holiday diary.....

今天...是难得的假期...可是...明天又要考试...天啊!!可是...今天的假期对我来说已经很好了!!因为....难得我可以睡到将迟才起床....今天...已经是我今年睡到最迟的一天了....
明天考SEJARAH和KEMAHIRAN HIDUP...妈呀!!单一科SEJARAH就要我的命了...我想我的KEMAHIRAN HIDUP...我还是不读啦!!很开心啊!!只剩两天...我的考试就完成了!!!
到时候肯定要好好的奖励一下自己...一定要好好的休息...这次考试完毕....不能像以前一样...好好的大吃一餐了...因为...考试期间我几乎每天都暴饮暴食的...考试的时候就不知已经肥了几公斤...唉....天啊!!

Mathz and Science exam

YEAH!!网站终于开回咯!!若不是APALAHINI告诉我....我想我还是不知道的咯...真的很谢谢你啊!!!嘻嘻~~有了这个地方.....让我的精神有了寄托...我以后都不用埋在书堆里了....
今天....考数学噢~~我的妈呀!!我竟然不够时间做....真是的....那里又不知少了几分....唉.....本来数学已经很差的我....现在想拿及格都很难了....然后呢~就考科学....天~~时间竟然多出一个小时让我睡觉....唉...如果这一个小时放在数学的做答时间那该多好啊!
考完后...就去练舞咯....没办法嘛....舞蹈比赛要到了...再不练....就会输了~~谁也不想输嘛...所以就去练咯....好衰不衰的...竟然在回家路途上遇到了我的表妹...*&(__#*$@#$真的是有够倒霉的咯...每次一见到她...我老爸,老妈就会拿她来跟我比较...啊!!!从小到大都是将...而且对象永远都是她...真的是超讨厌的咯!!!
唉....明天是假期啦!!终于可以好好睡一觉了...我已经很久没有好好的睡了...每天忙着读书....根本没有时间休息....后天考SEJARAH和K.H.啦!!希望明天可以读会咯....

chemistry exam....

今天啦!!凌晨一点就起床...因为要读书嘛...没办法咯....都是自己的错.....唉...每次都是临时抱佛脚......今天考化学....幸好有念到一些啦!!!多多少少还会做几题的.....嘻嘻~~
放学后...就和阿龙,雨,阿黎....一起到KOTA RAYA 的KFC去吃东西...温习功课....这是我们原本的计划...可是最后呢~~却在那里讲鬼故事....啊~~太吓人了...吓到我的下巴在发抖.....可恶!!
最开心的还是...我今天见到二哥哥噢~~他嘛...变了满多的...变成熟了噢~~至于....令我最最最最最感动的还是大哥哥的电话!!他每天到凌晨的时候就会打电话来叫醒我....明明不用将早起床的他,为了叫醒我这个任性的妹妹...唯有将咯....他啊~~平时已经很迟睡觉了...现在还要将早起床...真的是很心疼~~
哎哟....反正考个好成绩回来给他看就行了啦!!这是我觉得的啦!!真的希望这次可以考取好成绩~~今晚有得熬夜咯~~必须去睡觉了....免得待会儿睡不醒就不太好啦!!明天考物理....一定要读噢~~

bio exam....

today lar...haiz...got the first term exam...woke up during the midnight....2 a.m.damn!!!today.....got biology exam...huh!!!!memorize those names just took me such a long time!!!nevermind lor....coz exam mar.....because of this exam...my daddy and mummy never sleep just to wake me up at that time....then my brother lor....woke up during the midnight just to wake me up and study....really pity them lar....
because of this....i really work very hard on it!!!but....it really disspoint me...those thingz that i read...never came out during the exam...those i never read...shit...got so many questionz!!!damn...really don't feel like studying now....coz i scared i'll get dissappointed again!!!those resultz.....i think this is because i alwayz sleep in the class when the teacher is teaching...actually i don't need to study so much one...but i dunno why my biology text book lost already...dunno which idiot stole my book!!!!
haiz...really hope that i can pass my chemistry and physic examz!!!then my history and geography examzzz!!!haiz.........just damn it!!!wanna cry already...coz i think i'll fail my biology exam......

exam's coming!!!

today...went to KL CENTRAL after school...haiz....just to take my lunch there with my two friendz...later...took the PUTRA LRT to MASJID JAMEK...coz there's no STAR there...so have to transfer the train at the MASJID JAMEK station....luckily...we took only not more than half an hour to reach PANDAN INDAH station...
after practicing my dance there...daddy and mummy went there and fetch me coz they scared that i'll got lost...haiz...then....went home lor....also dunno why....don't feel like going out with them nowadayz...only wanna stay at home and go for tuition...then study coz the exam is near...haiz.....just....dunno wat lar...
coz i can't study during the day and night time...i can only study during midnight..coz nobody will make any noise and is very peaceful during that time...i really wanna get good resultz.....but i know i can't...coz i alwayz sleep in the class....that's because the way the teacher teach is just tooo bored for me...i won't sleep in only a few periodz...haiz....
got sick again...why?why i will get sick when the exam is coming??haiz....really really really very torture...i don't wanna get sick anymore!!!am i really sooooo weak??like wat my brother told me?i really got take care myself...but........just don't know wat happened nowdayz...just.....don't know.........
i don't wanna get dissappointed!!just.....i don't want!!!hope i'll do well in the exam!!!

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唉....超久没上网了...那个妈妈啦...不给我上...说甚么读书重要点...唉...算了.....还下令说谁在上课期间上网的话...就把电脑锁起来...分明就在那里搞威胁....今天啦!!有历史....华语.....和化学平测...妈呀!!!而我呢....只读了历史...华语....只随便的背了几个东东就算...反正只要我考到及格...老师就会很开心了...因为平时考试都"肥佬"....也难怪的啦!!!我....将懒惰...唉...再加上吸收能力差都屁将...所以.....
昨晚....又再做功课做到今早....就今早凌晨2.45起床开始做...因为有太多东西要做了....所以就做到5.45才换衣服准备上学....冤枉....只睡了两个半小时....唉...算了....反正看在考试即将来临的份上...就算了....
下个星期就开始考试了啦!!!我的物理啊!!!怎么办呢??谁来救我??平时上课都没听书...现在我想连神仙也救不了我了....唉.....今天是我姐夫生日啦!!!!可是大姐因为不舒服...所以不能来了...唉...
可惜~可惜~姐夫肯定很失望的....算了...希望他今年的生日会过得很开心啦!!!姐夫!!!生日快乐~~~~~~~~~~~

another bored and sad day....

今天不用上学...因为学校申请了假期给我们...可是....我今天还是得去补习....每次上来这个论坛的时候....都带有一种恐惧感...可能是害怕失去这个论坛吧.....因为....这个论坛真的给了我很多很多东西....真的很不舍得.....
唉...再待多十几分钟就得离开了....妈呀!!我真的很害怕今晚我再上网的时候...这个论坛已经不见了....真的...真的很怕很怕.....
唉...算了...反正最近写的日记都很悲.....

又是一篇伤感的日记......真的很悲啊~

刚刚.... 看了某人的日记...虽然是以前写的啦!可是真的很感人咯....或许是因为我没有这个本事写出这么好的日记吧...可是...我现在终于看的出他当初是多么的喜欢那个女生了....真的是很羡慕那个女生...有这么一个好人在你身旁你竟然不好好的珍惜他...唉....反正看到我差点连眼泪也要流下来了...
也或许是我当初看不明白是因为我不想去理解他吧....可是我现在真的看明了.....真的好像在些小说咯......那种文笔.....是我永远都达不到的水准.....唉...算了....反正我现在说甚么他都看不到了.....
更令我伤心的是....我最爱最爱的论坛要关闭了....为什么?!!为什么??!!!!!!!!!!唉....事实始终都得面对.....将子逃避也不是一个好办法.....

我又哭了......

唉....没想到我始终还是哭了....就为了那么一个比赛哭...值得吗?可能是我太弱了吧...可是有不见得很弱那个...唉...真的...真的对自己无言了...真的发觉自己越来越没用了...比去年更容易哭了...为什么我总是那么容易掉眼泪呢??有人可以告诉我吗?
有时只想找个人来谈谈今天发生甚么事...都很难...难道要有一个真心朋友真的那么难吗?或许是自己的警戒心太强了吧....因为曾经被人出卖过...所以...现在对朋友的警戒心都提高很多....不是很敢把自己的事情告诉他们...可能是这个原因吧...因此....我的知心朋友才那么少...可是...我已经很满足了...因为...至少他们肯陪我....
唉...最近都超爱胡言乱语的...昨天才被哥哥问到底发生了甚么事...因为...我问了他一堆不知是甚么问题的问题...哈哈哈哈哈哈.....可是...我知道他一定会很疼,很疼我的....可能有是我想太多了吧...无所谓啦!!只要我珍惜现在他对我的爱护和保护啊~~这个肯定会是我一生中最好的哥哥了!!!有机会的话...我也想站在他那一边...换我来爱护他...保护他...毕竟他也对我付出太多了.....
只知道自己始终对某件事情仍放不下....唉...无言......

无聊+开心+伤心的一天.....

今天早上本可以睡到很迟的....可是我弟弟竟然叫醒我...说有人要找我...叫我去打球...好咯....去不就去咯....可是...很喳到的是...我去到的时候....他们告诉我没有东西要给我....只是叫我出去谈天....我的妈呀!!!七早八早叫我去球场谈天??算了...反正已经去了...那就算了....然后呢...就说肚子饿~~不就去吃东西咯.....受不了....
他们正在吃东西的时候...因为我比较迟去...所以没有东西吃....唉...反正我就突然讲了一句不应该讲的话...就是叫他们去cafe....妈的!!!没想到...他们真的带我去....
无所谓啦!!反正都已经去过了....然后在那里我也开机来玩...我太无聊了....就开MSN来耍人啊!!哈哈哈哈哈哈.....他竟然相信....可是真的很好玩噢~~下次一定要再玩才行....因为太久没有打球了....所以就吵这要会球场练球啦!!!唉....幸好有人陪我回去练....就将...在球场练了整一个半小时才回家....
回家的时候...就赶紧冲进去厕所冲凉...因为赶着去补习嘛....冤枉!!赶东赶西将....唉...反正开心就好啦!!没想到....下午将热...竟然会下起雨来....妈呀!!我没有带雨伞啦!!就淋雨回家咯....还好雨不是很大.....
回家后就上网...妈的!!!每个人都说要玩ONLINE GAME....真的那么好玩吗??浪费时间+金钱....
唉....然后就问其中一位在星期五时有参加操步比赛的学长...有关比赛的成绩....我们这组输了....虽然她没有告诉我是第几名....可是就是很伤心....感觉就是好像我很失败的样子....因为...我们都练到很辛苦....算了.....可是...我们这组拿了"最佳精神奖"...不错啦!!至少有个奖....将才不会对不起自己嘛......
唉....今天还过得满不错的啦!!虽然知道成绩的时候不是很开心...可是....无所谓啦!!

想念~~

想念一个人真的很辛苦....超不喜欢那种感觉...可是偏偏自己就是很容易就想念人的三八~~唉....真的是有够失败的...然后....无言啦....还没想到要写些甚么....唉.......