunch and i reached home at 4pm..yes..whole night no sleep and i went online again...played a game..i went for a nap..had flower crab for dinner..
for god's sake..i think i had slight fever..neway,don't care but carry on v games and more games..
and because of my stupidity,i didn't get back my book from him..why would i do such crazy thing when i knew that he would avoid me?so..i still feel sad after a month..fuck man!seriously fucked up this time..
sigh..sigh..so i'm emo tonight..i think..due to the lack of sleep and because i screwed my exam...and BECAUSE I STILL HAD THE FUCKING URGE TO KNOW THE STUPID ANSWER!why would you ditch me before EXAMS?!damn u~damn you!seriously damn you!why would the fucking 10 days made so much differences?

05112008------------->fucking emo~

2mrw would be my stupid econx exam..heaven's sake..i'm not studying..simply couldn't study...every line i read seems so familiar to me..but god damn it..i tend to know everything but when i wanna explain to myself i seems to don't know everything..
fucking tense..i'm so bloody emo now..i know tears are gonna roll down my cheek soon..
ish ish~i hate having this kinda feeling..i hate the phobias of exam..fuck you!ish ish ish!!!!!!!
tonight i don't have coke to lemme stay awake..i need more and more coke..simply more of them...
yes..i got addicted to coke..and i need them to stay awake...
huh...no game..no coke..no study...wat do i want?i have no idea..
my mind's blank..and i'm emo..and i'm pist of myself..and my body's aching..
and i feel fucking sick~
sad..sad.............................................................

04112008------------->my econx paper up next..

today..another tough day huh?i was happily sleeping and my mum came into my room just to scream at me!only if i weren't her daughter i would asked her to shut up!
one thing i hate most is someone disturbed my sleep..that feeling sux!and one thing they love most is they'll just walk into the room and bloody wake you up~
last time would be daddy start playing loud music out of no where..and mum started to shout and brothers then would be either jack or roc coming into the room and bang my bloody room door..
now?jack's in hostel..i wonder if one day they leave me in peace they would die of boredom..
aite..so economics up next..and wat the fuck had i done the whole day?
i was sitting there..chatting and gaming..simply got no mood to study~..ish!
no maid so wat?i'm not being calculative when ur the one!fuck you~u can do the ironing urself and leave the rest alone..when they need the clothes they'll just do it..don't screw me simply because i din do the chores!
aite..so daddy called and err..i cooked the rice and he came back and cooked fried rice..
was kinda happy playing dota v the skype on v the rest of them..then suddenly i heard voices coming from downstairs..
so mum came back!i knew something is wrong...i can sense it!
simply forgotten to throw away a plastic bag u can just leave it there!bloody fucking don't screw me!when i don't make a noise doesn't meant that i could take it..and i'm serious~
hmm..so had a stupid dinner..finished the food and i'm back in jack's room..
then played..and it was like WAT THE FUCK THE GAME LAG SHIT..
so i got disconnected and no more game for me..good tho..
i was sitting here doing nuts..simply can't read anything..econx is a piece of shit..
urgh...my mood is swinging and swinging..can someone help me stop it?shit!

03112008---------------->miserable life..

urgh..let's see wat to talk about today..stupid roc woke me up in the middle of my sleep..could u like please fuck off for a day and just leave me alone in peacefulness?
i'm always like this..when i had problems and i don't share them..sigh..so wat?i share and i get nothing..wat i get in return is just some relief..
nevermind..i called chang today..haha~talking to him would be forever that nice..hmm..he's looking for part time job..yes..and i should look for mine as well..
after that no game no game...no game..
for the sake of my mum..i did the chores..i swept the floors and moped them..and i even bathed fatty brown..
i wonder if you guys could just leave me alone for a sec..i will do those chores when i'm in the mood of doing..don't nag me if you don't wanna have a great fight..
after everything..done~bathed!online again..online online online..
was waiting for game..busy gathering people..
and..daddy called back..asked me wat would i like for dinner..
nevermind of that..we made a choice to go SS2 for dinner...
till spect knew that i'll be going SS2 he asked me not to go due to the bloody traffic..
aite..waited for mum to get home..and we headed to desa park city..rakuzen..
wasn't a nice dinner afterall..because..i'm not in the mood of eating..
i ordered sashimi..and erm..not bad tho~
my mood is kinda shaky lately..urgh..and this kinda feeling is pissing me off!
ouh~then i got home after dinner..and they just started the game..
then..then then..nothing i was doing nothing but chores again..eww..
but i had 2 games after that..not bad..hmm..improved a lot compared to my first 2 weeks..
i had been playing for 24/7 lately..if there's no improvement..i'm stupid or simply dumb then..
yes..you brought me into the game so wat?one fine day i'll definitely have the ability of pawning you..please be prepared..i'll just walk to the cyber cafe v chang and pawn you..
i'm mean i'm evil..i simply couldn't get you off my mind!eww and that's painful..that's disgusting!
i couldn't hate you..wat i could do is only nuts..
i'm like a fucked up bitch right now..with my own fucked up life..

周杰伦 - 给我一首歌的时间

作词：周杰伦
作曲：周杰伦
专辑：魔杰座
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雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫 梦 分开了叫 痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后 果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫 梦 分开了叫 痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候 说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有那一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让他留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候说了爱你
要怎么证明我没力气
告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我说我不该 不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气
我只有那一天的回忆

02112008------------>i'm having a screwed life~

well..basically i'm jux wasting all my time playing dota lately~
i wonder what the fuck is wrong with me myself right now!
i don't game much...the only game i went crazy was need for speed..and now..i craved for dota..
life is so bloody screwed!i sat for my stats paper last friday...
outta my expectation it was kinda easy...aite..hopefully it's as easy as wat is seen...
i realised that whenever i don't wanna face the reality i would bury myself in games and books..
since young it has been like this..should i change it or i'll just keep it on?
anyway...some idiots played fire on me today..
don't guys out there..don't try to screw someone before that fella screw you..
although ur on the web doesn't meant that u could play with one's limits..
so at the end of the day i got so pist off~and i started to scold them..
yes..and i think that would be years after my last time screwing someone like that..
i don't usually said that much of vulgar words..not when i'm really really mad..
but if i were to scold my brothers when i'm really really angry..
i don't scold..i'll just tell them loads of stuffs and they'll end up crying..
i did that once to my bro~and that was scary...because not even a fuck came out from me..
i'm always tolerating with people because chang told me i should do so..
he said it would be nice if we treat others good eventhough they don't treat us good..
but those asses were really too much..
and i'm always very lucky...because there're always people to back me up~
and now i wonder wat is wrong with the guys there..
sexism?girls can't play dota because guys don't play with dolls..
and i'm telling wat the fuck when some of my guy friends play dolls?
spect was right..i shouldn't fight with them when i don't even know them..
i got really really pist when they traced my profile...
and thank god none of my friends as in i don't really go tell everyone i has a blog here..
so luckily they see nothing...hmm..anyway i got really really pist~at that very moment..
i couldn't imagine wat i would do when i got really really mad against a stranger...
maybe i would give him 2 tight slaps and a great big punch..
anyway...i had great time playing v mun,spect and drugs and all..
econx exam is drawing nearer..simply couldn't get my head outta this laptop..
i wish i would be able to move my fingers towards the book instead of the keyboard..
hehe^^haix..haix~~
my life is so miserable...get me a pail of water and pour them on me..
i should wake up from my dream!ouh~~

24102008--------------->bored

ok..another boring day..why?i went to bed at 5am and woke up at 4pm..lolx..11 hours of sleep..
ya..woke up..sat there then i had the sudden urge to bath for fatty brown...
so i bathed her...haha~she smells lately..*sigh
then?i played dota again..gaming gaming gaming..
wat a stupid life i'm having...
then waited for bros to come back from schools and tuition...
went to grandma house..
ya..as if it's some kinda great day..to me it seems another family gathering..
anyway..i buried myself in movies and foods again..
went home late late at night...
with a half drunk dad and fucking drunk uncle..
aww...c'mon if u were to drink till like an idiot~then don't drink from the start..
bloody ass..not that i wanna swear here..but it simply pist me off!
anyway..reached home late..cudn't really stay up...parents been screwing me non-stop..
sigh

23102008----------------->screw me~!

another sleepless night?lolx..i went to bed at 6.30 this morning..wat a nice time to sleep huh~
slept and woke up..got shocked by the msg that i received from dad..
"gud morning darling,call me when u wake up~"goodness..
i called..and..omg omg~~he told me..that...grandma had alzheimer's..ok..
2days ago was told by aunt that she had a mild stroke..
yesterday aunt informed me that grandma wasn't in a very good condition..
today daddy said she had alzheimer's..wat a good news!
and..so~he wants me to go visit her at the hospital..
aite~she's suppose to discharge from the hospital this week..because of dental..she stayed..
and i duno wat the fuck is wrong~she had a mild stroke in the morning..
bloody hospital don't even give a damn about it~simply said because her blood pressure was low~
fine..then the day before yesterday only went for scanning..the report was collected yesterday evening..
ok~multiple infarcts..instead of getting a specialist..they get her a physician..
and my aunt duno anything..until i told her u better go get a specialist..transfer granny to another hospital..
this afternoon~i went!ok..i'm a coward..i don't dare to go on my own..i had phobia visiting hospitals...thanks to tawakal!
everyone's busy~busy~go bank,dye hair..fine!i went v uncle menglek..
grandma CAN'T recognise me anymore..the pain..is so much worst than losing a boyfriend..
18 years..i stayed with her..and outta no where she CUDN'T remember~WAT THE FUCK!
she was staring blankly at me..goodness!!!!!then i called DR.Ricky..chang's uncle..
now..that half her body's paralyzed..memory lost..make her movement priority..
aging stroke..
the stupid and arrogant bastard...the idiot physician~I KNOW I'M NOT A PHYSICIAN!
AND I KNOW I LOOK LIKE A KID~FUCK YOU!HOW DARE YOU STARE AT ME LIKE I'M SOME SORT OF IDIOT?
ur such an asshole..don't make me curse you right in front of ur face..and don't u think that i dare not do that..i've did smth even worst in the hospital..
granny's behaving like a kid now..that's still not the worst part..
she kept wanting to get up~sigh..half paralyzed..as in half her right part of body paralyzed..
how the hell is she suppose to get up?
in order to prevent myself from crying i got out from the ward..
sat there..kept myself busy...simply texting everyone..
didn't eat anything since i woke up..lost of appetite..
i'm worried..i'm scared..i'm afraid that she might jux passed away in the hospital..
i HATE hospitals..because of they're carelessness..i lost a grandpa..
i don't know if i'm gonna lose another one..i'll definitely screw the hospital if this happen so..
went of v uncle..not until chang told me to makan..so~
uncle bought me and roc dinner..hoho~very kind of him to buy us japanese food..
aite..actually my plan was to like play dota till i got tired and sleepy i wud go to bed..
i'm avoiding the fact so?i'm afraid..sad things come together..
cud the sad stuffs jux fuck off?urgh~then?nth much...
online...played a game only...tom and spect din join...
played v 2 strangers..remaked once...got screwed by one of them once..
ok i'm sad..so i quit at the almost end of the game..sorry~
i really cudn't take it anymore..i thought i cud..
how much more sad stuffs are coming up?no body knows..


i'm vain, so?