hit me baybeh one more time =)

oi penyampah...ms TAN...
please study =/ sob.....i really need to study
see wat am i doin here?
@#!#$$%#$^%#%^

can someone just gimme one shot of drugs that will get my hands back to the books?
zomfg O.O
i'm like having the books on the lap but...
wtf i stared at the laptop screen most of the time...
SHIT!
!@#@#%$#$^%

urgh urgh study study study
you know yourself well enough that you won't wanna fail for another time..
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

bye =x

28092009------------>i fell down in the end =)

so..yesterday this fat lady here went celebrating khadijah's and lekka's bday with the whole crazy gang =) haha..daddy was supposed to fetch us..ish mana tau he went and fetched jeff and the other 2 guys..so..ya in the end me and darling took a taxi to endah parade =) well cox kong went sg.besi to fetch mah pretty mum and also the ayah!

anyway..it was about 2pm when we reached there..thanks to fatty lum cox he ffk last minute again..funny fella...hmm..nth much and i entered the roller skating rink with a strange feeling..*i dah long time din skate*..dare not go really face like how i did last time...i'm a shy person and is SUPER embarassing when you fall in front of the crowd..i dislikes failures...

after an hour of catching up with my speed..i started going fast like how i used to do so..all went well..UNTIL..when i tried to go chase my beloved darling..suddenly i lost my balance..and FELL..omg!!that's was like..2 great slaps to me.. =/ painful...reminds me of the times when i fell so many times just to get on the blades 13 years ago..when i first started it..sob*

so yea..when i checked it during that lil break time of mine..oops!bengkak dy =x aku ni bayi tau haha..nth much...then i got so tired of it dy..so i sat down and chat lu..with the rest of them..oh ya!that gang was MEAN!they clapped when i fell =S embarassed la..

hmm..jeff's gf is such a nice girl..lol and of course my pretty mum..didn't get to talk to kong's gf..hehe^^ maybe some other day =) so ya..i found one more person to teach me maths dy =D less to worry about..YAhoooooooooo

after those happy moments..when everyone's tired of skating..DINNER time =) hehe..KFC..ayah belanja us =D ouh thanks ayah..lol..why is he my ayah cox he's my mama's gf.. =) i have a very complicated family =P after that went home..took that train walked home myself..and online..lol very great..i actually..dozed off in front of my laptop..muahahaha..quite proud of it..as this don't happen often you see..so yah..i went to bed at 12 SHARP!..we shall then call it off for a day =D

*ouh i love you guys..muackx..^_*

definitely PISSED off...

wanna know why?the first lazy mention dy...2nd one..TODAY I NEED TO GO WORK..wat's the reason?because daddy,mummy and stupid brother got SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT TO DO..mind that REALLY IMPORTANT...

so..i woke up at 10...waited for ppl till 12.45..none of them turned up...and i went to the shop without having brunch or anything...i thought WAT'S SO IMPORTANT...well they said they HAVE TO GO SOMEWHERE and i was left alone in the shop with 2 other workers from 2pm till 9.30pm...

had that mcD for lunchie..and rot myself to dead...realized that i've wasted lotsa time so i did some maths...okay...they were so busy to pick me up even after i work..can you take a cab home?wtf...well it's getting scarier lately..and so i called that best guy mr.simon =) muahahahaha..he's just SO NICE..thank you ^^

so i got this free driver and free dinner...YIPPIE!that silly fella lost his directions again =/ sad aint it?haiy...

so i was busy adjusting that template of another shared blog...and FINALLY...they are home..guess what i saw?FISHING RODS!wow..i thought wat's so important...they went FISHING with their friends...while you guys were enjoying..i rot myself to death...very happy indeed...

then i wanna bath...one word..WEIYA...fucker got to use the toilet first..try to put urself in this situation and imagine...they never say they're going fishing but said please help daddy got something really IMPORTANT TO DO...

and yes..i wana scream WAT THE FUCK!cox all you guys cared about is how's today's business?just gtfo...

25092009------------>happy birthday andy =)

so..yea today's anderson ang's bday...may you have a sweet 19th =) haha...okay..i was still struggling whether or not to go to this fella's birthday party 2 days ago..FYI i didn't study much these few days so i actually felt guilty if i would ever attend it..and at the same time guilty for not attending it...dumb aint it?had dilemma over such lil things =/ but hell yea that's me =)

anyway...just right after i made up my mind wednesday(i decided not to go)...mum came into my room asking if i saw her torch light plug..then i just wanted to try see wat would her reaction be when she found out that i'm still about to attend birthday party at this very very time..UNEXPECTEDLY..she said go ask ur dad if he knows bout the place...we'll go pick you up that night...

urm i was like O.O when she said ok =D hahaha...so i called anderson and he said he'll get the address for me..BUT I WANNA STAY OVER...what i did was i went out and gave my mum a crap talk...woohoo...she said do wat you want in the end =) spot my smile...^^ yah..yah yah...so i'm going to the party and i'm staying over =P epic happiness...

aite..24th of sept..justin's grandpa passed away due to H1N1...that's kinda sad..that stupid H1N1 is scary..take care everyone...

p/s: i just sent in a request to hitz.fm morning crew so that they will GOTCHA mr. birthday boi..hmm i hope they did it =) you see cox that lazy boi will never visit my blog nor did he know bout my blog..weeeeeeee

memories scattered all over.. >"<

have you ever tried to put scatters memories back into a piece?
that is what i've been trying all this while...
those memories are just like the missing pieces of the puzzles above...
there's no way to find them back...
i'm wondering what i could do...wtF!
i need my motivation to get back to study...please..
give me the motivation and i'll give you the love =) i promise... ^^

Lifehouse ------ Broken

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Song lyrics | Broken lyrics

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

sometimes i'm just being outdated

well...i'd just watched "the holiday" online..well...it was a great movie..though i don't really fancy romance movie but yeah!that movie was GREAT!
hmm..i cried i wept. so wat?it wasn't all about romance after all.
sometimes i just had this lil thinking that movie did reviewed what we did in our lives.
Our contributions to the society made part of the ingredients in the movie.
Why would you find certain genre of movie predictable that's because our lives been going same. It has become our daily routine. And somehow it was showed in the movie, that's why we could predict the outcome.
long distance relationship wouldn't work. if you told me that 2 years ago yes, i wouldn't believe it and i would think it's a total crap.
Someone taught me all these, someone brought me up! and thanks to that someone, i started to think better now.
As a matter of fact...sometimes i'm afraid that i couldn't handle my relationship well. Is that true?i really wonder.
On top of those silly moments we had, i really want to know wat you could give me besides not ditching me.
I received a very wonderful forwarded mail from a friend. The contents were: cherish the person who went through all the things with you. A new one might be attractive but still you would then appreciate the old one more. That's because you know the old one better and there are still mysteries over the new one.
SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?

18092009------------->i'm filled with fire..NOW!

just because we live in MALAYSIA doesn't meant that you people are the greatest of all...
just because IT'S RAYA..doesn't meant that even you as an employee gets to get a day off earlier..
RAYA then raya lar..wat's so great about it?
come to talk about it..ALL BECAUSE OF RAYA.........i need to work TOMORROW...
all because of RAYA!i need to SUDDENLY cancel all my programmes for tomorrow..
i seriously don't felt like giving it a piece of shit...DID ANY OF YOU CARES BOUT WAT AM I GONNA DO?no..the answer is one fucking great no!

imagine...if your employer is MR.M...if you asked for a day off for CNY...do you think they're gonna care?
JUST BECAUSE OF ONE FUCKING RAYA...now..wat?you need a day off and you don't even inform EARLIER?
you don't bother like you think I'D bother?

never let me see any of you...fucker waste my hell lot of time...
and yes i'm seriously pissed off right now!

just because you're my mum...you have something to do tomorrow doesn't meant that i'm DEFINITELY GONNA BE FREE FOR YOU!
cox when i need you to be free..when were you free for me?
DON'T ARGUE..cox you're never free...mcb!

better stay away from me before i start flaming around...

i felt offended

just so you know....sometimes i don't tell doesn't meant that i don't feel it!

NOW YOU KNOW I REALLY FELT OFFENDED...DON'T EVER INSULT ME OR..............

you shall begone =D

16092009------------------>a ninth month =)

lol lol...is 16th of the ninth month for the year again...well =) another month anniversary..hmm..it's been a long way isn't it?like 270 days dy...haha so fast!hmm..so ya!exam in another month...wtf!?ish...i hate it...bah!gonna bear with it and get it over ASAP!can't wait to get outta hell..

well 2mrw will be tenji day =) weeeeeee i see sushi(S) i see ICE CREAMS...ouh i see FOOOOOOOOOD!! i see HANDS flying outta them calling after my name =) weeeeeeeeee...out for eating sessions with Ejinn and kwai..muahahaha =P is a must for us and is a promise..once a month yes!

okay..i guess i'll need to get back to study now...nothing much to update tho..life been a bit crazy lately..just decided not to over study..well...been playing around..jumping around ALOT!to the extend my parents worried like hell cox I DIDN'T STUDY AT ALL =S awwwfully...sad... T_T

get my hands of the laptop....in 10 mins time =) till then...ciaoz

05092009--------------->a month of working in a law firm =)

well this would one great update of me working in a law firm for the past month =D the pay was just okay..well is the experiences that counts right? hehe....i'm just tooooo lucky to have really great lawyers that are very passionate about their job and are willing to teach...the colleagues were good ones as well..start off it in a hardway but ended with an easy one =P haha..throughout the whole month..lotsa mistakes had been made..lotsa things had happened..time management is REALLY IMPORTANT in working life especially when you need to multi task..

ok i didn't snap any of the pictures..for those snap shots you can always visit my facebook lol lol...hmm...life changed quite a lot! and of course i've been dragging my laziness and days for posting...haha..yupe!haven't been updating my blog right?yah that's me...so well that day after last day of work i went...klcc for movie with my baby of course =D "final destination 4"...another great movie suggested by me who hates it horror movie the most..ish!i seriously need to overcome that =) well..normal storyline..disgusting scenes...never rate any of these movies..haha

after that..been spending alot with my salary..yes and i'm back to a poor girl...hmm..well went back to college..urgh i dun find any urge to get into class =( i don't know why..how? fei zai tutored me on my econx..very nice and helpful of him..if i ever happened to score well in my econx i BUY YOU LUNCH!weeeeeeeeeeee hmm..then then up next...went to kent's house and there i found wei ken the lil boi and james..LOL lar!

dinner at kenny roger's and the next day 090909...went for the law firm buka puasa dinner after that..being a very good girl..i went to baby's house and joined the rest of them for SAKAE session..hohoho =) lets see the guest list: baby, wei ken, james, justin, daddy, anderson, fatty lum, melissa...muahahaha...fatty,wei ken and james...ALL DEAD!lol la...daddy din drink cox he needs to send me home =) very nice of him..weeeeeeeeeeeeee

ok..so i got home around 3.30am..very good record right?hahaha...the next day...thanks to the dumbass train late for class dy so i didn't go..hmm..back to baby's house and i found 2 drunktards awake..wtf?haha..well after that..went lunchie with fatty and anderson...night..eve asked us out to laundry bar..lol!drove all the way down and eve went home?haha..rot ourselves to dead at MCD at curve..back home around 12.30am...haiyo haiyo..very good girl indeed...

friday..yesterday...woke up in the morning and didn't get the right mood to go college..so off i stayed home and study...very hardworking...never in my life i woke up and i stayed in the room study instead of online..haha...when jack's back from school..i miss that boi so i brought him to baby's place with me..makan at the pasar malam!weeeeee finally i tried daddy's asam laksa..YUMMILICIOUS =P

today..another hardworking day..home day..sleep, study, sms-ing, till the very last minute only i went on9..very good =D i should keep my life like this hahaha...

*sorry for the jumbled up post..am being really lazy =D