hit me baybeh one more time =)

oi penyampah...ms TAN...
please study =/ sob.....i really need to study
see wat am i doin here?
@#!#$$%#$^%#%^

can someone just gimme one shot of drugs that will get my hands back to the books?
zomfg O.O
i'm like having the books on the lap but...
wtf i stared at the laptop screen most of the time...
SHIT!
!@#@#%$#$^%

urgh urgh study study study
you know yourself well enough that you won't wanna fail for another time..
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

bye =x

28092009------------>i fell down in the end =)

so..yesterday this fat lady here went celebrating khadijah's and lekka's bday with the whole crazy gang =) haha..daddy was supposed to fetch us..ish mana tau he went and fetched jeff and the other 2 guys..so..ya in the end me and darling took a taxi to endah parade =) well cox kong went sg.besi to fetch mah pretty mum and also the ayah!

anyway..it was about 2pm when we reached there..thanks to fatty lum cox he ffk last minute again..funny fella...hmm..nth much and i entered the roller skating rink with a strange feeling..*i dah long time din skate*..dare not go really face like how i did last time...i'm a shy person and is SUPER embarassing when you fall in front of the crowd..i dislikes failures...

after an hour of catching up with my speed..i started going fast like how i used to do so..all went well..UNTIL..when i tried to go chase my beloved darling..suddenly i lost my balance..and FELL..omg!!that's was like..2 great slaps to me.. =/ painful...reminds me of the times when i fell so many times just to get on the blades 13 years ago..when i first started it..sob*

so yea..when i checked it during that lil break time of mine..oops!bengkak dy =x aku ni bayi tau haha..nth much...then i got so tired of it dy..so i sat down and chat lu..with the rest of them..oh ya!that gang was MEAN!they clapped when i fell =S embarassed la..

hmm..jeff's gf is such a nice girl..lol and of course my pretty mum..didn't get to talk to kong's gf..hehe^^ maybe some other day =) so ya..i found one more person to teach me maths dy =D less to worry about..YAhoooooooooo

after those happy moments..when everyone's tired of skating..DINNER time =) hehe..KFC..ayah belanja us =D ouh thanks ayah..lol..why is he my ayah cox he's my mama's gf.. =) i have a very complicated family =P after that went home..took that train walked home myself..and online..lol very great..i actually..dozed off in front of my laptop..muahahaha..quite proud of it..as this don't happen often you see..so yah..i went to bed at 12 SHARP!..we shall then call it off for a day =D

*ouh i love you guys..muackx..^_*

definitely PISSED off...

wanna know why?the first lazy mention dy...2nd one..TODAY I NEED TO GO WORK..wat's the reason?because daddy,mummy and stupid brother got SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT TO DO..mind that REALLY IMPORTANT...

so..i woke up at 10...waited for ppl till 12.45..none of them turned up...and i went to the shop without having brunch or anything...i thought WAT'S SO IMPORTANT...well they said they HAVE TO GO SOMEWHERE and i was left alone in the shop with 2 other workers from 2pm till 9.30pm...

had that mcD for lunchie..and rot myself to dead...realized that i've wasted lotsa time so i did some maths...okay...they were so busy to pick me up even after i work..can you take a cab home?wtf...well it's getting scarier lately..and so i called that best guy mr.simon =) muahahahaha..he's just SO NICE..thank you ^^

so i got this free driver and free dinner...YIPPIE!that silly fella lost his directions again =/ sad aint it?haiy...

so i was busy adjusting that template of another shared blog...and FINALLY...they are home..guess what i saw?FISHING RODS!wow..i thought wat's so important...they went FISHING with their friends...while you guys were enjoying..i rot myself to death...very happy indeed...

then i wanna bath...one word..WEIYA...fucker got to use the toilet first..try to put urself in this situation and imagine...they never say they're going fishing but said please help daddy got something really IMPORTANT TO DO...

and yes..i wana scream WAT THE FUCK!cox all you guys cared about is how's today's business?just gtfo...

25092009------------>happy birthday andy =)

so..yea today's anderson ang's bday...may you have a sweet 19th =) haha...okay..i was still struggling whether or not to go to this fella's birthday party 2 days ago..FYI i didn't study much these few days so i actually felt guilty if i would ever attend it..and at the same time guilty for not attending it...dumb aint it?had dilemma over such lil things =/ but hell yea that's me =)

anyway...just right after i made up my mind wednesday(i decided not to go)...mum came into my room asking if i saw her torch light plug..then i just wanted to try see wat would her reaction be when she found out that i'm still about to attend birthday party at this very very time..UNEXPECTEDLY..she said go ask ur dad if he knows bout the place...we'll go pick you up that night...

urm i was like O.O when she said ok =D hahaha...so i called anderson and he said he'll get the address for me..BUT I WANNA STAY OVER...what i did was i went out and gave my mum a crap talk...woohoo...she said do wat you want in the end =) spot my smile...^^ yah..yah yah...so i'm going to the party and i'm staying over =P epic happiness...

aite..24th of sept..justin's grandpa passed away due to H1N1...that's kinda sad..that stupid H1N1 is scary..take care everyone...

p/s: i just sent in a request to hitz.fm morning crew so that they will GOTCHA mr. birthday boi..hmm i hope they did it =) you see cox that lazy boi will never visit my blog nor did he know bout my blog..weeeeeeee

memories scattered all over.. >"<

have you ever tried to put scatters memories back into a piece?
that is what i've been trying all this while...
those memories are just like the missing pieces of the puzzles above...
there's no way to find them back...
i'm wondering what i could do...wtF!
i need my motivation to get back to study...please..
give me the motivation and i'll give you the love =) i promise... ^^

Lifehouse ------ Broken

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Song lyrics | Broken lyrics

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

sometimes i'm just being outdated

well...i'd just watched "the holiday" online..well...it was a great movie..though i don't really fancy romance movie but yeah!that movie was GREAT!
hmm..i cried i wept. so wat?it wasn't all about romance after all.
sometimes i just had this lil thinking that movie did reviewed what we did in our lives.
Our contributions to the society made part of the ingredients in the movie.
Why would you find certain genre of movie predictable that's because our lives been going same. It has become our daily routine. And somehow it was showed in the movie, that's why we could predict the outcome.
long distance relationship wouldn't work. if you told me that 2 years ago yes, i wouldn't believe it and i would think it's a total crap.
Someone taught me all these, someone brought me up! and thanks to that someone, i started to think better now.
As a matter of fact...sometimes i'm afraid that i couldn't handle my relationship well. Is that true?i really wonder.
On top of those silly moments we had, i really want to know wat you could give me besides not ditching me.
I received a very wonderful forwarded mail from a friend. The contents were: cherish the person who went through all the things with you. A new one might be attractive but still you would then appreciate the old one more. That's because you know the old one better and there are still mysteries over the new one.
SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?

18092009------------->i'm filled with fire..NOW!

just because we live in MALAYSIA doesn't meant that you people are the greatest of all...
just because IT'S RAYA..doesn't meant that even you as an employee gets to get a day off earlier..
RAYA then raya lar..wat's so great about it?
come to talk about it..ALL BECAUSE OF RAYA.........i need to work TOMORROW...
all because of RAYA!i need to SUDDENLY cancel all my programmes for tomorrow..
i seriously don't felt like giving it a piece of shit...DID ANY OF YOU CARES BOUT WAT AM I GONNA DO?no..the answer is one fucking great no!

imagine...if your employer is MR.M...if you asked for a day off for CNY...do you think they're gonna care?
JUST BECAUSE OF ONE FUCKING RAYA...now..wat?you need a day off and you don't even inform EARLIER?
you don't bother like you think I'D bother?

never let me see any of you...fucker waste my hell lot of time...
and yes i'm seriously pissed off right now!

just because you're my mum...you have something to do tomorrow doesn't meant that i'm DEFINITELY GONNA BE FREE FOR YOU!
cox when i need you to be free..when were you free for me?
DON'T ARGUE..cox you're never free...mcb!

better stay away from me before i start flaming around...

i felt offended

just so you know....sometimes i don't tell doesn't meant that i don't feel it!

NOW YOU KNOW I REALLY FELT OFFENDED...DON'T EVER INSULT ME OR..............

you shall begone =D

16092009------------------>a ninth month =)

lol lol...is 16th of the ninth month for the year again...well =) another month anniversary..hmm..it's been a long way isn't it?like 270 days dy...haha so fast!hmm..so ya!exam in another month...wtf!?ish...i hate it...bah!gonna bear with it and get it over ASAP!can't wait to get outta hell..

well 2mrw will be tenji day =) weeeeeee i see sushi(S) i see ICE CREAMS...ouh i see FOOOOOOOOOD!! i see HANDS flying outta them calling after my name =) weeeeeeeeee...out for eating sessions with Ejinn and kwai..muahahaha =P is a must for us and is a promise..once a month yes!

okay..i guess i'll need to get back to study now...nothing much to update tho..life been a bit crazy lately..just decided not to over study..well...been playing around..jumping around ALOT!to the extend my parents worried like hell cox I DIDN'T STUDY AT ALL =S awwwfully...sad... T_T

get my hands of the laptop....in 10 mins time =) till then...ciaoz

05092009--------------->a month of working in a law firm =)

well this would one great update of me working in a law firm for the past month =D the pay was just okay..well is the experiences that counts right? hehe....i'm just tooooo lucky to have really great lawyers that are very passionate about their job and are willing to teach...the colleagues were good ones as well..start off it in a hardway but ended with an easy one =P haha..throughout the whole month..lotsa mistakes had been made..lotsa things had happened..time management is REALLY IMPORTANT in working life especially when you need to multi task..

ok i didn't snap any of the pictures..for those snap shots you can always visit my facebook lol lol...hmm...life changed quite a lot! and of course i've been dragging my laziness and days for posting...haha..yupe!haven't been updating my blog right?yah that's me...so well that day after last day of work i went...klcc for movie with my baby of course =D "final destination 4"...another great movie suggested by me who hates it horror movie the most..ish!i seriously need to overcome that =) well..normal storyline..disgusting scenes...never rate any of these movies..haha

after that..been spending alot with my salary..yes and i'm back to a poor girl...hmm..well went back to college..urgh i dun find any urge to get into class =( i don't know why..how? fei zai tutored me on my econx..very nice and helpful of him..if i ever happened to score well in my econx i BUY YOU LUNCH!weeeeeeeeeeee hmm..then then up next...went to kent's house and there i found wei ken the lil boi and james..LOL lar!

dinner at kenny roger's and the next day 090909...went for the law firm buka puasa dinner after that..being a very good girl..i went to baby's house and joined the rest of them for SAKAE session..hohoho =) lets see the guest list: baby, wei ken, james, justin, daddy, anderson, fatty lum, melissa...muahahaha...fatty,wei ken and james...ALL DEAD!lol la...daddy din drink cox he needs to send me home =) very nice of him..weeeeeeeeeeeeee

ok..so i got home around 3.30am..very good record right?hahaha...the next day...thanks to the dumbass train late for class dy so i didn't go..hmm..back to baby's house and i found 2 drunktards awake..wtf?haha..well after that..went lunchie with fatty and anderson...night..eve asked us out to laundry bar..lol!drove all the way down and eve went home?haha..rot ourselves to dead at MCD at curve..back home around 12.30am...haiyo haiyo..very good girl indeed...

friday..yesterday...woke up in the morning and didn't get the right mood to go college..so off i stayed home and study...very hardworking...never in my life i woke up and i stayed in the room study instead of online..haha...when jack's back from school..i miss that boi so i brought him to baby's place with me..makan at the pasar malam!weeeeee finally i tried daddy's asam laksa..YUMMILICIOUS =P

today..another hardworking day..home day..sleep, study, sms-ing, till the very last minute only i went on9..very good =D i should keep my life like this hahaha...

*sorry for the jumbled up post..am being really lazy =D

16082009--------->i wonder if you would bother to read

i wonder and i really really wonder...if you even bother to read my blog after so long!i updated it every now and then but it seems you didn't even give a damn about it since june =0 well...i know you're always busy..and TIRED..i'm sorry because i don't know how exhausted would it be to read my crazy blog..yes you might say that i'm having pms or something today..whatever it is that you're gonna say i'll just ignore it for just this moment..i need to let it all out!

well i really think that there's problem communicating with you...whether it's me or you..it's just WEIRD!i would be so lost of words when i tried to talk to you not because of the happiness but the sadness...it's actually killing me indirectly..i have no idea why...maybe i'm one self-torturious girl or something...to be frank i don't enjoy having twistered feelings all day long..sudden happiness or sudden sadness...it would drive me crazy =(

i hope you understand how all this things would made me feel when i have jumbled up feelings..is a total turn down for me..a total disaster..sometimes i would rather i'm a single lady..and yet sometimes i'm glad having you there..i sound contradicting..but it's just exactly how i felt like NOW!i hate you and i love you at the same time...*grrrrr

the stage play-----"wish upon a crane"

hmm...came across with this play during my a-lvls..being told by a friend...he invited me to watch it instead of helping it out...well..during that period of time i really had no mood to think about it at all..i was busy preparing exams..and after exams he didn't asked me again nor did he reminded me about the play...

right after my exam..after that lil trip to genting..i worked my ass off as an assistant bartender...till the end of july...and then i was free after that so i asked..if he needs any assistants or something..i don't mind being in the back stage helping out..as i wasn't really into acting lately =( so...i went for the first practice session few days after i resigned...

to be honest..i wasn't quite glad about the practice session..well i didn't played any part of the role in the play so i didn't really comment much about it...me,james and shaun..basically we STONED there most of the time =)

2 days before the stage play...we were busy practicing in taylors..musics first then lightings...well..being an assistant stage manager isn't easy...you'll need to take care of EVERYTHING...and is everything besides the stage..haha..for me..i'll leave the stage to the director..the rest of it..i'll try my best to make it the best!

hurm...all in all!the play turned out to be AWESOME..thanks for the help given by everyone..especially the crews from taylors...thanks a lot for helping me out...if i were to be too harsh to you..this is my apology..the cast!well done everyone...all the runners...ZILLIONS THANKS...to shaun, to james, to eleazor, to mingyi, to ivan, to andrew, to finn, to eng chun, to sin yee, to ken wei, to bryan, to sandra and more more more more more!can't really list em all out...but definitely thanks a lot guys!

the cast did a great job on the stage..we all did perform our best besides the stage.. =D i love you people...i'm sorry james and shaun..if i ever did offended you during the preparation of props and during the play...

looking forward to the after party!!!and of course...the re-stage...i hope the YB really did carried it out..haha ^^

urm...hurm...zhapalang =D

wokay...so i attended mei kuan's party...from pyjamas to red t-shirt..hmm..at least i made it this time =D it was a shocked news that just right before the party i got a job at the law firm..and all i did was..i rushed home straight after my boring day at the firm...seriously..i'm just not that kind of girl that would sit still in a place without doing anything...so please..KEEP ME BUSY!

well the party was fun...although only the 8 of us..yah my darling went with me...i feel BAD IF I ABANDON him..muahaha...carrie went with her boyfriend too...JJ,JACKSON,ESTHER and our pretty host------- MEI KUAN...had pizzas...junk foods...and fun time teasing that plump jj..haha ^^ i was died off around 1am..so apparently i went up to the room and took a short nap =) jj,jackson,esther and mei kuan were still chatting down stairs..HAPPILY..lol! it was too warm in the room...so i got up like an hour later..my blood be too sweet that the mosquitoes love me so much...

darling was sleeping while i went downstairs and chat with the 4 of them...hmm..so different people have different kinda lifestyle now...and ah hah! i made my mind after all those talk...it was fun =) by the time we ended the talk was already 4am..i actually need to shoo esther home...she made us worry sick...driving home alone in the morning..wth! seriously exhausted after working and being crazy the whole night...

so because we forgotten to buy poker cards..all of us ended up watching this disgusting and boring horror movie -------" book of blood"...muahaha..again..i got shocked and i SCREAMED..sorry people..they actually had a great shocked...weeeeeee =P

ah!went for a breakfast session with PY after mei kuan sent darling to work...i really had the feeling of not going for any breakfast and just sleep for the rest of the day...effing tired..but i just didn't see this young lady for too long...haha =) so...lol she ended up coming with her boyfriend..well maybe it's just me...i'm the one being particular bout this thing i guess..i just don't really enjoy going out with my friend and their dates...you see first because i don't really know their dates of something..second i just don't enjoy being the "light bulb"...very very WEIRD...i'm sorry...

at the same time i felt tired..so after that breakfast i went home straight and from 12pm i simply slept till 9pm which is when my mum woke me up...happy moments happy dreams during my sleeping session..haha =)

didn't sleep just now and i watched the movie "sepet"...i rated it...SUPER GOOD compared to the other local movies xD..before that had a round of dota with jackson...lion pwns it all =D urm..argh!nothing much...

something i found in jackson's blog =)

1. Get to know yourself better..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

this is just so true about me..everything.. =) lol

2. The Real You

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

well..i'll just say yes and no at the same time...let it be in between =D

resources from: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

haha =) may you ppl have a good laugh at the video =D

my overall life =) since the day i resigned =D

well well...my last day of work would be 26th of july...it has been a week since i last worked my ass off =( seriously dying of boredom at home now...urgh more of a rotten egg =D i've tried so hard that i changed my entire biological clock UPSIDE-DOWN...when the others(basically those that have a life out there) get up and do something useful to their live..i SLEEP...when they're getting ready to sleep..that's the time when i feel at peak..the feeling is like as if i'm living in UK..or just somewhere far away from msia...

hmm..so my entire family paid a visit to el cerdo...for dinner..the place that i worked at..okay..the food was AWESOME...suckling pig was rated 2.5 stars..feedback was kinda terrible..the ribs was the best dish among all..still i had my best rasberry milkshake which is off the menu..it was randomly made by my "shifu" the other day and i love it =D..boss was one kind man..what he did was for my better future but IT'S DEFINITELY KILLING ME RIGHT NOW!and i'm sure that it's gonna happen soon...not now...BUT SOON!!!rawr!!

i'd done watching all the dramas that i got from ching...finished all 4 alex rider's series that i took from darling...unfortunately..I BOUGHT THE WRONG TWILIGHT SERIES BOOK TODAY...haiy...bought the last instead of first..alex rider left hanging..i was told that the book is only sold in UK..*sigh* books are addictive..never let me get in touch with one or i'll crave for more..you might think that i'm some sort of nerd there..BUT that's me..don't doubt it!

i should be sleeping now...yet i couldn't...thanks to that "haunted scream" that poped out from outta no where..i have no idea WHERE!whether it's from someone's blog or just you know..."haunted"...so..I'M WIDE AWAKE RIGHT NOW(is almost 6am T_T)!i did tried watching that movie twilight just now..it's just another romance movie to me..not much of a special thing..the only part that i find it exciting should be the ending part where the cullen's family moved out from the place(i'd forgotten the name) in order to save bella..and i couldn't continue because megavideo doesn't allow me to do so =(

urmm...i wanted to watch "the taking of pelham 123" tho..should be a nice one..haha ^^ thriller...i'd prefer the book i guess...movies creates imaginations in my brain =( and if it's gonna be thriller or horror movie..there goes my night...

am working on a stage play with shaun and james and others now...as an assistant stage manager..well i was given this opportunity and therefore i approached shaun and told him i would help him up with the stage and stuff...well..i'd say it's an extremely sad stage play..no doubt the players played it well besides the "mother" so far..keep it up guys!it's my personal op. afterall..

pc fair's on the run..this time...the girls that posed for the games ARE WAY PRETTIER than the previous one..sorry..but is the truth..mom bought one ee pc from asus on the first day..tomorrow will be the third day...went with darling on the second day tho..sakae sushi for dinner =D fingerlicking GOOD =P had my worst ice cream from gelato place i think...i'd always described those as.."cow dunk" ice cream...can't really remember which fella always scold me for critisizing other's ice cream...but that ice cream is SUCKY!melted so fast and...tasted just like those 2 bucks ice cream nothing special..cone was EXTREMELY SMALL...

had a fight with parents...they're just being ridiculous..you're my dad and you're my mum...please say something reasonable if you wanna scold me..don't try to be ridiculous and tell me that i should respect you after all those nonsense..it doesn't make sense at all =( i was upset that you said yes..your dad was ridiculous and that whatever he said doesn't make sense at all BUT YOU SHOULD SHUT UP and NOT FIGHT BACK...what the fucking hell on earth was that?urgh...whatever you say...bah!boring...

tagged by pik yee =)

1. What have you been doing recently?
rotting at home after i'd resigned =) preparing for the stage play tho..as an assisstant stage manager =D


2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
nope..nope =P dun think so..


3. What happened at 10am today?
happily sleeping...=D


4. When did you last cry?
last week =S


5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?
yes... =(

6. What do you want in life now?
all the happiness that i'll have for the rest of my life =) sadness shooshoo..


7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
NO..and never..is a hassle carrying it =(


8. What's your favorite thing to do in bed?
uh huh...to read?to sleep?o.o


9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
red botshorts =)


10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

tonnes and tonnes of forwarded e-mails


11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no and never =)


12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
no


13. What was the last movie you caught?
unfortunately..it was the movie that turned me down =( harry potter =S


14. What are you proud of?
me...


15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
one random fella..about the differences of mistresses and wives =)


16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
uh huh...can't remember =(


17. Do you have any nicknames?

weeeeeeeeee...yes =D


18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
haiyo....my darling...is written there nope =D


19. What time did you sleep last night?
awesomeness


20. Are you currently happy?
hmm...yah!no?yah!no?yah lar....weeeeeeeeee


21. Who gives you the best advice?

the one and only one...weeee i know and it shall always be in my heart =D


22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no..tarak..too oily =S


23. Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
none gua...


24. Is something bugging you right now?
YES...normal issues =(


25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
ah huh...flends =) my daddy lor..haha...his faked death


26. Do you like yourself?
YES =)


27. You want $5 or $10?

for wat?from who?


28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?

everytime =S haiy...


29. What will you do if you like that girl/boy?
be myself =D


30. Who are your favourite stars?
lol...lots of them..my jay..my lp..my darling..my family..my friends =)


31. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
not really hate..just pissed off =D


32. Do you had even stead before?
o.O apani?


33. What type of girl/boy do you like?
great question =D one guy that will be by my side..and listen to my sadness..my problems..a guy with heart =(


34. Now are you single/attached?
dah taken lar...my darling =) and i love him...


35. Tag 10 friends

1) agnes teh

2) jasmine

3) shaun

4) fatty tom

5) jaywhy

6) JJ

7) Daryl

8) Justin

9) E Jinn

10) Esther

you're so near and yet so far..

in reality..you're miles and miles away from me..

in my dreams..you're just so close..

to the extend that i could easily reach out for you...

the one who had the ability to pull me out from my fantasies and left me behind..

the one that told me how cruel the reality would be..

you forgotten your promises and you kept NONE!

you left them in my heart swarming through my dreams...

you made no effort in fulfilling them...

and yet..i still had that lil' hope...hoping that those promises would come true...

i wonder how you felt right now...

and i wonder how are you...

i'm always wondering and haven't been told any of those feelings besides i love you..

lets make it a role play and you shall try looking from my view..

maybe you would see no differences at all and maybe you would sense the same..

life is just unpredictable and yet i tried so hard to predict it..

why predict it?when you can just sit there and wait...

i'm tired of all these...i just need a break...

please forgive me...lotsa lies have been told..

sometimes i just don't want to burden you..i'm sorry darling =(

15072009------------>one LONG update..

not bad..not bad...last update was on the 30th of june =D i would just update this post in chinese...i realized that i haven't been using my mother tongue for such long time that i almost abandoned it..all the grammar mistakes.. =(

七月，一个我不知道是好还不坏的月份。。真的不知道。。很多的不开心和很多的开心都发生了。。
开心的就是我做工作到这个月底就不用再作了。。哈哈！再也看不到那个肥婆咯。。真开心！^^
我的学弟去世了。。哈哈！觉得我在开玩笑吗？我也很希望我是在开玩笑的。。我真的很想！很希望我自己是在过着愚人节。。。
星期日，逛街逛一半，一通电话过来。。“你记得谁是明泽吗？” “我记得。。mashi的弟弟嘛。。”
之后就是。。 “今天早上他走journey的时候，遇车祸，现在在医院动手术。。” “哦，那他出来在告诉我怎样了。。那个很可爱的小弟弟。。没有错？” “没有。。”
好啦。。。之后就这样没有消息到下午5点，“喂，他怎样了？” “mashi说医生刚弄好他的内脏，现在弄着他的手。。” “oo..那你迟点再打给我拉。。”
就这样，晚上11点，简讯来了。。 “他从手术室出来了，还不能自己呼吸。。”
看到这里，总是会觉得靠着那个呼气管，过了几天就大概会好了，醒来了。。对，我有时候就是会如此的乐观。。。放松了一整天紧绷在心理的感觉。。
我还想说，他以后会如何告诉他的朋友过马路时真的要很小很小心。。然后心理狠狠的诅咒那个撞了他就走的笨蛋司机！
第二天，也就是星期一，看到那个肥婆已经很不爽了，竟然还要被她间接侮辱我。。妈的！如果他不是我的supervisor，你看我鸟不鸟他？！一看手机，就是两个未接电话，一封简讯。。“明泽去世了”。。这个是在我最不爽的时候收到的消息。。看着那封简讯，我真的楞着了。。我不知道我可以做什么。。电话响了，我接。。另外一头是一个女孩的哭声。。很伤心，我找不到适当的词句来形容我的心情。。
真的很难以置信，我什么都做不到。。没有一个人做得到东西。。如果他走了，他就不用受苦的话，那他走吧。。明泽，安息！一个在每个人都duty着会来慰问你的小男孩，就是他了。。总是挂着开心的笑容来问候你的一天。。
报章竟然没有登这则新闻？果然是马来西亚。。这个国家养活了一个不负责任的司机却失去了一条宝贵的生命。。但愿那个司机不会有好日子过。。撞了就逃，不为自己的过错负起责任的，根本不是大丈夫的行为。。

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there you go the little junior..may you rest in peace..we miss you...