16082009--------->i wonder if you would bother to read

i wonder and i really really wonder...if you even bother to read my blog after so long!i updated it every now and then but it seems you didn't even give a damn about it since june =0 well...i know you're always busy..and TIRED..i'm sorry because i don't know how exhausted would it be to read my crazy blog..yes you might say that i'm having pms or something today..whatever it is that you're gonna say i'll just ignore it for just this moment..i need to let it all out!

well i really think that there's problem communicating with you...whether it's me or you..it's just WEIRD!i would be so lost of words when i tried to talk to you not because of the happiness but the sadness...it's actually killing me indirectly..i have no idea why...maybe i'm one self-torturious girl or something...to be frank i don't enjoy having twistered feelings all day long..sudden happiness or sudden sadness...it would drive me crazy =(

i hope you understand how all this things would made me feel when i have jumbled up feelings..is a total turn down for me..a total disaster..sometimes i would rather i'm a single lady..and yet sometimes i'm glad having you there..i sound contradicting..but it's just exactly how i felt like NOW!i hate you and i love you at the same time...*grrrrr

the stage play-----"wish upon a crane"

hmm...came across with this play during my a-lvls..being told by a friend...he invited me to watch it instead of helping it out...well..during that period of time i really had no mood to think about it at all..i was busy preparing exams..and after exams he didn't asked me again nor did he reminded me about the play...

right after my exam..after that lil trip to genting..i worked my ass off as an assistant bartender...till the end of july...and then i was free after that so i asked..if he needs any assistants or something..i don't mind being in the back stage helping out..as i wasn't really into acting lately =( so...i went for the first practice session few days after i resigned...

to be honest..i wasn't quite glad about the practice session..well i didn't played any part of the role in the play so i didn't really comment much about it...me,james and shaun..basically we STONED there most of the time =)

2 days before the stage play...we were busy practicing in taylors..musics first then lightings...well..being an assistant stage manager isn't easy...you'll need to take care of EVERYTHING...and is everything besides the stage..haha..for me..i'll leave the stage to the director..the rest of it..i'll try my best to make it the best!

hurm...all in all!the play turned out to be AWESOME..thanks for the help given by everyone..especially the crews from taylors...thanks a lot for helping me out...if i were to be too harsh to you..this is my apology..the cast!well done everyone...all the runners...ZILLIONS THANKS...to shaun, to james, to eleazor, to mingyi, to ivan, to andrew, to finn, to eng chun, to sin yee, to ken wei, to bryan, to sandra and more more more more more!can't really list em all out...but definitely thanks a lot guys!

the cast did a great job on the stage..we all did perform our best besides the stage.. =D i love you people...i'm sorry james and shaun..if i ever did offended you during the preparation of props and during the play...

looking forward to the after party!!!and of course...the re-stage...i hope the YB really did carried it out..haha ^^

urm...hurm...zhapalang =D

wokay...so i attended mei kuan's party...from pyjamas to red t-shirt..hmm..at least i made it this time =D it was a shocked news that just right before the party i got a job at the law firm..and all i did was..i rushed home straight after my boring day at the firm...seriously..i'm just not that kind of girl that would sit still in a place without doing anything...so please..KEEP ME BUSY!

well the party was fun...although only the 8 of us..yah my darling went with me...i feel BAD IF I ABANDON him..muahaha...carrie went with her boyfriend too...JJ,JACKSON,ESTHER and our pretty host------- MEI KUAN...had pizzas...junk foods...and fun time teasing that plump jj..haha ^^ i was died off around 1am..so apparently i went up to the room and took a short nap =) jj,jackson,esther and mei kuan were still chatting down stairs..HAPPILY..lol! it was too warm in the room...so i got up like an hour later..my blood be too sweet that the mosquitoes love me so much...

darling was sleeping while i went downstairs and chat with the 4 of them...hmm..so different people have different kinda lifestyle now...and ah hah! i made my mind after all those talk...it was fun =) by the time we ended the talk was already 4am..i actually need to shoo esther home...she made us worry sick...driving home alone in the morning..wth! seriously exhausted after working and being crazy the whole night...

so because we forgotten to buy poker cards..all of us ended up watching this disgusting and boring horror movie -------" book of blood"...muahaha..again..i got shocked and i SCREAMED..sorry people..they actually had a great shocked...weeeeeee =P

ah!went for a breakfast session with PY after mei kuan sent darling to work...i really had the feeling of not going for any breakfast and just sleep for the rest of the day...effing tired..but i just didn't see this young lady for too long...haha =) so...lol she ended up coming with her boyfriend..well maybe it's just me...i'm the one being particular bout this thing i guess..i just don't really enjoy going out with my friend and their dates...you see first because i don't really know their dates of something..second i just don't enjoy being the "light bulb"...very very WEIRD...i'm sorry...

at the same time i felt tired..so after that breakfast i went home straight and from 12pm i simply slept till 9pm which is when my mum woke me up...happy moments happy dreams during my sleeping session..haha =)

didn't sleep just now and i watched the movie "sepet"...i rated it...SUPER GOOD compared to the other local movies xD..before that had a round of dota with jackson...lion pwns it all =D urm..argh!nothing much...

something i found in jackson's blog =)

1. Get to know yourself better..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

this is just so true about me..everything.. =) lol

2. The Real You

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

well..i'll just say yes and no at the same time...let it be in between =D

resources from: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

haha =) may you ppl have a good laugh at the video =D

my overall life =) since the day i resigned =D

well well...my last day of work would be 26th of july...it has been a week since i last worked my ass off =( seriously dying of boredom at home now...urgh more of a rotten egg =D i've tried so hard that i changed my entire biological clock UPSIDE-DOWN...when the others(basically those that have a life out there) get up and do something useful to their live..i SLEEP...when they're getting ready to sleep..that's the time when i feel at peak..the feeling is like as if i'm living in UK..or just somewhere far away from msia...

hmm..so my entire family paid a visit to el cerdo...for dinner..the place that i worked at..okay..the food was AWESOME...suckling pig was rated 2.5 stars..feedback was kinda terrible..the ribs was the best dish among all..still i had my best rasberry milkshake which is off the menu..it was randomly made by my "shifu" the other day and i love it =D..boss was one kind man..what he did was for my better future but IT'S DEFINITELY KILLING ME RIGHT NOW!and i'm sure that it's gonna happen soon...not now...BUT SOON!!!rawr!!

i'd done watching all the dramas that i got from ching...finished all 4 alex rider's series that i took from darling...unfortunately..I BOUGHT THE WRONG TWILIGHT SERIES BOOK TODAY...haiy...bought the last instead of first..alex rider left hanging..i was told that the book is only sold in UK..*sigh* books are addictive..never let me get in touch with one or i'll crave for more..you might think that i'm some sort of nerd there..BUT that's me..don't doubt it!

i should be sleeping now...yet i couldn't...thanks to that "haunted scream" that poped out from outta no where..i have no idea WHERE!whether it's from someone's blog or just you know..."haunted"...so..I'M WIDE AWAKE RIGHT NOW(is almost 6am T_T)!i did tried watching that movie twilight just now..it's just another romance movie to me..not much of a special thing..the only part that i find it exciting should be the ending part where the cullen's family moved out from the place(i'd forgotten the name) in order to save bella..and i couldn't continue because megavideo doesn't allow me to do so =(

urmm...i wanted to watch "the taking of pelham 123" tho..should be a nice one..haha ^^ thriller...i'd prefer the book i guess...movies creates imaginations in my brain =( and if it's gonna be thriller or horror movie..there goes my night...

am working on a stage play with shaun and james and others now...as an assistant stage manager..well i was given this opportunity and therefore i approached shaun and told him i would help him up with the stage and stuff...well..i'd say it's an extremely sad stage play..no doubt the players played it well besides the "mother" so far..keep it up guys!it's my personal op. afterall..

pc fair's on the run..this time...the girls that posed for the games ARE WAY PRETTIER than the previous one..sorry..but is the truth..mom bought one ee pc from asus on the first day..tomorrow will be the third day...went with darling on the second day tho..sakae sushi for dinner =D fingerlicking GOOD =P had my worst ice cream from gelato place i think...i'd always described those as.."cow dunk" ice cream...can't really remember which fella always scold me for critisizing other's ice cream...but that ice cream is SUCKY!melted so fast and...tasted just like those 2 bucks ice cream nothing special..cone was EXTREMELY SMALL...

had a fight with parents...they're just being ridiculous..you're my dad and you're my mum...please say something reasonable if you wanna scold me..don't try to be ridiculous and tell me that i should respect you after all those nonsense..it doesn't make sense at all =( i was upset that you said yes..your dad was ridiculous and that whatever he said doesn't make sense at all BUT YOU SHOULD SHUT UP and NOT FIGHT BACK...what the fucking hell on earth was that?urgh...whatever you say...bah!boring...